It has been a long while since I last post. Today, I met a color therapist. She shares about colors give us different emotions and feelings. I spoke to her how much I have grown through journalising by day to day life and have grown from strength to strength. Little did I know that I have stop writing since Nov 2013. Not that I don't have anything to write. It just that my habit of writing has stopped somehow. Perhaps I spent more time writing in Facebook, sharing the happenings with my friends.
I feel that I should continue journalising, mainly because it shapes my thoughts and feelings. It allows me to assemble my thoughts and feelings through writing. A good platform to write again, even though, it maybe just two person reading. But it is okay. Writing has become part of my journey. I still enjoy writing and just my ideas flow. Sometimes when I recall the past incidents happened to me and I reflect. Big things become small things and small things are actually big things. It is all about my own thoughts and perceptions on how to look at the way it is.
Alarm clock used to be my biggest enemy. I dislike the sound of the ringing. When it rang, it just force me to get up and I dislike the forcing feeling. But today, I see the alarm clock in a different light. It seems to tell me that the time is clicking away seconds by seconds and to cherish all my time that I have in this world. Who knows what will happens to me when I pass on? I have no answer right now but i will know when my time is up. More importantly, is to cherish my time at this very present moment.
My biggest hope is to make a difference in people lives. In order to do that, I need to have self love for myself. In order to love others, I need to love myself, experience the love radiates from myself before I have the ability to love others. A good statement is, when you can give because you have it. I thank myself for allowing myself to learn and grow. I understand growing is not easy, but I am embracing and I really hope that I can make a difference, not only to myself but to other people.
On Wed, I listened to the radio DJ asked, "Do you think being alone is loneliness?" I disagree to this question. As we all can be alone but still feel the sense of joy. Now I have come to a point that when I am with family and friends, I am at ease and even when I am with myself I am at ease and happy. I don't need another person to make myself happy because I can generate happiness within myself.
The truth is spending quiet moment with myself at this moment. To me, this is a blessing. Thank the universe for the quiet moment.