17 May, 2012

黃小琥 - 沒那麼簡單



作詞:姚若龍
作曲:蕭煌奇

沒那麼簡單 就能找到 聊得來的伴
尤其是在 看過了那麼多的背叛
總是不安 只好強悍
誰謀殺了我的浪漫

沒那麼簡單 就能去愛 別的全不看
變得實際 也許好也許壞各一半
不愛孤單 一久也習慣
不用擔心誰 也不用被誰管

感覺快樂就忙東忙西
感覺累了就放空自己
別人說的話 隨便聽一聽 自己作決定
不想擁有太多情緒
一杯紅酒配電影
在周末晚上 關上了手機 舒服窩在沙發裡

相愛沒有那麼容易 每個人有他的脾氣
過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜
幸福沒有那麼容易 才會特別讓人著迷
什麼都不懂的年紀
曾經最掏心 所以最開心 曾經

沒那麼簡單 就能去愛 別的全不看
變得實際 也許好也許壞各一半
不愛孤單 一久也習慣
不用擔心誰 也不用被誰管

感覺快樂就忙東忙西
感覺累了就放空自己
別人說的話 隨便聽一聽 自己作決定
不想擁有太多情緒
一杯紅酒配電影
在周末晚上 關上了手機 舒服窩在沙發裡

相愛沒有那麼容易 每個人有他的脾氣
過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜
幸福沒有那麼容易 才會特別讓人著迷
什麼都不懂的年紀
曾經最掏心 所以最開心 曾經

相愛沒有那麼容易 每個人有他的脾氣
過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜
幸福沒有那麼容易 才會特別讓人著迷
什麼都不懂的年紀
曾經最掏心 所以最開心 曾經
想念最傷心 但卻最動心 的記憶

16 May, 2012

Drop the Pink Elephant

I am reading this book: Drop the Pink Elephant currently. This book is written by Bill McFarlan in 2003. 15 ways to say what you mean... and mean what you say. I like the part where this author shares about positive criticism and compliments.

I have written down the essence of this book. However, I still recommend this book to friends who enjoy reading and have a sense of humor :)

Chapter 1 - Drop the Pink Elephant
The Pink Elephant are words of denials such as 'don't', 'not', 'no', 'did not' and 'didn't' are transparent. We automatically look through them for the real meaning.

For example, if i say 'Don't think of pink elephant.' Immediately, your mind will appear a clear picture of a Pink Elephant!

So a pink elephant is unnecessary and normally vivid, negative. It is the metal baggage we always carry around with us.

Always tell people who we really are.
1. Begin with some self analysis. Are you using Pink Elephants?
2. Describe what is happening. Stick to the positive point.
3. Hunt down the Pink Elephants in your conversations and those of others.

Chapter 2 - Every Picture Tells a Story
1. Speak in vivid pictures to paint clear descriptions.
2. Use analogies to turn abstract concepts and jargon into bright pictures.
3. Avoid talking above or below your audience's level. Instead, talk to their level.

Chapter 3 - Staying on Louisiana Highway
1. Retain the moral high ground by remaining patient and polite.
2. Be sure of your facts and use only polite explanation.
3. That's how to stay on Louisiana Highway, rather than getting stuck in the swamp.

Chapter 4 - Sorry seems to be the hardest word
1. Saying 'Sorry' is the best way to start rebuilding confidence in your relationship after something has gone wrong.
2. We respect those who apologise - and lost respect for those who pretend to be infallible.
3. Regret, Reason and Remedy offers an apology, explanation and solution. It manages expectation, which must then be met.

Chapter 5 - Tell the Unpalatable Truth, rather than the 'White Lie'
When you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything. - Mark Twain
1. The truth can be defined by how far you are willing to go to establish a fact.
2. The truth is reality, white lie is a figment of the imagination.
3. Once a lie is discovered, you are a liar.

Chapter 6 - Thank You and Well Done Well done is better than well said. - Benjamin Franklin
1. Saying 'Thank You and Well Done' demonstrates your appreciation. It raises your self-confidence and that of the person you are thanking.
2. It builds loyalty, while lack of recognition builds indifference.
3. When someone thanks you, accept his or her gratitude with good grace. Put it in the bank and watch your confidence grow.

Chapter 7 - Who looks stupid when you criticise in public?
1. Destructive criticism of children and adults alike destroys their self-confidence and often turns them into critics themselves.
2. Only offer criticism privately and ensure you are able to explain how things can be done better.
3. Humour is great. Just make sure everybody finds your humour funny. Haha :D

Chapter 8 - Flush out the watering down words
1. Remove words that dilute your message. Words like 'quite', 'relatively', 'hopefully', 'fairly' and 'reasonably'
2. 'I'll do my best' and 'I'll try' both lack firm commitment. 3. To avoid sounding evasive, where possible begin an answer with 'yes', 'no' or 'I don't know.'

Chapter 9 - Talk positively about yourself
1. Start describing your life positively and watch the interest grow.
2. Be positive in the face of bad news. By breaking the news, you remain in control of what's being said first.
3. Instead of assuming, check the facts.

Chapter 10 - It's all relative
1. For anything to be interesting, we need to relate to it.
2. What's interesting to us may well be boring to our audience.
3. Put a problem into perspective to see how small it really is.

Chapter 11 - Email and text - Bullets or Boomerangs?
1. Emails travel at the speed of bullets, so be certain of what you're saying before pulling the trigger.
2. Conversational English makes a speech or presentation much easier to follow.
3. We all have accents. Stop being self-conscious about yours.

Chapter 12 - Three little questions
1. What do I want to say? Always have a few points ready.
2. Who am I speaking to? Consider your audience and their interests.
3. How should I put it? Once you consider that, you can arrange your bullet points in order of importance.

Chapter 13 - Listen first to Understand
1. Listen carefully to the person you are talking with.
2. Contribute to the conversation in a meaningful way, rather than just waiting to butt in.
3. Use body language and the tone of your voice to add conviction to your well-chosen words.

Chapter 14 - Powerful words
1. Powerful words can sum up a situation better than loose thoughts.
2. They can inspire you to succeed and to act in the knowledge that others have gone there before you.
3. Words have to be consistent with your actions - Otherwise they are empty words.

Chapter 15 - Think, Talk, Act... Then Tell the World
1. Put all the highway code rules of good communication into action each day.
2. Allow your confidence to grow from the certainty they bring your words, your thoughts and your actions.
3. Tell the world what you have to offer. It can mean the difference between success and failure, happiness and frustrations. Even life and death.

Beautiful Girl

Sing by Aaron Kwok, Composed by Jose Mari Chan

10 May, 2012

Truly Inspired by Todd Beltz

Todd received a very nice email from a student who is studying photography at a college in Australia and as a part of his assignment to develop a business plan, he had to connect with a professional photographer in an area of photography that he most enjoyed.

The student found Todd's work and asked Todd a bunch of questions which he happily shared what he know with the student. The student's question though made him really think and that was, any advice in closing that he could offer? This was his response..random thoughts and what he have learned over the years:

"Stick with what you know, learn all you can, stay hungry, and stay foolish. Never give up. Create new ideas, always shoot, develop a style all your own, network all you can with those around you, don't make enemies and don't act as if you are better than everyone else, especially to those seasoned photographers who have been around awhile. Share your knowledge, insights and help those photographers under you who are just starting to break into the market. Look up to those who have been there and done that, study the styles of others but don't copy them. Learn something new all the time. Ask a lot of questions. Attend photography gatherings. Put a smile on your clients face. Be humble. Take risks. And most of all, enjoy life to the fullest." Todd Beltz

He did photography purely passion. Sure he makes money from it but he loves to share and hopefully by doing so he inspires others to grow and discover their passion as well.

Thanks for sharing his thoughts on Facebook wall with me and his friends. That's how I feel towards my designing work as well. His words re-enforce what I believe and have been doing for all these years. Thanks Todd!

Photography Career Factors

Todd Beltz posted a situation on his Facebook wall. Photographers would you pay $500 to have your portfolio reviewed by some top editors of magazines, ad agencies and galleries from around the world or should something like this not come at a price? Paying this fee doesn't guarantee you a job..just a meeting.

I think the below advises are pretty relevant to me. I just need to twig it according to my own career path.


Photography career factors to consider
by Felix Hug

‎1. Where are you in your career? Its not only to get a job straight away, but some valuable advice from people in the business and the market you are aiming for.

‎2. If its the right organization doing it, its money well spend, because it can open your network as well. Looking back at my first years some of the help i got from editors and senior people in the business was much more worth then 500 dollars.

‎3. Photography in todays market is a long and winding road, unless you are super talented. You need people who mentor you and point your nose in the right direction. Its really not only what you know but who you know as well, given that you have solid work.

‎4. In Sydney I would call ad agencies and try to get meetings with the Creative Directors, just for the sake of getting advice on my folio. It was very hard, because this people are busy a lot and so many photographers know on their doors.... However the meetings i got were very valuable. One of the best advice I got was actually that I'm in the wrong market location wise and the explanations i received made perfect sense. You have to understand that meetings like this are about a lot more then the quality of your images. Its about understanding how the market works in the region you are trying to operate.

‎5. If you do it, make sure you arrive with lots of questions ;-). All the things that keep buzzing around in your head, keeping you from your path.. ask them. Don't wait for them to help you out... make them help you, by asking questions.

‎6. Most importantly: Listen! Learn!.. this is not the time to be proud or arrogant (not that you would be). Its the time to soak it all up and adjust the career path. You want to know what steps to take next. Ask them also, if you do make some adjustments down the road, would they be willing to meet you again (not for money), but for actual job interviews.

Felix Hug was born in Switzerland at the beginning of the carneval (Fasnacht) season in 1964, the 11th day of the 11th month, at almost at 11.11 am to be precise.

How much that indicated, what would become, an unconventional lifestyle is unknown, but heavily influenced by his late father, a painter, he followed his passion for design and the arts.

He has won Best Image Awards in the following competitions:
@ The Asian Geographic Grand Prize, Singapore
@ The International Photography Awards, USA
@ American Photo, Image of the Year, USA
@ Travel Photographer Of The Year, GB
@ The New York Photography Awards, USA

His works can be view here: www.eyesonasia.net

09 May, 2012

容祖儿 - 挥着翅膀的女孩

你曾经对我说,做勇敢的女孩。虽然你已不在,我也不是那个懵懂的女孩,遇到爱 用力爱 仍信真爱。
Dedicate this beautiful song to all single ladies in this world. :)

鄭秀文 - 唯独你是不可取替

鄭秀文演唱,許志安和音 - 完美的演唱搭档

许志安 郑秀文 - 其实你心裡有没有我



若爱上你怎么躲
梦你迷人笑涡
如我每天总偷偷想你
这应否算是傻

在这芳心燃起恋火
但你明了我么
而每一天日子轻轻飞过
谁愿分秒记着我

但愿你容我接近你更多
谁预算情爱这样难捉摸
Oh No
长夜里点点星火犹如你窗边经过
(长夜里我要化做你眼中星星一颗)
凝望我闪出光彩照亮心窝
(来让你每个晚上亦望见我)

让我再次回忆当初
是我爱你太多
其实有否一点喜欢我
(才会每天这么想知你)
为何始终不太清楚
(其实心里有没有我)

谭咏麟 - 朋友

Sing this at Karoke with friends. This song is considered a classic, evergreen, ageless among chinese songs.



曲:芹泽广明 词:向雪怀

繁星流动 和你同路
从不相识 开始心接近
默默以真挚待人
人生如梦 朋友如雾
难得知心 几经风暴
为着我不退半步 正是你
遥遥晚空点点星光息息相关
你我那怕荆棘铺满路
替我解开心中的孤单
是谁明白我
情同两手一起开心一起悲伤
彼此分担不分我或你
你为了我 我为了你
共赴患难绝望里 紧握你手
朋友

陈百强 - 偏偏喜欢你

Very old song, even the singer has passed on. Good music and song remains. Enjoyed this song since young. This is the first cantonese song that I learn to sing when I was very young. Very touching lyrics.



愁绪挥不去苦闷散不去
为何我心一片空虚
感情已失去一切都失去
满腔恨愁不可消除

为何你的嘴里总是那一句
为何我的心不会死
明白到爱失去一切都不对
我又为何偏偏喜欢你

*爱已是负累相爱似受罪
心底如今满苦泪
旧日情如醉此际怕再追
偏偏痴心想见你

#为何我心分秒想着过去
为何你一点都不记起
情义已失去恩爱都失去
我却为何偏偏喜欢你

重唱 *,#

情义已失去恩爱都失去
我却为何偏偏喜欢你

張國榮 - 追

陳百強 - 一生何求

電視劇《義不容情》主題曲

幸福的臉



幸福有沒有在我身邊? 怎麼一直看不見
幸福有沒有在你那邊? 讓我看看它的臉
家裡已經找了好多遍,只有溫暖的房間
爸爸說幸福就在鏡子裡,那就是我快樂的臉
老師說如果慾望能夠少一點,快樂就會多一些
愛惜地球給我們的資源 隨時記在心裡面
我用善良禮貌的雙眼 發現大家幸福的臉

感謝

Very sweet song sing by the children. Lovely lyrics of gratefulness to the our parents, teachers, friends, nature, heaven and earth being blessed in everyday of our life. Thank you :)

知足是幸福



詞/曲/編曲:許俊華 唱:李佳寧
圖片搜集:正奇^^

多少人在今天見不到明天的太陽,
多少人在今天已成了殘疾。
多少人在今天要面對饑荒,
多少人在今天已失去了家。

還活著是種幸福,有健康是份禮物。
飽暖時要懂知足,有家歸應感滿足。
要知足才會幸福,會隨緣路更好走。
順境時不起貪念,逆境時不起憎恚。

多少人在今天見不到明天的太陽,
多少人在今天已成了殘疾。
多少人在今天要面對饑荒,
多少人在今天已失去了家。

人生本來就是苦,不知足只會增加痛苦。
最後總會發現,原來平凡就是幸福。
還活著是種幸福,有健康是份禮物。
飽暖時要懂知足,有家歸應感滿足。

要知足才會幸福,會隨緣路更好走。
果報現隨遇而安,種善果念彌陀。
知足就是幸福。

生气时,听一听

生氣就是拿別人的錯誤來處罰自己~~靜思語



生气时 让时间停一停
不要讓他人的錯醜化了自己
想一想 生氣的時候
受傷的不只是他人 也傷害了自己

如果你 靜一靜 觀照你內心
他人的惡語 或許是自己 惡念的顯現
就把它 掏出來 讓它遠離自己
心中存感激 是因為菩薩教你 內心更堅強 ~~~~

不怕 不要愁
反而當下沉默想一想
去愛他 祝福他
願他遠離生氣的煩惱

陳國榮 - 有用的人

动力火车 - 我吃得起苦

Another motivating song to spur us to move on.



走出去就有路
寻见了 就有福
拥有了一切 都进了包袱
思念是带不走的

天空 疑云密布
心中 翻腾起伏
虽将飘摇 前途仍模糊
此地会是我 衣锦还乡处

飘洋过海 我吃得起苦
相信天无绝人之路
现实有咒诅 梦里有祝福
有缘同舟 风雨共渡

顶着烈日当空 眼底有迷雾
不能再让懦弱困住
日子多坎坷 命运有变数
只盼久旱逢甘露

童安格 - 生命過客

This is another old song which I like it very much in the past. Very meaningful words. Cherish the moments.



1990年新加坡電視劇《出人頭地》主題曲,童安格主唱,收錄在1990年出版的【真愛是誰】專輯。

童安格 -《生命過客》
曲﹕李偉菘 / 李偲菘
詞﹕卡斯

在擁擠的街頭 你在忙碌的追求什麼
在孤寂的角落 你知道失去的越多
在擁有的角落 你是否曾經好好珍惜
在失去的時候 是否依然那麼在意

一生要失敗幾回 才知道成功的意義
一生要愛過幾回 才了解愛的真諦

一生要失敗幾回 啊
愛的真諦 愛的真真諦
一生要失敗幾回 才知道成功的意義 哦

新摇 - 锦绣年华



词:邢增华/陈佳明
曲:巫启贤

  没有什么可以取代梦和追求
  心中没有空间留下恨和忧愁
  每一天都是一生的起点
  不在于理想离我多遥远
  最珍惜在过程中一点点的实现

 *没有什么可以取代爱和自由
  我不需要学会怎样侵占和拥有
  不一定富有才等于成就
  别以为不变就能够长久
  有什么它可以永远不变
  永远都为你停留

**不老的心 不老的梦
  不老的青春不能感觉痛
  不老的心 不老的梦
  谁都想拥有彩色的天空
  锦绣年华天天有梦
  请不要让黑夜占领你金色的梦*

黃譓禎 巫啟賢 - 邂逅

This is a very old song. Meaningful lyrics and beautiful photos. I think these days difficult to find such sentimental and senic wordings for a song. Maybe in the past, people can really sit down and willing to spend time to appreciate the beauty of the nature.



入暮的山途獨有我行
落紅鏗然顯凄清
低吟起那幽陰的歌
歌聲抖出了蕭索

歌韻隱隱飄蕩入我波心
牽引我山游覓覓尋
邂逅你炯瑩的星眸
顫動我翩翩入夢

恆古雋永美麗的神話
莫非已降臨此剎那
默望長空我深深祈禱
愿剎那化永恆典雅

陶喆 蔡依林 - 今天你要嫁给我

理想婚礼的浪漫冲景因该是多数女孩子想梦,美满的婚姻因该是多数夫妻的理想吧。 有时太过浪漫会觉得太漂浮,有时太提调,又觉得生活太过乏味。所以我们需要平衡,做到能够调情,又很踏实的一起生活,教育下一代。这就是最好又美满的婚姻。

Can't find the original David Tao and Jolin Tse MTV, but found this maplestory wedding ceremony instead. It is quite nicely done and it is cute video.

卓文萱 小鬼 - 愛的主旋律

很梦幻的MTV

陳綺貞 五月天 - 私奔到月球

這一刻 不再問為什麼 不再去猜測人和人 心和心 有什麼不同

田馥甄 - 我真的受傷了

The original singer was sang by Jacky Cheung. I like this female unplug version, sang by Hebe. Very soothing feeling.

蘇打綠 - 小情歌

I like the illustrations on the background. Nice!

蔡旻佑 - 我可以

当一切美好的时候,听这首歌是幸福的。
当一切已过去时,听这首歌有一点凄凉。
或许与你在一起的时光已经过去了,只留下一种感慨。爱越深,心越痛。但我不会因为怕痛而不敢再去爱。这叫做越战越勇吧。如果有一天,真的让我遇到一个真心爱我的人,我会再一次奋不顾身的去爱他。


Love Takes Time

Heard this emotional, healing song from Mariah Carey on the radio. It is indeed that love takes time to heal the wound and pains that we have. I feel that I am recovering from the heartbreaking pain in my heart. Letting go of the past romance is really what I need to do and I'm doing it well. Thank myself for allowing to love again :)



Love Takes Time Lyrics
Performed by Mariah Carey

I had it all
But I let it slip away
Couldn't see I treated you wrong
Now I wander around
Feeling down and cold
Trying to believe that you're gone

Love takes time
To heal when you're hurting so much
Couldn't see that I was blind
To let you go
I can't escape the pain
Inside
'Cause love takes time
I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be here alone

Losing my mind
From this hollow in my heart
Suddenly I'm so incomplete
Lord I'm needing you now
Tell me how to stop the rain
Tears are falling down endlessly

Love takes time
To heal when you're hurting so much
Couldn't see that I was blind
To let you go
I can't escape the pain
Inside
'Cause love takes time
I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be here alone

You might say that it's over
You might say that you don't care
You might say you don't miss me
You don't need me
But I know that you do
And I feel that you do
Inside

Love takes time
To heal when you're hurting so much
Couldn't see that I was blind
To let you go
I can't escape the pain
Inside
'Cause love takes time
I don't wanna be there
I don't wanna be there alone

Guardian Angel

Was listening to "花样少男少女" soundtrack. Quite a nice album. The favourite song is "专属天使" sing by Tank, nice music with meaningful words. The words stand out from the music in the song... I prefer the sentimental songs as they evoke more feelings.





Let me be someone's Guardian Angel and protect him with my life.

07 May, 2012

周惠专辑

周惠专辑
Track 1 - 約定
Track 2 - 话题
Track 3 - 替身
Track 4 - 我喜歡
Track 5 - 我不是你的唯一
Track 6 - 不想讓你知道
Track 7 - 不哭
Track 8 - 該忘了你對不對
Track 9 - 不愛了也是一種愛

Track 1 - 約定


Track 2 - 话题


Track 3 - 替身


Track 4 - 我喜歡


Track 5 - 我不是你的唯一


Track 6 - 不想讓你知道


Track 7 - 不哭


Track 8 - 該忘了你對不對


Track 9 - 不愛了也是一種愛

06 May, 2012

纽约的司机驾着北京的梦

Happen to listen to this song from the radio. I heard tonight is the Supermoon night, very suitable to listen to this lovely song. Where the moon is much closer to the Earth. Maybe can view it tonight if I am outside.

Digital Composite of #Supermoon at Moonset on 6th May 2012
by Willy Foo

04 May, 2012

Overcoming Tough Times


On this eve's of Vesak day, I would like to share my experience with depression. I would try my best to recall what have really happened at that point in time, so that people understand what depression is about and how do we recover from it and most importantly, we prevent depression.

Depression is more than feeling down or being sad. Depression may affect your work, interest in activities and quality of life. It is not a sign of weakness and it does not just 'go away'. Depression is a medical condition that affects hwo you think, behave and the way you feel and function. It is one of the most common mental health problems and is faced by 121 million people worldwide. Depression can happen to anyone.

When I did my research about depression, I was shocked to find out that 1 out of 10 people suffered from depression in Singapore. In Singapore, an estimate 5.6% of the population are affected by depression during their lifetime. 5.6% x 5 million people = 280, 000 Women have relatively higher rate of occurrence of depression than men. The sex ratio is 2 : 1. In females, depression is more common in the married than single woman. Woman with 3 or more children below age of 14 are more at risk. In males, the unemployed, divorced are more likely to be depressed.

Challenging life events can increase the risk of depression especially when we find it difficult to cope with them. Some of the life stressors that can increase the risk of depression may include: - Relationship problems - Financial difficulties - Physcial illnesses - Unemployment - Lack of Support - Loss of loved one

For my case, I had depression is due to my own ignorance. I attended AsiaWorks Personal Development Course. After the course, I was confused and lost. My boyfriend who I known for 2 years, brought me to the Mental Hospital for consultation. I was fearful and helpless because I saw people suffered inside. One auntie was screaming and shouting. Another auntie was being tied up by the nurse. I was shouted at an impatient nurse. I shouted back at her because I feel that I do not deserved such treatment. I wanted to leave the Mental Hospital, but the regulation of the hospital doesn't allow until I have see the psychiatrist. Thankfully, I behaved myself and my family helped me to talked to the psychiatrist. They finally allow me to leave the hospital.

Even I left the hospital, my thoughts just got hay wired. Fear, confusion, guilt, hatred, anger arosed. I consistently thinking about those useless thoughts, lack of energy, I unabled to make a even simple decision. Full of doubts and judgements, I couldn't utter a word. I felt I was mentally paralysed. My family and friends were very worried. Then a well known psychiatrist gave me a jab, let me slept deeply and gave me medication. It is called antidepressants. They help to regulate mood and can only prescribed by a doctor. I took the mediation for half a year. I felt better at least I didn't think that much. However, it slows down my thinking process. I unable to think as fast as before.

During my depression, I did experience some of the sympytoms indicate here. - Persistent sadness or emptiness - Loss of interest in all or almost all activities - Decrease or increase in appetite drastically - Difficult in sleeping or sleeping excessively - Restlessness or feeling agitated - Fatigue and lacking in energy - Difficulty concentrating or having trouble thinking and making decisions - Frequent thoughts of death or suicide - Doubts about onself worthiness

I became addicted to my bed and slept alot. Now, I think back, I believe it is a way to protect myself from these painful experiences. I do not want to face it and I was not prepare to face it. I lost my appetite and lack of energy. I was lifeless.

I attended Dharma Teacher, Shen Shi An's courses. I remembered my first class, he shared with me was life is suffering. Yes, I felt the suffering part indeed. Teacher Shi An also shared with me about Nian Fo to be mindful of the Buddha. Despite, I was truly sufferring during that time, I Nian Fo diligently daily. For about 3 months, I really see results of my own mental health. I feel more calm and peaceful.

Thankfully, I decided to pickup myself up again. Since I wake up as early as 5am in the morning, I make sure I do something beneficial for my body. I started to go to the park. The beginning was like a torture to me, dragging myself to the park. However, my body started to get use to the fresh air and looking at the greenery makes myself happier and lighter.

I did tear in front of Guan Yin Bodhisattva's birthday before. Because I just felt the moment of helpless feeling again. I told Bodhisattva:“我真的没有办法了。。。我真的没有办法了。。。”And I cry and cry. Amazingly after crying, I felt so much better and relieve.

After that somehow I see some light. I know that since I can't make any decisions, in order to help myself and gain clarity, I started to write the things that I want to do or at least I know I can do. I accomplished small things at the pace that I feel comfortable with. Slowly day by day, I feel that I am getting healthier, more energetic and positive towards life. Most importantly, getting confident with myself again.

I really thank the Buddha, Bodhisattvas, Dharma teachers who have been helping me along these tough times. I remembered these words very strongly.

Buddha words: How well have you live and how well have you forgive and how well have you let go. Strive on with diligence.

Guan Yin Bodhisattva's words: As long as you continue to strive on with what you wanted to do, you can achieve what you want.

Ajahn Brahm's words: Failures are learning experiences and they are the juiciest part of life and that is how we learn and grow.

Shen Shi An's words: To be angry is to let others' mistakes punish us. It becomes your mistake, that you cling to for no good reason. What have you learn?

Thank you, my spiritual teachers! I really appreciate their kind words and teaching. I have release the feeling of anger, upset, hatred, guilt, disappointment, fear. I am thankful that I am well and fully recovered. May my parents and friends be free from mental and physcial suffering. May the patients of the Mental Health Hospital be free from mental suffering. Happy Vesek Day. Amituofo.

02 May, 2012

姜育恒 - 再回首

Nice Song with Meaningful Lyrics