Tonite is the worse Company "D&D" I ever had. We had dinner at Roland Restuarant. Just in case you are not sure where is it. It's at marine parade and it's a "wulu" restuarant. This dinner is organised by our discipline mistress -> HR Dept. The HR dept trying the save cost for the company. Therefore, chose the cheapest dinner and location.
When i stepped in, the feeling is old restuarant in the 60s. Can u imagine when they turn the spotlights, the waiter need to do it manually! :p The food was so-so... This is not all... They hired 2 MCs who hosted 7th month performance one loh. When we had lucky draw and played games, really felt like its a 7th month show... I kept sighing...
Actually i don't want to go for the dinner when i know its Roland Restuarant. But my manager was asked to give a singing performance there, I was there because of her... She always feel nervous before she sings. Go there to support and jia you for her :)
My manager sang "Hui Jia" by Shun Zi. That's the one and only enjoyment i had... She had a great and powerful voice and she won singing competition for 2 years. After she sang the last song, those people who she doesnt even talk to at all... walk over and make conversation with her. These people are so fake! Even my company president came over to compliment her.
What a lousy dinner I had...
28 February, 2007
27 February, 2007
What I have learnt
I watched "Pursuit of HAPPYNESS" that day. It's a inspiring show but yet I felt that it's a super serious show that I fall asleep. It's about a man, acted by Will Smith, who has straight "A"s for his studies and ironically he is jobless and this movie showed how he is able to turn his life from a lousy to a positive life.
It was the completely opposite for mine. I finally have the courage to share my worse setback. It happens when I chose to go back to the school for my degree. That time, I felt that my career is in a stagnant mode. I felt that I worked like a factory operator, worked like a zombie everyday. I need to break free from such routine.
I always love to learn new things to enrich myself. I thought I have prepared myself to go back to school. Filled with so much hope and high expectations about myself. After 1 month, I felt that the feeling is awkward and lousy. Probably the lecturers are around my age, somehow their teaching simply outcast from my mind. What I felt at that time is that the lecturers basically didn't teach much at all. Just throw you with assignments and critics sessions and expect you to perform miracles.
Okay I'm not a magician, I cannot perform magic. I'm not able to work fast and think fast on my feet. Thus, I have been struggling. I have problems with making friends; probably they are too young for me. I simply can't click with them. The worse enemy is not other people other than myself. The fear within me forced me into vicious cycle. At first, I was stressed, then I couldn't sleep thus followed by I could not even think properly which leads me into having depression.
Fortunately, after 4 months of "mental" torture, I have decided to do something for myself. Went to the net and find a new job. I'm asked to go for an interview. I was asked to design few powerpoint slides. I was freak out because i have lost all my confidence in designing. However, I told myself that i must do it at least for myself and I gave my last shot. I always take pride in all my work and that's my tiny little confidence that i have left. Strangely, i was hired.
I still have not recovered my depression. I still felt that i am a lousy designer that doesn't have creative mind. Then one day, my boss told me why i got hired that day. They hired me because I'm able to do a professional job, I have long years of experience and I'm able take my own initiative to think.
After hearing that, I'm completely flattered because I never thought my positive mindset can change my life completely. Yes, I'm able to stand on my feet again. The feeling is beyond words. Yes, I have finally pursuit of my own "HAPPYness".
It was the completely opposite for mine. I finally have the courage to share my worse setback. It happens when I chose to go back to the school for my degree. That time, I felt that my career is in a stagnant mode. I felt that I worked like a factory operator, worked like a zombie everyday. I need to break free from such routine.
I always love to learn new things to enrich myself. I thought I have prepared myself to go back to school. Filled with so much hope and high expectations about myself. After 1 month, I felt that the feeling is awkward and lousy. Probably the lecturers are around my age, somehow their teaching simply outcast from my mind. What I felt at that time is that the lecturers basically didn't teach much at all. Just throw you with assignments and critics sessions and expect you to perform miracles.
Okay I'm not a magician, I cannot perform magic. I'm not able to work fast and think fast on my feet. Thus, I have been struggling. I have problems with making friends; probably they are too young for me. I simply can't click with them. The worse enemy is not other people other than myself. The fear within me forced me into vicious cycle. At first, I was stressed, then I couldn't sleep thus followed by I could not even think properly which leads me into having depression.
Fortunately, after 4 months of "mental" torture, I have decided to do something for myself. Went to the net and find a new job. I'm asked to go for an interview. I was asked to design few powerpoint slides. I was freak out because i have lost all my confidence in designing. However, I told myself that i must do it at least for myself and I gave my last shot. I always take pride in all my work and that's my tiny little confidence that i have left. Strangely, i was hired.
I still have not recovered my depression. I still felt that i am a lousy designer that doesn't have creative mind. Then one day, my boss told me why i got hired that day. They hired me because I'm able to do a professional job, I have long years of experience and I'm able take my own initiative to think.
After hearing that, I'm completely flattered because I never thought my positive mindset can change my life completely. Yes, I'm able to stand on my feet again. The feeling is beyond words. Yes, I have finally pursuit of my own "HAPPYness".
26 February, 2007
Praying for miracle
When i reached home from work, my dad told me something bad has happened to my nephew. My heart sank when i heard this piece of bad news. We rushed down to the hospital after we were informed. I heard bit and pieces from various sources, each relative tells their own version. I finally managed to gather the full picture.
According to my "reliable" sources, the kids were playing by themselves and the adults were chatting away. When they were about to leave the place, my cousin realised that my nephew went missing. My nephew is quite an active boy so they thought he is hiding somewhere else. They searched high and low for him for 20 mins, someone found his body floating on the water. No one knows why is he doing at the swimming pool.
When they found him, his body was purple in color and his lips were black. No breathing at all. They were going to lose him in any minute. Fortunately, one of my cousin's friend knew emergency treatment, forced the water out of his body and sent him to the nearest hospital. Although his palse was weak, the doctors managed to save his life.
He is currently lying in the icu ward now. Still in coma right now attaching with big machines around him and with few tubes around him... I felt sad and helpless when i saw him. There is nothing we can do. Even the doctor told my cousin that he might wake up in a day, 3 days, 5 days, a month or even more... No one knows how long its gonna to take for him to wake up...
It's too late to point fingers at whose fault is it in the first place. The only thing we can do is to pray for miracle... If there is god, please bring this lively innocent boy back to us...
According to my "reliable" sources, the kids were playing by themselves and the adults were chatting away. When they were about to leave the place, my cousin realised that my nephew went missing. My nephew is quite an active boy so they thought he is hiding somewhere else. They searched high and low for him for 20 mins, someone found his body floating on the water. No one knows why is he doing at the swimming pool.
When they found him, his body was purple in color and his lips were black. No breathing at all. They were going to lose him in any minute. Fortunately, one of my cousin's friend knew emergency treatment, forced the water out of his body and sent him to the nearest hospital. Although his palse was weak, the doctors managed to save his life.
He is currently lying in the icu ward now. Still in coma right now attaching with big machines around him and with few tubes around him... I felt sad and helpless when i saw him. There is nothing we can do. Even the doctor told my cousin that he might wake up in a day, 3 days, 5 days, a month or even more... No one knows how long its gonna to take for him to wake up...
It's too late to point fingers at whose fault is it in the first place. The only thing we can do is to pray for miracle... If there is god, please bring this lively innocent boy back to us...
25 February, 2007
Follow the LAW?!?! Think Twice!
Had a CNY Lunch with my family today at the grassroots restaurant. The food is still as good as before. It's my sis's treat since she just got her bonuses. After the lunch, I suggested to go and watch "Follow the law" directed by jack neo. My dad don't really like jack neo movies, so end up only me and my sis went to watch.
It's a great and heartwarming movie, i would say. Very sarcastic, direct and not afraid to say some "sensitive" rules and "offensive" words about the government organisation. Actually I feel that it's doesn't only apply to government sector only... I think the problems applied to all big organisations.
Organisation is huge, many people are involved and hence more problems are created instead of reducing the number of problems. A typical good example happened in my company. One day my pc had some problems, I called the IT dept. Below was the conversation:
IT helpdesk: "How can i help you?"
Qiqi: "My pc is down, could you send someone to come down to check?"
IT helpdesk: "Please submit the "e-request" form and I will send someone down to check."
Qiqi: "But my pc is disconnected from the network, im unable to do that."
IT helpdesk: "I'm sorry you have no choice, you got to submit the form before we can do anything about it."
I started to get a bit pissed off.. My pc is down and they expect me to submit the eform... How "smart" they are. Anyway, i asked my colleague to help me.
I saw the "e-request" form, to my horror, the form is as good as askin you to fill up the "job application" form. i took 10 mins to fill up this form. This is not all. After i submitted the form, the form is routed to my superior for approval.
My superior is away on a business trip for 2 days and how can she approved this form? So i called the IT dept again. I told her my problem and guess what she said? "Sorry we have to get the approval form first before we can service your pc."
This time I was really, really mad. I told her in the firm voice.” If my boss is away for a month, does that mean that I don't need to do any work for a month?" I think that girl finally got the message. She quickly said,” Of course not, I will send a IT engineer to look into this problem."
Yes, certain things we can wait and delay but certain things we just have to use our own initiatives and try to do our best to help. I just feel that most big organisation people have no sense of urgency. Maybe they are so used to their "comfort" life in the organisation. Even a simple, little job, they can simply just wait or maybe it's just because i'm a small fry in the organisation? If I were the director of the organisation, do you think the IT people will treat me this way?
It's a great and heartwarming movie, i would say. Very sarcastic, direct and not afraid to say some "sensitive" rules and "offensive" words about the government organisation. Actually I feel that it's doesn't only apply to government sector only... I think the problems applied to all big organisations.
Organisation is huge, many people are involved and hence more problems are created instead of reducing the number of problems. A typical good example happened in my company. One day my pc had some problems, I called the IT dept. Below was the conversation:
IT helpdesk: "How can i help you?"
Qiqi: "My pc is down, could you send someone to come down to check?"
IT helpdesk: "Please submit the "e-request" form and I will send someone down to check."
Qiqi: "But my pc is disconnected from the network, im unable to do that."
IT helpdesk: "I'm sorry you have no choice, you got to submit the form before we can do anything about it."
I started to get a bit pissed off.. My pc is down and they expect me to submit the eform... How "smart" they are. Anyway, i asked my colleague to help me.
I saw the "e-request" form, to my horror, the form is as good as askin you to fill up the "job application" form. i took 10 mins to fill up this form. This is not all. After i submitted the form, the form is routed to my superior for approval.
My superior is away on a business trip for 2 days and how can she approved this form? So i called the IT dept again. I told her my problem and guess what she said? "Sorry we have to get the approval form first before we can service your pc."
This time I was really, really mad. I told her in the firm voice.” If my boss is away for a month, does that mean that I don't need to do any work for a month?" I think that girl finally got the message. She quickly said,” Of course not, I will send a IT engineer to look into this problem."
Yes, certain things we can wait and delay but certain things we just have to use our own initiatives and try to do our best to help. I just feel that most big organisation people have no sense of urgency. Maybe they are so used to their "comfort" life in the organisation. Even a simple, little job, they can simply just wait or maybe it's just because i'm a small fry in the organisation? If I were the director of the organisation, do you think the IT people will treat me this way?
24 February, 2007
To be love or to be loved
I invited my friend to TeachMe TMC this morning. She is quite interested to find out what toastmasters is all about. When we reached the entrance of AWWA. She saw this wired frame sculpture and she excitedly told me that it's done by one of her disabled friend. Then she saw my vice president of my club and that's her sec classmate! Yah Singapore is so small, its like everywhere u go seems to see people that you know...
This month chapter meeting theme is "To be love or to be loved". Yuan Ping, is one of the speakers today. When i first saw her, she is bounded in a wheelchair. However, she gave me a feeling that she is a very independent and a happy girl. Today, it's her first speech to present. The topic is about herself and her family. She shared with us about her relationship with her dad. She used to have a happy family until her dad turned into a heavy gambler, always asked for money in the family. Loan sharks almost everyday harassed them. Her family is forced to move house from one place to another place until they got so tired. He begged for forgiveness. The family forgave him over and over again, hoping that he could really changed.
However, he did not changed at all. Due to some embezzled in one of the companies, he was sent for jailed for 2 years. Despite he asked for forgiveness this time. He has lost all the faith and trust in him. The family could no longer need him and no longer able to accept him. They wished that he is out of their life for good.
I felt sad after listening to her story. Such a happy family is ruined by a man's greed. Her harsh environment forced her to be such an independent and a positive thinking girl. We could not choose what kind of parents or siblings we have but we can choose what kind of life we want.
At the end of the meeting, the club president quote:" If you think that someone should love you, you should also learn to love yourself. This world is a mirror, which shows your own image. If you want something from the world, adapt it in yourself."
23 February, 2007
Nice Surprises
I received an unknown phone call from australia few days ago. Heard an aussie voice from another end. Trying to figure out who this guy was... He said he is Daniel. I'm surprised to received his call 'cause I couldn't recongise his voice.. Probably his aussie accent is too strong :P Anyway, he called to inform me that he will be back for a few days during CNY and hoping to meet a few of poly ex-classmates.
He called again last night. He wanted to go back to school to visit our lecturers in the morning. I was on leave today so i don't mind to go with him. However, the lecturers told him that they can only meet us in the afternoon. I'm quite happy to meet him 'cause it has been few years back since i last saw him.
Yeah, its still the same old Daniel that i seen him. He doesn't change much in his looks, probably a little bit matured. Little things that he said and done, makes him look gentleman and charismatic. Probably, staying in Australia for few years has changed him to a better person.
He used to stay in amk, so I brought him to the amk hawker centre. We ordered all the food that he missed to eat them for 5 years. After breakfast, we went to Orchard for some shopping and PS 'cause he wanted to go for his haircut. While waiting for him, I just hang around shopping. Mphosis has 50% discount sales, i managed get a nice cardigan inside a messy and crowded shop.
When we reached SP, our lecturers ask us to go to foodcourt 4. To our surprise, the food court ask our own students from lion dance club to performance there. My lecturers joked that this is to welcome us back.
Anyway, i didn't want to take any photos at the beginning but the performance is pretty long. I decided to take out my camera and start shooting. The drumming was deafening and I risked "my ears" to get up close and personal shot.
After the performance, we did some catch up with the lecturers. The lecturers are as friendly as they used to be :) I guess they are source of contacts. I realised most of my ex classmates still keep in good contacts with them.
It's a nice surprise catch up with long lost friend and warmly lecturers. Glad that i took leave today. If not, will have to wait for one more year before he comes back for his holiday again...
He called again last night. He wanted to go back to school to visit our lecturers in the morning. I was on leave today so i don't mind to go with him. However, the lecturers told him that they can only meet us in the afternoon. I'm quite happy to meet him 'cause it has been few years back since i last saw him.
Yeah, its still the same old Daniel that i seen him. He doesn't change much in his looks, probably a little bit matured. Little things that he said and done, makes him look gentleman and charismatic. Probably, staying in Australia for few years has changed him to a better person.
He used to stay in amk, so I brought him to the amk hawker centre. We ordered all the food that he missed to eat them for 5 years. After breakfast, we went to Orchard for some shopping and PS 'cause he wanted to go for his haircut. While waiting for him, I just hang around shopping. Mphosis has 50% discount sales, i managed get a nice cardigan inside a messy and crowded shop.
When we reached SP, our lecturers ask us to go to foodcourt 4. To our surprise, the food court ask our own students from lion dance club to performance there. My lecturers joked that this is to welcome us back. Anyway, i didn't want to take any photos at the beginning but the performance is pretty long. I decided to take out my camera and start shooting. The drumming was deafening and I risked "my ears" to get up close and personal shot.
After the performance, we did some catch up with the lecturers. The lecturers are as friendly as they used to be :) I guess they are source of contacts. I realised most of my ex classmates still keep in good contacts with them.
It's a nice surprise catch up with long lost friend and warmly lecturers. Glad that i took leave today. If not, will have to wait for one more year before he comes back for his holiday again...
19 February, 2007
House Visiting
House Visiting is one of the chinese new year traddition that friends and relatives will go to one another's house paying for a visit. Due to everyone's "busy" lifestyle, nowadays relatives are less and less contactable so its the "best time" for gathering. Sometimes you may see some weirdos in some houses.
My best friend invited me to go to her aunty house this year. Her aunty is friendly and she's a great cook. Do you know why i say that? It's because normally i eat half bowl of rice. Today i eat 2 bowls of rice and drank finish all her soup hahaha... Oops :P
After the good meal, her aunty wants us to stay with her because she needs to wait for this "special" family. I cant help but to wonder y this family is so "special". They were told to come to her aunty's place between 1-4pm because we need to rush off to somewhere else at 4pm. And guess what time they turn up? 4PM loh!!! We were like huh?
Being a kind hearted aunty, she still asked them to come up. The moment the family stepped into the house, the daugther "stepped" on my toes loh.. Not phyically but her words. She was looking at me from head to toe and give me the stunned look. She said, "So this gal is ah boy's gf ah?"
I was almost fainted loh.. My best friend's brother is only 13 years old, how can he be my bf? Miss pls open your eyes big big okay... This is not all.. Then she continue, "Aiyah girls not smart nevermind pretty can le, guys not handsome nevermind rich can le" I was even put off my her words...
Then the comes her nerdy big brother... sitting there to block my view. I was watching my JJ loh.. Yah.. maybe he thinks he IS JJ... I told them that JJ is my idol and guess what the father said? "Idol ah... not Vomit Sulpture ah" How could he insulted my idol and what does he know about people who passionate about their life! and the mum was laughing like a witch...
Although i only spend 30 mins observing them. Really cant stand them for another minute. Yah they may be rich but to me they are just a unrefine and brainless family.
Okay, i shall stop writing for a few days because im going for my holiday with my parents :) Yah, wanted to spend real quality time with them before i get too busy with my life again. Will update my blog once i come back from my trip...
Happy New Year once again :)
My best friend invited me to go to her aunty house this year. Her aunty is friendly and she's a great cook. Do you know why i say that? It's because normally i eat half bowl of rice. Today i eat 2 bowls of rice and drank finish all her soup hahaha... Oops :P
After the good meal, her aunty wants us to stay with her because she needs to wait for this "special" family. I cant help but to wonder y this family is so "special". They were told to come to her aunty's place between 1-4pm because we need to rush off to somewhere else at 4pm. And guess what time they turn up? 4PM loh!!! We were like huh?
Being a kind hearted aunty, she still asked them to come up. The moment the family stepped into the house, the daugther "stepped" on my toes loh.. Not phyically but her words. She was looking at me from head to toe and give me the stunned look. She said, "So this gal is ah boy's gf ah?"
I was almost fainted loh.. My best friend's brother is only 13 years old, how can he be my bf? Miss pls open your eyes big big okay... This is not all.. Then she continue, "Aiyah girls not smart nevermind pretty can le, guys not handsome nevermind rich can le" I was even put off my her words...
Then the comes her nerdy big brother... sitting there to block my view. I was watching my JJ loh.. Yah.. maybe he thinks he IS JJ... I told them that JJ is my idol and guess what the father said? "Idol ah... not Vomit Sulpture ah" How could he insulted my idol and what does he know about people who passionate about their life! and the mum was laughing like a witch...
Although i only spend 30 mins observing them. Really cant stand them for another minute. Yah they may be rich but to me they are just a unrefine and brainless family.
Okay, i shall stop writing for a few days because im going for my holiday with my parents :) Yah, wanted to spend real quality time with them before i get too busy with my life again. Will update my blog once i come back from my trip...
Happy New Year once again :)
18 February, 2007
Happy CNY!
It's a Chinese tradition that all children must stay awake from Chinese New Year eve till Chinese New Year. This is a filial act to prolong the life of parents. I wasn't saying I'm filial.. Just that it has been passed down from generations and generations... and since I'm night owl so i don't mind doing it...Just to pass time, I decided to change my blog header again. Theme of CNY... having a festive feeling in my blog again keke...
Has been busy spring-cleaning my room and part of my house for few days. Only one word to describe it. Tired, tired, tired... hard work does pay off. At least now my room seems spacious after removing the unwanted junks... I'm more satisfied with the new look of my room keke... Sense of achievement manzzz haha
Later will be a big day... going to my relatives house for big big gathering... and maybe do some networking haha... then after that going to temple for praying... Another shaq day :p
Happy Chinese New Year, my dear friends... For single friends out there, hope you collect alot of ang baos and for married friends, pls don't be stingy with your ang baos... just kidding keke :)
17 February, 2007
Tiring CNY Eve
Today is the most tiring day of the entire year. Wake up early in the morning, did some exercise at the gym and eat my light breakfast. Went home to help my mum to prepare the praying stuffs. Every CNY eve, we will pray to our ancestors, to protect us for a better new year ahead.
After the sumptuous lunch, i start my tiring day. I have few last min important tasks to do before chinese new year comes.
1) Wipe the windows
2) Change my bed sheet
3) Final sweeping and moping of the floor
The most challenging is changing of my bed sheet. Sound easy, right? But not for my bed!!! My bed is double decker bed. No one sleeps at the bottom bed so the bottom bed is super dirty. Every half a year, I will need to push out the bottom bed to "clean" it and push it back. My cupboard has been blocking the way so it's very troublesome.
If you come to my place, you will understand why I’m so frustrated. Every year, I have been so frustrated with this problem and I have been quarreled with my dad a couple of times due to this issue. Just because he thinks the bed is good quality bed. It's so wasteful to throw away such a good bed! Yes I know its a good bed... so? I don't use it and its "usefulness" is to stain dust everyday and I have to wipe the dust and dirt away...
I have been trying my best to get rid of the bottom bed since "X" years. So this year, I'm going to change my strategy. No more head on so I ask my mum to help me... She has been helping me to wipe the bed so she understands totally what I'm going through. So we "baka" together to think how can we get rid of this "good quality bed".
We come out with a plan to give the bed away so that not to waste it. Give it to my neighbor's maid. Now she's sleeping on the floor. It very bad for her body in a long run. At least with this bed, she can sleep better and i can get rid of it keke.. Yeah, One stone kills two birds.
We persuade my dad with this plan. As usual, he protest to give it away his "good bed" and we might be using again in future... I say, " We always have this same old issue with this bed for few years already but has it been use? No..." Then my smart mum quickly add-on, "Aiyah, we can always take it back when we need it again mah."
My dad finally gave in because he got no more strong reason to keep his GOOD BED. Hahaha :)
After the sumptuous lunch, i start my tiring day. I have few last min important tasks to do before chinese new year comes.
1) Wipe the windows
2) Change my bed sheet
3) Final sweeping and moping of the floor
The most challenging is changing of my bed sheet. Sound easy, right? But not for my bed!!! My bed is double decker bed. No one sleeps at the bottom bed so the bottom bed is super dirty. Every half a year, I will need to push out the bottom bed to "clean" it and push it back. My cupboard has been blocking the way so it's very troublesome.
If you come to my place, you will understand why I’m so frustrated. Every year, I have been so frustrated with this problem and I have been quarreled with my dad a couple of times due to this issue. Just because he thinks the bed is good quality bed. It's so wasteful to throw away such a good bed! Yes I know its a good bed... so? I don't use it and its "usefulness" is to stain dust everyday and I have to wipe the dust and dirt away...
I have been trying my best to get rid of the bottom bed since "X" years. So this year, I'm going to change my strategy. No more head on so I ask my mum to help me... She has been helping me to wipe the bed so she understands totally what I'm going through. So we "baka" together to think how can we get rid of this "good quality bed".
We come out with a plan to give the bed away so that not to waste it. Give it to my neighbor's maid. Now she's sleeping on the floor. It very bad for her body in a long run. At least with this bed, she can sleep better and i can get rid of it keke.. Yeah, One stone kills two birds.
We persuade my dad with this plan. As usual, he protest to give it away his "good bed" and we might be using again in future... I say, " We always have this same old issue with this bed for few years already but has it been use? No..." Then my smart mum quickly add-on, "Aiyah, we can always take it back when we need it again mah."
My dad finally gave in because he got no more strong reason to keep his GOOD BED. Hahaha :)
16 February, 2007
If you pay bananas, you get monkeys
Last week, i receive an email from my "potential" client. She rejected my job because my proposed charges are on the expensive side, thus they are unable to take it up. 'Common $500 for a week's project. Expensive meh?
Clients always like to save money. They want cheap and good stuffs. But since they want to save money, either they do it themselves or please don't expect a good job to be done. Anyway, I just felt that they are not respecting our creative professionalism.
My twin sister tells me her boss said to the one of the agencies, "Design agencies nowadays earn good money. Copy from the stock libraries, modify then deliver the job already."
Guess what the agency consultant reply?
"If you are looking for such agencies, we are definately not the one."
That's the good one.
I always believed this theory, "If you pay bananas, you get monkeys. "
So just let the monkeys do the job then.
Clients always like to save money. They want cheap and good stuffs. But since they want to save money, either they do it themselves or please don't expect a good job to be done. Anyway, I just felt that they are not respecting our creative professionalism.
My twin sister tells me her boss said to the one of the agencies, "Design agencies nowadays earn good money. Copy from the stock libraries, modify then deliver the job already."
Guess what the agency consultant reply?
"If you are looking for such agencies, we are definately not the one."
That's the good one.
I always believed this theory, "If you pay bananas, you get monkeys. "
So just let the monkeys do the job then.
15 February, 2007
Tune into your own happiness
Yesterday was valentine day. My friend put up this tagline: "Tune in to your own happiness". I felt it was so appropriate. Whether is valentine day or not, we should try to tune in to our own happiness. So that we will not be wasting our time. Day after Day..."
Guess how I spend my day? I met up with my ex-classmate. I felt so excited when i met her. We have half a year never meet le. She's busy with her studies while i'm busy with my work. We spend great time together sharing what's going on in our life.
After we parted, along the road of orchard road, I seen couples and couples holding hands while the gal holding flowers in their hands. I felt happy for them because they have found their another half... However, a friend of mine called me last night, telling me she was very sad because she's alone.
I felt that there is nothing to sad because we are single. We still can be as happy as we want to be. Love relationship is just play a part of our life, there are many people who are important for us to cherish and love.
It's all in our mind... so start tuning to our own happiness :)
Guess how I spend my day? I met up with my ex-classmate. I felt so excited when i met her. We have half a year never meet le. She's busy with her studies while i'm busy with my work. We spend great time together sharing what's going on in our life.
After we parted, along the road of orchard road, I seen couples and couples holding hands while the gal holding flowers in their hands. I felt happy for them because they have found their another half... However, a friend of mine called me last night, telling me she was very sad because she's alone.
I felt that there is nothing to sad because we are single. We still can be as happy as we want to be. Love relationship is just play a part of our life, there are many people who are important for us to cherish and love.
It's all in our mind... so start tuning to our own happiness :)
14 February, 2007
Finding the other half
One day my playful friend called her friend and asked if he's interested to date a gal or not... then she describes how compatible if they get to know each other... I was just thinking that "that gal" is quite pityful, need my friend to match-made... then i heard "she is a designer"...
I heard an crow flying passed me...
Yes, i may be looking for potentials out there but that doesn't mean i'm desperate... i dislike the idea of "match-making".. I believed if you are fated to be together, even you don't step out of the house, you still can meet your Mr. right. Because i have seen a typical example in real life.
I know my friend is being nice to arrange guys for me to meet but still... i just don't like the idea... guess i have to drill some sense into her kekeke....
Guess what i will do to make my Mr. Right fall for me? I will use my magic doll below and write the type of guy i want and then i poke it's heart... Please do not follow my method. It's "dangerous" and I got "train" before... Hiak Hiak Hiak :)
I heard an crow flying passed me...
Yes, i may be looking for potentials out there but that doesn't mean i'm desperate... i dislike the idea of "match-making".. I believed if you are fated to be together, even you don't step out of the house, you still can meet your Mr. right. Because i have seen a typical example in real life.
I know my friend is being nice to arrange guys for me to meet but still... i just don't like the idea... guess i have to drill some sense into her kekeke....
Guess what i will do to make my Mr. Right fall for me? I will use my magic doll below and write the type of guy i want and then i poke it's heart... Please do not follow my method. It's "dangerous" and I got "train" before... Hiak Hiak Hiak :)
13 February, 2007
When LOVE is in the WATER
There is a strange thing called love. Everyone has the rights to love. Before you realised it, cupid has pierced the love arrow into both innocent hearts. You can run but you can't hide. Inside the love arrow, there is a love seed. This love seed will grow, both of you will fall in love helplessly despite both sides of the two families tried to spilt you up because two of you are too young.
However, you managed to convince two families that you are truely in loved. And because our parents loved you so much, they finally try to accept the relationship. Cupid unintentionally remove the love arrow from our hearts. Happy moments only lasted for 6 years and before you realised it, it is too late. He felt that you no longer suitable for him and you felt that you no longer loves him that much anymore.
Conversation from 5,000 words reduced to 10 words per day... Drifting and drifting.... until the day when he decided to drop you this sms,"Let's breakup.". It was hurtful. Feeling sad and anger but life still goes on... Time will heal all wounds...
Has the 3rd person appeared or has he not? Cupid is given another chance to astone his mistake by bringing him to you.
However, you managed to convince two families that you are truely in loved. And because our parents loved you so much, they finally try to accept the relationship. Cupid unintentionally remove the love arrow from our hearts. Happy moments only lasted for 6 years and before you realised it, it is too late. He felt that you no longer suitable for him and you felt that you no longer loves him that much anymore.
Conversation from 5,000 words reduced to 10 words per day... Drifting and drifting.... until the day when he decided to drop you this sms,"Let's breakup.". It was hurtful. Feeling sad and anger but life still goes on... Time will heal all wounds...
Has the 3rd person appeared or has he not? Cupid is given another chance to astone his mistake by bringing him to you.
12 February, 2007
Old friends in friendster
Last night, i received an email from www.friendster.com. I went in to see my good friend's new mugshot. It has been donkey years since i login to friendster. Friendster has changed so much. They have blogging features too...
I saw a few of my old poly friends have tapped on friendster too... Most of them have married. I have added them in my list, although i wont be logging in until... keke... Anyway, i went in my first love's site and find out that he's married too...
My good friend is very close with him but she never mention about his marriage. I think it's perfectly to tell me loh after all it has been sooooooooo many years ago... What love and what nots, have been gone with the wind...
I don't feel hurt, jealous or anything... In fact, I just felt really happy for him that he finally managed to settle down. He always wanted to settle down as early as 25. However, he has taken too many "yuan wang lu" already. Glad that he finally found his Right Gal :)
Sometimes is all about correct timing and fate.. if we could met much later, things will be so much different. Yah yah I know it's silly to think about "What ifs"...
I always believe there is someone out, waiting for you and its about the correct timing and fate that he will just appearing in front of you, at the right moment :)
I saw a few of my old poly friends have tapped on friendster too... Most of them have married. I have added them in my list, although i wont be logging in until... keke... Anyway, i went in my first love's site and find out that he's married too...
My good friend is very close with him but she never mention about his marriage. I think it's perfectly to tell me loh after all it has been sooooooooo many years ago... What love and what nots, have been gone with the wind...
I don't feel hurt, jealous or anything... In fact, I just felt really happy for him that he finally managed to settle down. He always wanted to settle down as early as 25. However, he has taken too many "yuan wang lu" already. Glad that he finally found his Right Gal :)
Sometimes is all about correct timing and fate.. if we could met much later, things will be so much different. Yah yah I know it's silly to think about "What ifs"...
I always believe there is someone out, waiting for you and its about the correct timing and fate that he will just appearing in front of you, at the right moment :)
11 February, 2007
Room Packing for CNY! Yeah!
CNY is coming... It's a good time to seriously do something to my room! Bags, Papers, Shoes, Books, Magazines etc all lying around. They are getting on my nerves. On Friday, my friend and I were complaining how messy our rooms are. I described my room as rubbish dump hahaha.
My friend challenged me if I could pack my room neatly during this weekend. To set a good example, I made a conscious effort to spend few hours of my time, just to clear my "rubbish dump".
After serious packing, it gives me a sense of satisfaction! I purposely took photos of "Before and after" packing of my room. This is to show the "evidence" that I had done my job and at the same time to motivate my friend to pack her room as well..
I used to dread packing my room. I always have problems packing my room because I seriously don't know how to pack, so end up I will be keeping more things than throwing away things…
But this year is different! I throw all the useless and old stuffs so that I have more rooms for new items kekeke... and the good thing is my room looks more spacious now :)
There's a myth: A tidy room can makes a person less bad tempered... I don't know how true is it... but it definately stops my mum from nagging at me!!! haha
Anyway here comes the NEXT Challenge: How long do you think I can keep this neatness? Erm, hmmmm... A week? Keeping my finger crossed keke... :P
My friend challenged me if I could pack my room neatly during this weekend. To set a good example, I made a conscious effort to spend few hours of my time, just to clear my "rubbish dump".
After serious packing, it gives me a sense of satisfaction! I purposely took photos of "Before and after" packing of my room. This is to show the "evidence" that I had done my job and at the same time to motivate my friend to pack her room as well..
I used to dread packing my room. I always have problems packing my room because I seriously don't know how to pack, so end up I will be keeping more things than throwing away things…
But this year is different! I throw all the useless and old stuffs so that I have more rooms for new items kekeke... and the good thing is my room looks more spacious now :)
There's a myth: A tidy room can makes a person less bad tempered... I don't know how true is it... but it definately stops my mum from nagging at me!!! haha
Anyway here comes the NEXT Challenge: How long do you think I can keep this neatness? Erm, hmmmm... A week? Keeping my finger crossed keke... :P
10 February, 2007
Paparazzi Mission Failed!
My VP invited us to his penthouse for a bbq. He's friendly and best thing is he has no airs. One of the well respected guy in the company. This is one of the few bbqs that I do not need to bbq the food myself and guess who did it? My VP keke... Yah he is that friendly... :)
Ohh talking about my Paparazzi Mission... Due to "popular demand", I'm requested to take a photo of Mr Sushi Brain! But he did not turn up... So sad, my mission failed... but nevermind, next time sure got chance one hor???
I took some photos around the surroundings. The place is quite scenery. When you took a step outside to the balcony, it is so windy and the view is beautiful.
Okay, I shall quit my Paparazzi job and stick back to my landscape shooting keke...
Ohh talking about my Paparazzi Mission... Due to "popular demand", I'm requested to take a photo of Mr Sushi Brain! But he did not turn up... So sad, my mission failed... but nevermind, next time sure got chance one hor???
I took some photos around the surroundings. The place is quite scenery. When you took a step outside to the balcony, it is so windy and the view is beautiful.
Okay, I shall quit my Paparazzi job and stick back to my landscape shooting keke...
09 February, 2007
Happy Birthday To You...
Yesterday we celebrate Gerry's birthday. She requested Durian Cake, so my company secretary ordered D24 Durian Divine from Prima Deli. It was delicious! Normally i only take one thin slice of cake. But I just cant help but to take 2nd helping keke.. Poor Gerry end up only managed to brought back 1 slice of durian cake for her hubby to try...Not to forget, Happy Birthday To Gerry! :)
The day before, my friend dragged me to watch "Miss Potter". So today I dragged her to watch "Happy Birthday". I have at least 5 years never watch Chinese Movies le... Because most chinese movies are corny, which i don't like. However, I was attracted by the poster and saw that this story is written by Rene Liu. Think should be quite nice. And it turns out to be really nice and touching...
The saddest feeling in love relationship is when a couple is deeply in love and yet they cant be together. Cherish your love before its too late...
My love for the movie:
Detailed Synopsis
It looks almost as an oath, Mimi (Rene Liu) would receive an e-mail from Nam (Louis Koo) every birthday, a guy that she never forget. But the e-mail is delayed 42 hours this time.
Nam and Mimi once were lovers when they were University students. Mimi was afraid of losing Nam, therefore she suggested being "soul mate" with him instead. Eventually, they separated when Nam went abroad for studying. Nam has got many girlfriends but none of them could keep in good and long relationship, because his heart was stick on Mimi. Of course Mimi knew that and she couldn't leave Nam alone too. But Mimi strongly believed that not to acquire each other is the only way to keep romantic relationship forever and ever.
One day, Nam told Mimi that he was getting married. From then on, Mimi would receive a birthday greeting from Nam every year. It was just like a clue to prove that love still exists between them. Only Mimi's friend knew that the greetings were not sent by Nam.
Extracted from GV website.
08 February, 2007
Miss Potter
My friend dragged me to watch "Miss Potter" last night. I thought it was Harry Porter at first but she insisted that it is "Miss Potter"... I even joked that so this movie is about Harry Porter's cousin? Then she tells she's the author of "The Tale of Peter Rabbit" and it's based on true story.
Beatrix Potter is a the world's most successful children's writer, a wealthy landowner and prize-winning farmer. You could see her perseverance in creating her dreams into reality, so adamant about her own beliefs and her determination to be with her true love. During that time, it is so difficult for a lady to have strong views and independent.
After watching, i was touched by the movie. It is another inspiring movie. I read "The Tale of Peter Rabbit" during my childhood days. I don't know who is the author, never did i know that it drawn and written from such a wonderful lady. If you have time, please go and watch it :)
My love for this movie:
Detailed Synopsis
Beatrix Potter has delighted generations of children with her books. But she kept her own private life locked carefully away. Oscar-winning star Renee Zellweger is now bringing her secret story to the screen in "Miss Potter," the first film directed by Chris Noonan since his charming 1995 movie, Babe. It is set in the high summer days of late Victorian and Edwardian England, during which Beatrix develops her natural skills as artist and story-teller. When she finally publishes her debut book, The Tale of Peter Rabbit, she becomes a writing celebrity. It also leads to courtship and her first love with publisher Norman Warne, played by Ewan McGregor. Their relationship and his marriage proposal in July, 1905, was to change Beatrix's life for ever...
Extracted from GV website.
07 February, 2007
Fate + Feelings = Love?
Has been quite down for these few days, it's time to pick up myself again... Realised Valentines' Day is coming :) Decided to change my blog's masthead to throw away all the bad feelings and be loved again...
Fate + Feelings = Love.
This is my own love equation. Love doesn't necessary to be love relationships... it can be love for our parents, our siblings and our friends... if you are kind hearted enough, you can even "love" your enermies! But most of us cant do that because we are not angels...
I'm a people-oriented person, maybe due to my upbringing. I was taught to love my family and my friends... I used to have big fights and quarrels with my sister but we never bear grudge with one another.
As i grow up, our family bond get much closer and depends on each other for help and advises. I think it is very important. Because they are the pillars of my heart. Even though I made some wrong decisions, they will always be so understanding and forgiving. That's how I get my strength to move on...
As for friends, I believed fate brought us together... even with guy friends that doesnt mean it will lead to love. It could be just lead to pure friendship.
Many people beg to defer this statement because they believe that if a guy and a gal when they are together and develop feelings it must be something... but to me, it's not necessary... Because there is something called "Chemistry" and it is something you want to have but you can't have it.
I have many good friends, be it gals or guys.. They just be there for me when i need help.. I really appreciate these friends who has crossed my path...
Fate + Feelings = Love.
This is my own love equation. Love doesn't necessary to be love relationships... it can be love for our parents, our siblings and our friends... if you are kind hearted enough, you can even "love" your enermies! But most of us cant do that because we are not angels...
I'm a people-oriented person, maybe due to my upbringing. I was taught to love my family and my friends... I used to have big fights and quarrels with my sister but we never bear grudge with one another.
As i grow up, our family bond get much closer and depends on each other for help and advises. I think it is very important. Because they are the pillars of my heart. Even though I made some wrong decisions, they will always be so understanding and forgiving. That's how I get my strength to move on...
As for friends, I believed fate brought us together... even with guy friends that doesnt mean it will lead to love. It could be just lead to pure friendship.
Many people beg to defer this statement because they believe that if a guy and a gal when they are together and develop feelings it must be something... but to me, it's not necessary... Because there is something called "Chemistry" and it is something you want to have but you can't have it.
I have many good friends, be it gals or guys.. They just be there for me when i need help.. I really appreciate these friends who has crossed my path...
06 February, 2007
Angel and Devil
At the darkest moment of my life, I went to see two important men.
The first man was staying at one of the HDB flats. The moment I stepped into the flat, he has been observing me as if i'm his prey. Feeling a sense of discomfort, I stared back at him. He was super huge size man. He's mid 40s. Due to his huge body frame, his head appear smaller. I just can helped but feeling that he was grinning evilly at me.
He asked for my name and the day, month and year I was born. A super high tech guy, using his special software to calculate my destiny. After 10 minutes of calculation, he kept shaking his head...
"You can never lose weight, you are just like me. You eat very little but very easy to put on weight one. So don't bother."
I was shocked by his first statement. He was so right. I couldn't be more agreed with him because I never succeed in reducing to my ideal weight for all these years, no matter how hard i tried.
"You want to be single or married? If you want to single, it is still okay. If you want to find your Mr. Right will have a big problem. Even if you find, you will have bad marriage."
"I can tell that you do not have close relationships with your parents."
"You must wear bright colors and cannot wear blue and those natural colors like brown, black or white"
"Wed, Thurs and Saturday are your unlucky days"
I kept quiet for a long time and finally asked, "Okay, so what should I do then?"
"The only thing for you to do is to change your Chinese name. I can help you to find a good lawyer to help you to change name for just $100. You must do it fast before it becomes worse. I sell you this mortar at $3000. It will do you good. I'm telling the truth because I cannot lie to you."
It's just like a devil asking you to sell away your soul to him. I could hear: “I'm telling the truth… truth… truth…”
Although I was super low morale but my subconscious mind still knows how to think! Crazy ah, asked me to change my name and buy a $3000 stone! I rather buy diamond haha.. In the end, I rejected his "kind" offer.
However, my condition did not improve. In fact, it got worse. I went home and chose to lock myself in the room and refused to come out.
So the next Saturday, I went to see another man. He was mid 50s and has the fatherly look. He looked like a wise man who can give me directions. After looking thoroughly at his almanac, he said calmly, "Your life is quite good but your health is weak, so you must take care. The only bad thing about you is you are too impatient and you may lose your good opportunities because of that."
I told him about my problem. He advised like an angel. He used an analogy, "Just like you wanted to cook the rice. But however, halfway you just off the power switch. Will the rice be cooked? It is only be half cook rice."
These 2 men have deciphered differently about my life. After clearing my thoughts, I felt that it's my own attitude and my mindset. They are just like my angel and devil. They are telling me if I choose a negative attitude in life, I could ruin my life in my own bare hands. However, if I choose a positive attitude, I could improved my life tremendously.
I picked up myself again, tilt my head high up in the sky and choosing to look at my bright side everyday.
The first man was staying at one of the HDB flats. The moment I stepped into the flat, he has been observing me as if i'm his prey. Feeling a sense of discomfort, I stared back at him. He was super huge size man. He's mid 40s. Due to his huge body frame, his head appear smaller. I just can helped but feeling that he was grinning evilly at me.
He asked for my name and the day, month and year I was born. A super high tech guy, using his special software to calculate my destiny. After 10 minutes of calculation, he kept shaking his head...
"You can never lose weight, you are just like me. You eat very little but very easy to put on weight one. So don't bother."
I was shocked by his first statement. He was so right. I couldn't be more agreed with him because I never succeed in reducing to my ideal weight for all these years, no matter how hard i tried.
"You want to be single or married? If you want to single, it is still okay. If you want to find your Mr. Right will have a big problem. Even if you find, you will have bad marriage."
"I can tell that you do not have close relationships with your parents."
"You must wear bright colors and cannot wear blue and those natural colors like brown, black or white"
"Wed, Thurs and Saturday are your unlucky days"
I kept quiet for a long time and finally asked, "Okay, so what should I do then?"
"The only thing for you to do is to change your Chinese name. I can help you to find a good lawyer to help you to change name for just $100. You must do it fast before it becomes worse. I sell you this mortar at $3000. It will do you good. I'm telling the truth because I cannot lie to you."
It's just like a devil asking you to sell away your soul to him. I could hear: “I'm telling the truth… truth… truth…”
Although I was super low morale but my subconscious mind still knows how to think! Crazy ah, asked me to change my name and buy a $3000 stone! I rather buy diamond haha.. In the end, I rejected his "kind" offer.
However, my condition did not improve. In fact, it got worse. I went home and chose to lock myself in the room and refused to come out.
So the next Saturday, I went to see another man. He was mid 50s and has the fatherly look. He looked like a wise man who can give me directions. After looking thoroughly at his almanac, he said calmly, "Your life is quite good but your health is weak, so you must take care. The only bad thing about you is you are too impatient and you may lose your good opportunities because of that."
I told him about my problem. He advised like an angel. He used an analogy, "Just like you wanted to cook the rice. But however, halfway you just off the power switch. Will the rice be cooked? It is only be half cook rice."
These 2 men have deciphered differently about my life. After clearing my thoughts, I felt that it's my own attitude and my mindset. They are just like my angel and devil. They are telling me if I choose a negative attitude in life, I could ruin my life in my own bare hands. However, if I choose a positive attitude, I could improved my life tremendously.
I picked up myself again, tilt my head high up in the sky and choosing to look at my bright side everyday.
05 February, 2007
In this materialistic society
I had an evil thought one day. I wanted to take on the whole project all to myself. I want to be selfish. And this is the time, i shall take back all my own rights. Then, an angel come and tells me this: Even if this pair of shoes doesn't fit you any longer, you should not damage it. Just look for another pair of shoes...
Yes, I realised my mistake that I shouldn't burn the bridges even though I not using it... Because I will not know when do i need to use that bridge again. Why should I wanted to get sacrific my good reputation over few hundreds bucks.. it's just not worth it...
I met a friend of mine recently. Nowadays, she buys more branded goods. She told me she saw a top at a branded shop. I saw the top, its just a simple top that cost her $199. I told her that it doesn't suit her. Anyway, she still bought the top. Yes, i know it's her money, i shouldn't have much comments about it. But is it worth it?
Please don't get me wrong that only rich people can buy branded goods. I can't denied the fact that branded goods have its value and the quality because they are much more durable and lasting. I bought a branded wallet and it lasted me for 5 years without having to change frequently.
The truth is nobody cares how you spend your money. But has your money been well spent? Afterall, wealth will not stay with us forever. Just like my xiao mei says, "What meaning does it says if you wore branded stuffs from head to toe but your wallet is empty."
Please don't change to be a person for whom we are not. I'm not a saint. I could have make a serious mistake because of my own greed. We could always ask ourselves is there a need for it or is it our own materialistic desire to make us feel good about it?
There are too much temptations around us. If we are not careful or alert enough, we will just fall into these dangerous pitfalls and might not be able to get up anymore.
Yes, I realised my mistake that I shouldn't burn the bridges even though I not using it... Because I will not know when do i need to use that bridge again. Why should I wanted to get sacrific my good reputation over few hundreds bucks.. it's just not worth it...
I met a friend of mine recently. Nowadays, she buys more branded goods. She told me she saw a top at a branded shop. I saw the top, its just a simple top that cost her $199. I told her that it doesn't suit her. Anyway, she still bought the top. Yes, i know it's her money, i shouldn't have much comments about it. But is it worth it?
Please don't get me wrong that only rich people can buy branded goods. I can't denied the fact that branded goods have its value and the quality because they are much more durable and lasting. I bought a branded wallet and it lasted me for 5 years without having to change frequently.
The truth is nobody cares how you spend your money. But has your money been well spent? Afterall, wealth will not stay with us forever. Just like my xiao mei says, "What meaning does it says if you wore branded stuffs from head to toe but your wallet is empty."
Please don't change to be a person for whom we are not. I'm not a saint. I could have make a serious mistake because of my own greed. We could always ask ourselves is there a need for it or is it our own materialistic desire to make us feel good about it?
There are too much temptations around us. If we are not careful or alert enough, we will just fall into these dangerous pitfalls and might not be able to get up anymore.
04 February, 2007
No more raining...
Last night went down to chinatown for photography shooting. Quite disappointed or maybe I was expecting too much or not feeling too well? Anyway, just took a few shots of the places... Then before I went back, I suddenly I remembered that I had an "important task" to do!
Remembered two weeks ago, I was complaining about the hanging of the clothes along the north beach road? Yes, I won!!! And the organiser really did something about it.. They changed the deco... at least now it was a more appropriate decoration. So i must take the "after-look" keke
Before the complaint After the complaint
I guess my complaint do makes sense... i'm not being too critical. I was only referred them as "hanging clothes". In the papers, they were reported as "undergarments from chinese prostitutes" from some feedbacks, they were worse than me loh...
The committee was trying to cover up saying that because it was raining for the past few days that were why they put up these pink cloths. However, I beg to defer. 'Cause they can always don't put up anything yet!
But whatever it is, it's always good to receive feedbacks from sources so that we can learn. I'm sure the designer had learnt his lesson.
Hiak.. hiak.. hiak.. (Using Sir Francis's trademark laughs) :P
Remembered two weeks ago, I was complaining about the hanging of the clothes along the north beach road? Yes, I won!!! And the organiser really did something about it.. They changed the deco... at least now it was a more appropriate decoration. So i must take the "after-look" keke
Before the complaint After the complaint
I guess my complaint do makes sense... i'm not being too critical. I was only referred them as "hanging clothes". In the papers, they were reported as "undergarments from chinese prostitutes" from some feedbacks, they were worse than me loh...
The committee was trying to cover up saying that because it was raining for the past few days that were why they put up these pink cloths. However, I beg to defer. 'Cause they can always don't put up anything yet!
But whatever it is, it's always good to receive feedbacks from sources so that we can learn. I'm sure the designer had learnt his lesson.
Hiak.. hiak.. hiak.. (Using Sir Francis's trademark laughs) :P
03 February, 2007
Depression
I have stopped my blogging for the past few days because I received a shocking piece of news. One of my friends chose to end his life because he has been suffering from his depression for a long period of time. According to my friend, this guy has been a low self-esteem person. He always feel that he's not good enough. As time goes by, depression starts to build within him.
It's really sad to hear this news... I always thought that he was just being an introvert person. Never did i think that he has suffered depression sickness within him. Most guys tends to take their pride and ego seriously. He might think that its his own problem and scared that other people will look down on him. Therefore, he appeared to be so normal. Recently, he changed his hairstyle and he has become more open to us... I couldn't understand what triggers him to choose his last resort...
There is one period of time, i have suffered from slight depression and i know that depression can be cured!!! Of course, you have to do something about it. Don't let your mind control you. The worse thing that could happen to you is lose your mind. I personally feel that eating medication will not help, it will only worsen the conditions.
When you know your heart is sick, to get it cured, you need to get the correct form of "medication". Even if you are suffering from depression, talk to the people around you. You will know that your friends and family and many, many people around you, they care for you and even though if they don't, you can still love yourself... Do self-reflection therapy, face your own fear and be true to yourself. It's not difficult to face your own fear. The scary part is you allow your own fear to control you.
We could be suffering from depression from time to time, esp. when you think that life has forced you into a corner where you have no where else to go. Everyone has the rights to be depressed but you just have to learn how to control your mind. Some people choose their solutions in a positive way while the rest just turn to their last resort, death. Which i feel that is not even a solution...
Life is precious. Do not forsake it.
It's really sad to hear this news... I always thought that he was just being an introvert person. Never did i think that he has suffered depression sickness within him. Most guys tends to take their pride and ego seriously. He might think that its his own problem and scared that other people will look down on him. Therefore, he appeared to be so normal. Recently, he changed his hairstyle and he has become more open to us... I couldn't understand what triggers him to choose his last resort...
There is one period of time, i have suffered from slight depression and i know that depression can be cured!!! Of course, you have to do something about it. Don't let your mind control you. The worse thing that could happen to you is lose your mind. I personally feel that eating medication will not help, it will only worsen the conditions.
When you know your heart is sick, to get it cured, you need to get the correct form of "medication". Even if you are suffering from depression, talk to the people around you. You will know that your friends and family and many, many people around you, they care for you and even though if they don't, you can still love yourself... Do self-reflection therapy, face your own fear and be true to yourself. It's not difficult to face your own fear. The scary part is you allow your own fear to control you.
We could be suffering from depression from time to time, esp. when you think that life has forced you into a corner where you have no where else to go. Everyone has the rights to be depressed but you just have to learn how to control your mind. Some people choose their solutions in a positive way while the rest just turn to their last resort, death. Which i feel that is not even a solution...
Life is precious. Do not forsake it.
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