时间的约束

今天早上我读了一篇散文， 它是说我们都市人整天都被时间迁着鼻子走。一下子说要规划什么，一下子说时间不够，人生就因此在我们的“控制”范围进行着。有时一闲着，就担心是不是自己的人生太空虚了。

回想一下，我们简直是被时间给无形的控制。谁说人生一定要忙忙碌碌，才算多姿多彩。又谁规定我们一定要有一颗模型进行，才不会出错。

地球上除了人类之外，没有任何生物需要依赖时间。我们就是很奇怪，心甘情愿得让时间给约束。也不曾怀疑它的不好。

有一个朋友很纳闷。就因为她没有男朋友，同事都怀疑她是同性恋，搞得她整天想找男朋友。有一个朋友更离谱，她就带了戒指，就是怕旁人的眼光。我听了就很生气，为什么女人一定要在30岁以前结婚，不然她一定有问题。

每个人都有自己的人生，自己的路要走。我们到底想抓住什么？我们不可以因为“时间到了”就要去做末些事。有些适合别人的，不一定适合自己。到最后伤害的不是旁人的目光，而是对自己最大的伤害。

Dealings with uncommitted person

Recently had a joint project with 2 of my friends. We were enthusiastic about this project. We had lots of good ideas. After two weeks, perhaps everyone is busy with other commitments as well. The project seems to be slowed down. When I tried to ask one of my friends, how was his progress. He seems to be less involved compared to what he promised to do.

Last night, two of us couldn't take it anymore, had a big fight with him because he didn't do what he promised and when we said we want to meet up with him. He just said he was busy and this project doesn't really need his approval.

My friend and I were so pissed off by his words because this project supposed to be done and completed by 3 of us. He said that he felt insulted that we said he doesn't contribute to this project and now he wanted to pull off from this project.

I was disheartened by his attitude and his response to handle this project. We haven't really kick off this project and he simply give up just like that. The copywriting was pushed to my friend and the website coding and design were done by me. All he need to do is just setup the website hosting and payment part. Is asking some of his time commitments really asking too much?

I realised that its not the technical procedure that is most difficult to deal with.. The most difficult part is to deal with uncommitted team member.

Take a break from singlehood life

It has been years since I have been to Botantic garden. Its KH's first time there too. We tried the foot therapy, it was so painful. I guess I have a lot of health problems in my body... He held my hands and went through the painful path with me.

My face was tomato red. I was wondering it is the pain from my foot or the excitement that he held my hand. But I know it is definitely a good blood circulation. :)

It has been 6 years since someone has ever sincerely held my hands. Feels kinda funny at first haha... Maybe I'm so used to be alone after all these years. I always thought I will be ready for love but the feel of being in love seems to be so out of place in my life.

How long do I want to torture myself mentally? The fear of being losing someone eventually has come into my mind over and over again. My first negative thought was when will it last? I'm quite skeptical about any relationships. Yar, I know not all relationships will have a sad ending. Maybe it is just me. After so many years, I just couldn't get over the pain inside me. KH knew where is my worry and he is reassuring that it will not be the same.

I know every relationship will have different outcome. Who knows this may really work out in the end? I shouldn't have kill the possible that it may work out eventually. For at least, my heart did pump differently for once, when he held my hands...

All I need is time...

1st time I told you about my past, you give me your support
2nd time I told you about my woes, you give me your sympathy
3rd time I told you about my problems, you provide me with your solutions

It wasn’t easy me to say, but you are there to be my listening audience
Perhaps it wasn't the right timing and place to say
And I wasn't prepared to accept
Perhaps all I need is time...