Day 3: Process of Actualising

Visualising having the goal is the first step that is most important to master. Pick something small and practice on at first.

I tried to visualise every day I will get a seat in the train. True enough, 90% of the time, I will get it.

My relationship with money was really poor. I decided to make that shift. I respect money and I want money. I visualised that I have money in my bank account. Somehow things got better, My money starts to grow.

I told myself I will be able to wake up every day 6am. I did it because that is I truly what I want.

You have to believe and being in a positive state, good things will happen.

The process of actualising your desires is simple:
1. Pick a goal.
2. Visualise yourself having it.
3. Positively affirm having it.
4. Send out ships (taking actions) to get it.
5. Celebrate getting it!

Practice visualising what you want, instead of what you don't want. Enjoy the experience.

I visualise and create marvels in my life!

Day 2: Pursuing my MeTime

This morning I woke up 5.35am in the morning. I feel really good in waking up early. I have more me time. Spend time with myself until 10am. I also tidy up a little bit on my bookself. I want to arrange my things in a way that I can easily assess my resources. Space to me is very important. I want to put in efforts to connect with myself. I enjoy the calmness and peace within me.

Today sort of having farewell with my longest childhood friend. I am happy for her at least she is pursuing her happiness. I think to myself. I wanted to travel around the world. I can't even dare to step out of my country right now. Perhaps I will start small, go to places that I feel safe. That is a good start to begin with.

See myself tomorrow ya!

Day 1: Renew myself

I am back and things have changed.

Close to almost 5 years, Jan 2016. Where has my time gone to?

I decided to come back reason is because it is one way to connect back with myself and to see how much I have evolved over these years. I am shocked that my blog images have been modified.

I just grab a template and just amend to a new one. Simple and nice. No sweat over it.

Number 8 feels like infinity. The purpose of coming back is to put myself into a challenge of habits. I will sleep by 11pm, oops it is 11.30pm already and I need to wake up at 6am. 66 Days is just about ending of this year, 2 more months and start a new fresh with mental preparedness. I believe it is possible and I want to do 66 Days Transformation. :O)

See myself tomorrow! Yay!

How to Wake Up Early

66 Days Transformation

Thanks to Samuel who introduced Robin Sharma, 5am club video. Many years back I read his book about 5am club. In my heart, I was like "What??? It is not possible." Now I feel that I wanted to wake up early at 5am because I want to be more productive. According to Robin Sharma, 5am - 8am is 3 Golden hours and improve the quality of my life.

Prepare my mind, heart and body. I am not reactive, I am in control, I will be reconnected with my mission. Let me start the routine on 27 July 2018. I know it is possible and it can be done. I wanted to reconnect with myself again. It takes 66 days for the new habits to form and I am excited about it. Today, I wake up at 6am without any alarm clock :) I rewatch it again and it reingite the desire to wake up early and catch the fresh air of Golden Hours.

Journal Day 43: Self Care

Today I spent the whole day with myself.

I feel calm and collected. I decided to rewrite all the contents into a new book and store the content in blogger because I think it is good for me to reap what I have written since beginning of 2020. Every end has a new beginning and surprisingly I stopped at Journal Day 43 which is the same age as I am having right now. I am always feel so awe by how life leads me. I am grateful for the positive experiences and the negative experiences that makes me realise how to move myself forward.

I allow myself to rest and I feel a lot better and recharged myself. I learnt a lot of things in these 10 months. In fact, It was really, really amazing experiences for me. I love and I appreciate my life a lot better.

Learnings
* I learnt how to love myself
* I learnt how to spend time with myself, without feeling awkward by loved
* I learnt how to manage my finances, which is amazing, my mind just blown away
* I learnt how to say Yes to myself
* When I ignored myself, I am disconnecting with myself
* When I listened to myself, I feel more empowered, joy and I feel more assurance and being cared for!

Journal Day 42: Do what I love

Today is a special day.
We celebrated Dad's birthday.
Thanks Ah Yang for preparing delicious po piah for us. I bought Pine Garden's Pulut Hitam Cake, it was delicious and not too sweet.

I helped to rep for a china lady. I was the "challenge".

It makes me realised that
When I do something I don't like, I feel stressed and unmotivated.

When I do something I enjoy, I feel energised, motivated and loved.
I want to connect with myself more.

Journal Day 41: Service leadership

Excellence is not a boost.

It is a labour of Love for what it can be better.

It is about leading by example and leaving a legacy.

Service leadership in my activity in my profession and in my life.

Journal Day 40: Confident Rachel

I am grateful that Evelyn allows me to view the videos, working on my own beliefs and values.

Step into wise and confident Rachel
Sensing the Future Rachel
I want to claim it now. I can feel it now.

Feel and believe
* 90 days challenge
* What do I need to do today?
* Imagine what is confident Rachel is doing now.
* Where am I pioritising my time and energy?

* Imagine what is confident Rachel is doing now.
- Rachel will wake up on time.
- Rachel goes for her daily exercise, eat plant-based diets
- Rachel rest for awhile, makes herself feel comfortable before she starts her day.
- Rachel organises and plans what she will do for the day
- Rachel will know what she is doing
- Rachel will ask whenever she is unclear
- Rachel will be decisive in what she wants
- Rachel has clarity in her life

* Where am I pioritising my time and energy?
- Promoting my calling (create conversations)
- Must get into conversations
- Build Trust
- Show A to B
- Create Desire, Set Expectations
- Selling High ticket items with Values

Go through the videos again
Day 1: Tapping Fear of Rejection

Journal Day 39: Birthday Rest

I give myself a Birthday Rest. As Tessa is back in Singapore, she said she is okay to spend some time with me.

We went to Gardens by the Bay for morning walk and in the end, we walked to Marina Bay Sands and having a nice tea at TWG Singapore and a nice memory book!
Now that Tessa has passed the book to me, it's my turn to update it! Hehehe. I enjoyed my day and be happy and healthy!

Journal Day 38: Set up healthy boundaries

Tonight, 6 Oct 2020, Mum triggered me with the things in the kitchen. I can't believe that she doesn't have the tolerance to put my things there in the cupboard.

For the entire house, I am only allowed to put my things in my room. I feel so sad and disappointed.

Another triggered on 15 Jan 2021, she is more concerened with her dry floor than me bathing in her bathroom.

How can my parents treat me like that. I am a human being, not things.

Am I just a passbyer in their eyes? I can't help but feeling that I needed to move out of the house to gain back my healthy autonomy and my freedom.

I am really, really feeling upset about it.

Now I really feel that it is good to set healthy boundaries for myself and others.

Journal Day 37: Make Money Easily

I did a healing process with Evelyn today.

I want to resolve money issues with Parents.

After healing I feel much better.

I addressed the issue that money is hard to earn.
I feel that money is easy to earn now, I trust myself more.

The next day, Dad just gives me money readily.

I told my business partner the amount that I want. He agreed to give me. More importanly, I need to find time to make sure I can deliver. I will negiotiate with him on the timeline.

Reflection: it is indeed that money is easier to make compare to the past. I cherish the people and opportunties that comes into my life.

Journal Day 36: Picking up my pieces

Today I feel thankful to have a groupd of well connected friends to celebrate my birthday.

It is indeed heartening to be with people that I loved, care about and want to be with.

Just now I broke a bottle of Ketchup. I felt helplessness in the beginning. But I told myself I will be able to clear the mess myself. After half an hour, I managed to pick up all the broken pieces and clean up the sauces on the floor. I fel that the broken pieces are parts of me. Big and small pieces of me. I picked them up one by one.

When I was impatient with myself, I hurt myself. Hence, I got a small cut, just now. Probably inside me, felt the pains and want to be seen by me. Feeling a little bit better after I cleared up the mess.

Good Job, Rachel!

Journal Day 35: Self Support

Today I felt overwhelmed because I was having a lot of activities.

1) Speak to Bhawani about NUS Newsletter Layouts.
2) Tech support for the China Clients.
3) Tech Support training with German Teams. I need to practise more on sharing screen.

Some of the surviving strategies that I had
1) Fall sick
2) Get Injured
3) Food Addiction (Junk Food)
4) Seeking validation and Perfection, Self critic (Not Good Enough)

Truth is we will never meet expectations.
Stop hurting myself.
Surviving strategies keep me away from the truths.

Why I need the money $100k?
1) Escape from Parents (Surviving Strategy)
2) Independance (Healthy Autonomy)
3) I want to support myself (Healthy Autonomy)

Journal Day 34: Random Thoughts 2

Today I give a webinar talk on "Creating Memorable Websites" It was pretty smooth, except I forgot to on my audio in my video.

I am glad that I built more trust with Edy, Hopefully, our partnership will work well.

Today I had an illogical night with the gals. It was silly, amused and fun. Although it was a bit awkward in the beginning.

I will give myself a hug tonight. I need it.

Journal Day 33: Hold hands together

Today is Mid Autumn Festival.
Full moon means completeness.

My family went to Bishan park for a walk. It was heartwarming when Ting Ting wants us to hold our hands together. Although Dad holds my hand, he can't give love to me anymore.

It is okay I can love myself now.

3 Things I can do for myself.
1) Stop all abusing, critical harsh words on myself
2) Feel my own passion, heart desires
3) Build strong connection with myself