Journal Day 5: Resilience

Today I want to tell myself I am awesome! Despite all the challenges that I faced, I still managed to overcome them. That is what resilience is all about.

Without challenges, there is no resilience, no wisdom, no strength.

Tonight talk is about resillence - how to overcome against odd.
What I remembered was mistakes / pains are just paying attention to our physical pain / emotional pain. I allow myself to feel angry / sad and there is no need to hide.

Don't fight alone, ask for help. It is a form of humanity and courage. Go with the flow.

Today I put $100 in my wallet. I feel that I am slowly growing up. I can handle my money better. I am able to receive more money into my life. Thank you Universe!

I trust myself.

Journal Day 4: Just ask for it

Toaday I want to tell myself that I can have anything I want in my life. I just ask for it.

Thank you and I allow myself to receive it.
I want back my health.
I want myself.
I trust myself.
I am rich in values.
Money flows in naturally.
I have a growth mindset.
I take care of myself.
I feel loved when I hug myself.
I cherish myself.
I value myself.
I am doing this for greater good.

Journal Day 3: I am good enough

Today, I want to tell myself I am good enough.
I have beating myself up emotionally.
Enough is enough.

I am good enough for myself.
I don't need to prove myself to anyone.
I can be myself.

Rachel, remember you have your own strengths.
Never compare yourself with anyone.
You are unique.
You are talented.
You are a miracle.

I love you from the bottom of my heart.
PS: This pen is imperfect but I still embrace its flaw.

Journal Day 2: It is okay to make mistakes

Today, I want to tell myself, it is okay to make mistakes. Mistakes bring us closer to the truth. I understand the issues deeper and I will find more effective way to solve the issues.

I shared childhood traumas to a group of friends. Yes, it takes time to heal but it is okay. I allow myself to be healed.

Rachel, you are courageous soul and I love you.

Dad rewarded me $300 for completing my studies. I see it as a form of encouragement. I grow through learning. I want to attract clients who trust and want to work with me.

I allow myself to shine. I trust myself deeply and completely.

Journal Day 1: Saying loving words to myself

As I want to transfer the old journal to this ejournal for better reference and recording my growth.

I want to start saying loving words to myself.
Rachel, you are beautiful.
I love myself.
I accept myself fully, deeply and unconditionally.

I went to buy new clothes just now.
When I wore those clothes, I want to feel comfortable and confident.
Remember, confident comes from inner self.
I feel good wearing clothes that fit me.

I want my cells to be healthy.

My younger self tells me the challenges she was facing so that I can help.
I am ready to listen.

Today, I received Gratitude, Connection, Changes, Breakthroughs.

I believe I am connecting with myself.
There are going to be changes and breakthroughs.
Indeed, I received my UIUX results slips and certifications.
They are great, 3As and 1B+ in Oct 2020.
I also received my money breakthrough in 11 Nov 2020.
I am grateful for the experiences.

Today is my FIRST Day that I acknowledge myself that I am beautiful and I can feel it.
I can feel it is very sweet. I feel shy too. I want myself a lot more. I hug myself even though I teared. I felt very good after that, I long for hugs for a long, long time. Now, I can do it for myself.

认真的女人最美麗 - 高慧君

高慧君 - 认真的女人最美丽

看　城市睡得多么沉
梦　醒在黎明时分
冷　都是太习惯有你　分享体温
忘了自己平不平衡　傻傻空等

我　不再为你不锁门
爱　还有很多可能
让　所有柔情都勇敢的燃烧
像朵玫瑰花绽放　生命的缤纷

认真的爱人不怕有伤痕
笑和泪都痛快完整
认真的追求你不懂心疼
我做我幸福的主人

认真的态度是一种过程
付出的不会是牺牲
认真的坚持迎向你人生
你就是最美的女人


I personally feel that when I focus on the things I like to do. I immersed myself into the work fully. The outcome will be great. This lyrics resonate with me. We need to be the owner of our own happiness. Whatever we contribute will never be wasted. It is part of our life journey. Appreciates the moment and have the courage to explore and move forward each day.

張智霖 - 忽然覺得好想你

爱好奇怪总在夜里澎湃
心一旦开思念满怀

爱好无奈言语说不明白
心安静不下来

忽然觉得我好想你
忽然渴望拥抱你
只可惜今夜在我怀里
只有思念和回忆

忽然觉得我好想你
忽然担心永远失去你
这忧郁写满在夜里

Living a simple life

Living a simple life for people who wants to embrace more than what you already have. The real benefits of minimalism stretch much more deeper and wider than you think. Life is so much more than what you own.

1. Clarity of Mind
We didn't realise that the amount of physical things that we have are interlink with our mental health and physical health. Research has shown that when we clear out our closets, it has massive impact on our mental clarity and peace of mind.

I reflected that after I repack my entire wardrobe. I must say that it has impact the way I look at my clothings. I know exactly where are my dresses, tshirts, pants, shorts, skirts, belts, hats and undergarments are. It saves my time to think what clothes should I wear for today or the next day. Last time, I used to dig all my clothes, just to find 1 sweater. But now, there is no need for me to do that as I can see clearly where my things are.

2. Better Health
Too many of us are over committed in our lives. We are afraid to disappoint someone - that is a terrible reason to overload our schedules. It is okay to rest when we are tired or just let our body and mind to simply clear our mind just for half a day. That helps our body to rejuvenate and recover our energy faster. Regular exercise helps to boost our energy up and so does choosing the healthier choice of food.

3. More Freedom
Letting go of physical possession you own, desire to own, or work to own what you don't want it. Imagine the freedom you would experience if you could let go of the pressure and do what you want to do. You will have more time to travel, take a day off, to work for yourself or to find a job that you actually like.

4. Less Stress
Imagine you are living in your clutter-free home, feeling good, safe and relax. Ahhh... I can feel it already.

5. More Time
In a world where opportunities are coming at us faster than the speed of light. It is hard to say "no" for a couple of reasons. First fear of missing out and secondly fear of being bored. Try this for a week: clear all your evening time, work during the day but don't make any commitments in the evenings. Then with the extra time, prepare dinners for family, go for evening walks or read books.

Amazing opportunities will always be there. They will never run out. I promise you will find a way to fill up your extra time.

6. Self-Confidence
You may think you need to have the latest or greatest style of clothes or that brand of clothes, bags, shoes, car to make you feel good about yourself.

Imagine how freeing it would be to feel good about yourself without those things. This is an unexpected benefit of living with less. You start to feel good about yourself, not because of what you own but just because of who you are.

Recent I saw a beautiful jacket on Sale just for $29. I wanted to buy because it really makes me feel good about myself. Then, I thought about the practicality of having this jacket. I would have very few occasions to wear this jacket. It is not very practical, hence, in the end, I didn't buy. To me, seeing beautiful things don't mean that we need to own it. As long as we are able to appreciate it for that moment, it is good enough.

7. Greater Purpose
When you clear out unnecessary activities and items from your life, something unexpected happens. A clear sense of purpose returns. You feel motivated to do what you set out to do because your direction is clear and there is no confusion. When you only have few commitments, you can take them seriously.

8. Extra Money
When we learn to buy less and having less activities, there will be more cash on hand. Then when you find something you really want to do or have, you will have money to buy it.

9. Better Relationships
When you stop trying to impress people and begin to connect with them, just be yourself, your relationships will definitely improve. Great relationships are built on shared experiences and great memories.

10. Lifetime Memories
When you begin to move focus from possessions to memories, you not only have more space in your closet, you will have enough great memories to keep you smiling for a lifetime.

That is what great life is all about.

Transformation through exercise

A lot of my friends thought that I join Lose to Win is to lose weight. My key motivation is to have a healthy and balance lifestyle. I thought of putting some good tips which I learned along the way.

Mindset
Health is our first wealth. Without health, don't even need to talk about other things in life. Be clear and specific of what you want to get at the end of the day. ie for the current goal, I will eat 2 fruits per day and walk 10,000 steps per day. 90% of the time, I have achieved these 2 goals because they are easy to achieve and these two goals are what I really want to do, not by force or external pressure. Losing weight is hard when we are not focus, and didn't have a positive mindset that we will REALLY lose weight. Visualize the healthier self. This helps us to keep in mind that it is achievable.

Food Nutrients
Have you heard food as medicine? When we learned how to treat our body well, our body will live a long time. Learned more about each food properties. This can help us to cook better food and intake the good nutrients from the food. Find health nutritionist / health coach that can advise you on the varieties of food. Raw and Fresh vegetables and fruits are still the best because it has the most nutrients that our body needs. Cut down on meat if we are a meat lover ie Have it as one palm size. If we can take care of what we eat, we can reduce the chances of high risk in chronic diseases. Never have quick fix solutions on diet. It is expensive and not sustainable.

Exercise
By right, we "should" exercise everyday. However, due to our hectic lifestyle, it is almost impossible. However, I learned that I need blend in 3 times exercise into my lifestyle. Outdoor activities are great. I used to join California membership and the membership is expensive, not sustainable. Hence, I have allocated Tues bootcamp at Stadium Gate 2, Thurs Walk in the Park /Fri Kickboxing at J8 and Sunday Zumba class at Bishan Park. I noticed that my goal that I set was "to exercise 2 times a week and eat fruits weekly" but this goals were not set specific enough. Now, I have edited it to be more specific and it can be measured.

Sleep
To sleep before 11am, I still couldn't achieve this as I am still blogging away. I wanted to keep this points down before I forgot. I will continue to strive to achieve this. I remembered Jessy told me to make a point to sleep 15mins each time before the previous day. Ie 12am, shift it to 11.45pm and then 11.30pm. 11.15pm and finally 11pm. Make it a habit. Once it becomes a routine, our body will be able to rest well at 11pm. Having sufficient rest is important, it sets the energy right and we will feel good about ourselves the next morning.

All is possible when we set our heart, our mind and our consciousness alighted. Good luck!

Marie Kondo: "The Life Changing Magic of Tidying Up"

I am very inspired by Marie Kondo's ways of tidy up the room. After watching her google talk. Today, I woke up and start to organise my wardrobe. I took her advice to tidy up within a short period of time, put things in categories and only keep things that are useful, makes me happy and beautiful things that brings me joy.

Normally, I find tidy up the room is a chore, I will procrastinate until I can't take it anymore and I will do it. Surprisingly, for the first time, I don't have such feeling. In fact, I go through all my clothes, looking at each pieces one by one, deciding if it makes me happy or I need to let go.

After going through the processes, I notice that my dresses were used to all over the places, so are shirts and other items. Now, I categorize my clothing in terms of types: dresses, tshirts, blouses, shorts, pants, skirts, towels, belts, scarves, socks, hats and inner wear. Each of the categories have it's own space and I only keep those that I will wear. This arrangement will save me lots of time and effort, looking for the "right type" of clothing for the day.

I found out that I have 11 towels that I haven't use before. I gave all to mum and she is very happy. I am happy too because my wardrobe no longer clutter and it is a place where I can select my favourite clothing for the day. This is the type of strategic tidy up that I have been looking for.

I notice a lot of people are like me, always thinking that the piece of item will be use at later time. Honestly, once you didn't touch it for a year, most likely you won't use it anymore. So just let it go! I also realised at a lot of people do not know how to tidy up the space in a correct manner. This is a great skill to master.

Other people may feel, it is just tidy up the place. I personally feel it is more than that. It is therapeutic, it helps me to rethink, what kind of ideal space that I need that can help me to improve my thoughts, my creativity and makes me feel joyful and calm.
I really want to thank that I have found the right teacher to guide me how to be an effective and efficient life organiser.

Happy Box

Today I went out with Huimin. She keeps looking for a container. Finally, we found a suitable container at NBC.

I asked her why does she needs such a huge container? She told me that she wants to put the happy thoughts, reflection and good deeds in this container. I thought that it's a great idea, so I told her that I wanted to join her as well.

The staff of NBC told us one of them is the display set and the other one is new. As huimin wanted to check if other stores have such container, she told the staff to keep the 2 containers for an hour. Checking on other stores, we cannot find any containers to our likings. In the end, we go back to NBC.

As we are at the counter, huimin spotted a container that store some stationery. She asked if they sell the container. The staff is very helpful said that she can help us to find as they have spare containers.

We are very happy and fortunate to find this free, happy box! Huimin and I decided to dedicate the first well wishes to this kind and helpful staff of NBC!

I decorated with a beautiful ribbon to make the happy box to be more pleasantly looking! hee hee :D

刘德华

这是我第一次谈到刘德华。他是我童年的偶像，就算我不是他的超级小粉丝。我确实听他的歌曲，看他的电影长大的。

虽然我已经不崇拜他了，今晚在电视节目里，才真正的了解他一点点，还是有让我学习的地方。确实媒体的影响力很大，可以把一个普通人，包装成一位巨星。把他最好的放大几倍。在他被媒体的呵护下，他的“完美”形象就出炉了。

刚出道的时候，他需要靠包装展现他的的魅力。但是如今的他是靠他真正的实力展现他的魅力。这一路来，他默默耕耘，当然也会有不顺利的时候，但他经常鼓励自己下一次会成功。对他来说，拿奖并不是让他最开心的。是身边的人，扶持他，鼓励他让他更有信心做得更好。自己要创造自己的路。有缺点，就要改，这样才能进步。

有人问他如果有一天他不在被媒体重视了，他会怎样？他坦然的说没关系，他还有人品。

Relaxing Sunday

Yesterday went for Metta Run with Siew. Really enjoyed running with her. Although we ran at different speed from time to time. I still feel supported with her around. I think that is why our friendship is so special, there is not necessary to be together 24/7, yet we are comfortable with each other.

Today my body starts to ache. Last night before sleep, my feet was swollen, luckily the swollen has subsided. I guess due to let of stretching exercise. Today is a relaxing day for me, I didn't do much, just washing of family clothing and went to nap. Unfortunately, I didn't have a beautiful dream. I dreamt that Siangming (ex bf) came back to me to ask me for money and he came with his son. In my dream, I was already quite well-to-do. However, I rejected his request and I woke up. When I reflected on my dream, I guess it is really hard for me to give another person a second chance. It is really about the trust that was once built was broken after so many years. No doubt it was just a dream, it felt real. One good thing about it, I don't feel upset about it as I have forgiven him and myself. We are not meant to be. On a second thought, why guys keep asking me for money. Am I so gullible or too trusting? I think I must be more alert when comes to money!

Bad dream aside, I had a good dinner with my family and my aunt tonight. My aunty offered to pay for the dinner. She is generous :) As we are debating who should win the vote. I realised both my mum, my aunty and myself are on the same side and my dad and my sis are on the other side. We both have our views. Nevertheless, I do hope that the voting results would be fair and justice. Win like a gentleman!

Mindful Living

Yesterday while waiting for Siew, I went into Kikki stationary shop. As I browse through the items. I saw a few lovely personal enhanced books comes in a series such goals, happiness, mindfulness and gratitude. I was attracted by the mindfulness book. I liked the quote in the book: “Wherever you are, be all there!” ― Jim Elliot

I think this is what mindfulness is all about. I continued to flipped the book. There are some good questions to reflect.
1) How are you feeling right now?
2) What are the things that are working for you now?
3) What are the things that are not working for you?
4) What will you do to improve the situation?

I have been following Dr Wayne Dyer's teaching for some time. Some of his sharing are inspiring to me such as: When you squeeze an orange, you'll always get orange juice to come out. What comes out is what's inside. The same logic applies to you: when someone squeezes you, puts pressure on you, or says something unflattering or critical, and out of you comes anger, hatred, bitterness, tension, depression, or anxiety, that is what's inside. If love and joy are what you want to give and receive, change your life by changing what's inside.

This is also considered mindful living. Do you know that Dr Wayne has been writing journal all his life? That is because he wants to have the self awareness, to understand himself better, to understand what life is about, to connect with people.

Through the learning from Ven. Master Hsing Yun and Dr Wayne, I feel that I benefited a lot from them. They are great leaders and yet they are humble and impart their wisdom and compassion to us. I am really very thankful towards them. I no longer need to seek for others approval, by just believing in myself. Using my own compassion and wisdom to guide my own path and others.

I will start my journaling again Lol :D

Educating myself on managing finance

Today can called a new rebirth for me as these past few months, I started to educate myself about money and how can I manage money better and benefit myself and people around me. It feels great to receive a decent salary from my own business. Using my talent and skills to bring me out of the situation.

Looking back past year, who on earth would be so insensible to give a stranger $22,000 just because he is in need of money? I truly learned my mistakes, there are truly scammers, liars and cheaters in this world, who can tell you sad stories to con you in believing their sad stories. Although I still have $12,000 to return to my father and sister, I am confident that I am able to deliver my promise for the next year and I will be debt free!

I can't blame anyone other than myself for being so naive and too trusting, thinking that it is real story. But I also learned to forgive myself and making sure that I will not be a victim any more.

Through this drama, I learn that how money is important to our daily life and we should respect money. Money can be beneficial to our needs, help the genuine charity organisations and give our love ones better living life. I have also put aside money for gratification to reward myself for the hardwork that I have contributed, to acknowledge and pamper myself and my family.

Why people lie and cheat?
I guess due to their poor upbringing, they have bad experiences and wanted to revenge or they found the short term benefits of conning people. These will not last and eventually they lost themselves. I do hope that one day, they will repent and walk back the right path. May they be enlighten.

There is such thing as karma, whatever these people do, they need to pay back whatever they have done. I may not have the opportunity to see it. It doesn't matter to me as I have learned my lesson and move on.

Mid Year Review 2015

Mid Year Review: Last night spend some time to reflect what I have done in the past and what I want to achieve in the future. I am pleased with some of the things I wrote have been completed and some are still in work in progress.

Required Attention

1) Spend quality time with the nature, exercising, meditate Sunday morning On-going

To have quality sleep. Make sure sleep before 11pm. Required Attention

Mindful of what I eat. Required Attention

I can be healthy from 59kg to 50kg. by eating nutritious food. Need to put in salad / cereals in my meals to allow my body have proper nutrients! Start by Mar 2015.

I will take good care of my body by listening to my body.

2) Increase knowledge through reading Read Everyday, 30 mins Start now 21^st July 2015

Pay attention through listening and observation.

Review weekly on my progress. Planning my schedule every Sunday.

3) Earns S$60,000 in 2015 for my business, S$20,000 in every quarter (Talk to Stephan, Alvin and find serious collaborations to discuss this)

Finding more businesses with Elaine for our design business to sustain our current lifestyle at least $20,000 in every 3 month Focus on building business relationships. Earning $20,000 for first 6 months currently. Need to put in more effort in business. Required Attention

4) Craft 28 Aug Humorous Speech (30 July) and 19 Sept Meeting (15 Aug), use personal stories by Jun 2014

5) Visit Aunty Lyn, Uncle Bob in between July to Sep 2015

6) Creative Painting Deliver Acrylic Painting/Artwork every 3 months

7) Write a Book. B+  By Dec 2015. Attend 25-27 Sep 2015 How to publish a book.

8) Reduced time on Facebook.

On-Going

1) Continue to build bonding and spend quality time with family and friends

2) Teaching Mi Tuo Students every Saturday morning, 9.30am – 11.30am.
    Starts on 24th January 2014. 3^rd year now.

3) Spend time on my Business

Focus on the type of customers and values

4) Meetup with Business Owners, Build goodwill Network every 2 times a week Giving Referrals

5) Wellness

Mediate 5 mins, twice daily.

Exercise 3 times a week: Every Mon, Wed and Sunday (Swimming / Other interesting Exercise) 

Many people find that goal settings do not work. My learning is we have to take actions in order to make it work. Aligned your goals with your purpose, beliefs and values. Be specific such as set realistic timeline. Review your goals at least once a week to ensure that you are on the right track or make small adjustments to suit the reality. Finally, be focus and committed to your goals.

3 Important Questions

Setting Goals with the ends in mind helps us to bring our life more meaningfully.

1) What kind of experiences I want to have?

Being happy

Travel with my love ones

Having quality time with family and friends, connecting with them deeper

Joy

Trust

Loving

Bonding

2) What kind of growth do you want to have?

Confidence can be built through daily practice, Be more, Do more.

Leadership

Increased in Wisdom (Clarity)

Able to dealt with issues with solutions

Mediation daily (Increase in intuition and clarity
Stabilise my emotions 

Exercise 3 times a week

Eating healthy

Reaching ideal weight 50kg

3) What do I want to contribute to the society?

Give people my attention 100%, be it family, friends or person who is with me at the moment

Give insights to people

Exhibit 1 art work once a year

Write book to provide knowledge to people

Educating people

Volunteer

Some of them I am doing it, some are still work in progress. My experiences it is more towards relationship building. Inside of me wanted to educate people. That's why the ultimate role is to become a teacher. 

One teacher told me teacher is like a candle, to burn the wick is to light up the wisdom in students' heart.

Go with the flow

A good friend of mine once said,"Go with the flow and your life will be smoother." Little did I know what she meant until I experience it myself.

These few years, I have been meeting intuitive people, art therapists, even venerables, they all said about going with the flow.

I wasn't open previously, I guess... This year I decided to be more open, things start to flow. I am more receiveable about my own intuition, more open about new ideas, able to adapt changes easier. These are the growth in me.

I felt that I no longer uptight to my bad experiences. I understand that it's part of my learning. I feel more safe now. I realised being a control freak devalued my life, I learn to go with the flow, my world has changed for the better.

Yesterday, attended an art experiential session. It's about drawing the past, present and future doors. I gained a lot of insights. From inward looking to outward looking. From current situation to the outcome. I feel positive and hopeful.

I am still working on myself. I guess life is the best teacher because it never lies.

你不知道的事

创作灵感：
《你不知道的事》是由王力宏作词、作曲并演唱的一首歌，这首歌也是电影《恋爱通告》的主题曲。王力宏在电影中向女主角刘亦菲“求爱”之歌。刘亦菲原本写了情诗给学校中爱慕的学长，结果学长不领情，王力宏在剧中把这首情诗改编成情歌，写成《你不知道的事》唱给刘亦菲，让刘亦菲发现原来王力宏深爱着她，借着情歌求爱成功。

感想：
感觉这首歌有丝情画意的感觉。一首不能说出来的感情，正符合电影的情节。让我从中学习到创作人必须有的条件：感情要丰富，有共鸣，才能感动大家的作品。

歌词：
蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你

你不知道我为什麽离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨 碎了满地
在心里清晰

你不知道我为什麽狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你

你不知道我为什麽离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨 碎了满地
在心里清晰

你不知道我为什麽狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事
我飞行 但你坠落之际

你不知道我为什麽离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨 碎了满地
在心里清晰

你不知道我为什麽狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事

爱不持久

收音机每天都在播放这首歌。忍不住的想看歌词的内容。原来是小S作词, 作曲, 难怪她能唱出那么有感情的歌。

歌词：
爱 不可能持久
尤其当一个人怀疑自己的时候
本来很甜蜜的话 现在却像在吵架
如果没有人先承认自己还爱对方
爱就变成挣扎

爱 不可能持久
尤其当你开始怀疑我不爱你的时候
本来想牵你的手 现在却觉得尴尬
如果没有人先承认自己还爱对方
爱就变成挣扎

我不想失去你 又不知道如何表达
我爱你明明就在心里面回荡
我不想失去你 又不知道如何表达
下次多希望你能够鼓起勇气说话

爱 不可能持久
尤其当你开始怀疑我不爱你的时候
本来想牵你的手 现在却觉得尴尬
如果没有人先承认自己还爱对方
爱就变成挣扎

我不想失去你 又不知道如何表达
我爱你明明就在心里面回荡
我不想失去你 又不知道如何表达
下次多希望你能够鼓起勇气说话

我不想失去你 又不知道如何表达
我爱你明明就在心里面回荡
我不想失去你 又不知道如何表达
下次多希望你能够鼓起勇气说话

Digitize my journal

As I was tidy up my room, I saw a few loose journals in my drawer. I read through and decided to summarize and digitize the content here.

The journals was written in 2010. Most of them were written about the happening in each day. Some stories stand out better than the rest, such as my personal growth and insights, relationship with family and past romance. Most of the articles are surround by love, forgiveness and understanding.

1. The acceptance of who I really am. The relationship with myself has greatly improved. (4 years old heart work!) I am honest with myself now. Look into my heart whenever I needed the answers. It is safe to admit truth with myself.
2. Lessons on Assertiveness. Be clear of my intent and purpose. Be firm about it. Clarity brings wisdom.
3. The love for my family.
4. Spend time with friends and understand them.
5. Letting go of my past romance.I feel neutral about past relationships as they are over. Now, I see the past relationships are experiences that I have gained, be it good or bad. These experiences definitely help me to become a better person in dealing with relationships.
6. Love and be passionate with my career. Give 100% focus and commitment. Easily attached and detached from work that I truly care.
7. Contribution to the society.
8. Celebrate every small successes.

I am inviting

• Continuing the connection with myself.
• My relationships are real and genuine.
• Wisdom is my daily life.
• Body is healthy when I am 80 years old to enjoy trekking at the mountains or forest.
• Love and Passion into my life.
• Creativity, Communication, Confidence, Commitment, Courage and Clarity into my life.
• Peace, Joy and Happiness are here for stay.

Health Promise, Self Love

This morning, I woke up feeling determine and motivated.

On this Valentine's Day, start loving myself by taking good care of my wellbeing in a holistic way.

This statement I really mean what I say. I will take care of my body. Drink and eat mindfully and rest before 11.30pm. I will put my well being in the first place.

I am aware that my health needs to be earned. Hence, I am investing good health into my life.

Do you really want for a better life?

Everyone of us wants a better life. But are we willing to put in the right effort to make sure that we really do and be committed about it?

I was sharing with my own limiting self belief with a friend who is a magician. He is very outspoken and he just say 3 words: Just do it.

His words just blown me away. Yes, I also thought that I lack of actions. My dreams will not materialise until I choose to do it.

Here are 3 tips that I feel they are necessary to make things happen.

1. Define what we really want.
When the picture of our goal is clear and specific, it will be easier to make the changes and do something about it.

Ask ourselves: what do we really, really want? Look within.

2. Believe in ourselves.
Imagine ourselves having it already. When we allow ourselves to believe that we CAN make the changes we want to make, then starting to make them becomes that much easier.

3. Take a small step every single day.
It takes 30 days before things start to change and new habits take place. Decide that what we want is really important to us, and commit to making an effort towards reaching it every single day. There's no time like the present! Take up journaling, and write out our thoughts about the important issues we raise in making change. Be prepared to be uncomfortable and to rock the boat. (Change is not for the faint of heart.)

We have already decided that what we want is worth it, so when we're tempted to sink into the couch and watch another TV show, or when we're headed to the kitchen to mindlessly shovel food into our mouth, or when our credit card is whipped out and ready to make another numbing purchase, decide that right now is the moment we're going to change.

Inviting ourselves to do something more purposeful. Educating ourselves that we can be focus and committed to change for better life.

Back to the Basic

Going to the Basic is great because

• It simplifies things.
• It de-clutters the mind and space.
• It improves performance.
• It surfaces level of importance.
• It helps to bring clarity.

I allow myself to unlearn to relearn. Being basic is just simply amazing :)

世界唯一的妳

Watched Cao Ge's music interview. He shared about the story behind this song. This song is inspired by a cat who had skin rashes. At that moment, his career also at the lowest point. He spend time taking care of the cat until it has fully recovered.

At first, he thought he has saved the cat. Later, he realised that the cat gives him the opportunity to love and care unconditionally and be free from his downtime. Very touching story. That is why this video has cats.

He also mentioned that he connects better people through music. For me, I connect better with people through design. Design is my form of expression. It is always touching to see how beings touches each other lives intentionally or unintentionally. We are love and light.

A Healing Journey to the Center of Myself

I am connected to this article. Hence, I would like to share it here.

Via Antonia Rothschild on Jan 11, 2015
I am beginning to see now just what it is I have done for myself in this lifetime.

I am beginning to understand the extent and the depth of the work that I have done with and on behalf of myself. I am beginning to allow for the seeds that I so bravely planted within to truly take root and to crack open the surface and begin to show. And with this I am beginning to acknowledge just how grateful I am for my own persistency, courage and unwavering faith.

Sure, there have been moments when my mind has questioned just about everything and I have felt like giving up; I am even sure there are many more of those moments to come.

But at the end of the day I still have myself to thank for pulling myself through the tough stuff and believing in the good of all. I have stared myself in the eyes and oscillated between feeling intense self-loathing and good old unconditional love.

However dark things have sometimes been, I never forgot about the light.

I am beginning to see that I have really been there for myself through it all. I am seeing that all of the past little versions of me have brought me safely to this moment, this magnificent moment we call the present.

So, without neglecting the importance of the people who have always been around, I realize that I, more than anyone, am to thank for this precious moment. Just as much as I am to blame for all the times I have not acknowledged the geniality and beauty of life I am, also to thank for all those other times when I actually did manage to open my eyes to the wonder of the world.

Blame has no purpose, I know that now. Even what we perceive as mistakes and all that we take on as guilt which wears us down has a reason too: to teach us lessons in unconditional love.

I understand it is rather rare and uncomfortable to see yourself as the hero of your own life, and I suppose it is because people seldom feel capable of this. We are also seldom encouraged to be the divine hero of our own lives.

We need to be willing to ask for support, to let others be there for us. But without faith in our own potential and without our own support to ourselves, we are mere infants helplessly wandering this hazardous earth.

So once we have physically grown beyond the stage of infancy we must slowly but surely metaphysically grow into our own loving parent, god or goddess.

Without developing this inward support of the self, we cannot embody the full magnitude of who we have the potential to become. Parents teach us about this, they are the examples of the loving parents that we are meant to develop within by showing us how to love us unconditionally.

Though all parents are flawed and make mistakes of their own, we must strive to become the better parent and learn from all given lessons. The better parent is the one who loves even more, not in a competitive way, but in a forgiving, brave, naked and vulnerable way.

The better parent is the person who loves him/herself extensively through everything and who, thanks to this love, knows how to love all other beings and moments just the same way, and who dedicates his/her life to simply be an expression of that love. The better parent is he/she who forgives their own parents and all others just as he/she forgives himself for he/she understands that all things are merely different aspects of the same thing: the desire for love to express itself in one way or another.

I want to thank my inner parent, my divinity within, for never leaving me and for helping me get back to where I can see the bigger picture, for taking care of and comforting all my inner children who were once hurt, holding their hands until they were finally ready to leave happily and allow me to continue onto the next adventure.

It is not without humility that I bow down to my own inner being because I for one know the resistance I have many times put up. The beauty of it is that in seeing that it is this unconditionally loving being of light within me that brought me to be. I can now peacefully merge with it. With all the gratitude my heart can bear, I now surrender to my own magnificence, allowing for all the love it holds to be expressed entirely and freely through me.

Because she the human being that isn't just the facilitator of love; she is love manifested.

New Phrase of Life

I have set 1st Sep 2014 as my new phrase of my life. Be more organise, discipline and diligent.

After 4 months of working on myself, I have make some progress. I set tasks for myself ie Using ePostItNote is useful for me as I list out the top tasks that I need to complete on the day or at least the next few days. It helps me to focus and organised. Hence, discipline sets in esp. where work is concern.

Area of Improvement: I am still unable to keep my table clean and tidy. I reflect on my actions. I like to put things on the table, Hence, my documents pile up. When they pile up, I just leave the messy pile of documents on the table. This leads to endless of messiness on my table. How can I work on this area? I need to find reasons or benefits to keep my table tidy, which I haven't find. One thing I notice is that I like to work in the kitchen, reason is the table is clean and clear. Hmmm, perhaps I can use this reason to be my purpose of keeping my things neat and tidy.

On 8th Feb 2015, I noticed a subtle change in myself. I am able to pack my drawers more organised by grouping them in categories. Throw away those unused items in the drawers. This is an improvement which I didn't see in the past.

Another reminder habit I practice is I start to put "To do list" on my desktop, these are the projects which I need to follow closely and also to write on the post-it-note on reinforce what I need to do. Ever since I implement these 2 habits, I am more mindful in what I am doing. I could feel the change within me. It is an amazing experience.

As I start to change within, my external environment changes as well. I become more aware of my environment and the needs of the people around me. I will embrace and unfold new phrase of my life.

I am good enough

Recently, I met one of my clients to discuss about his packaging. I have come out with 2 options, he didn't like it and ask me to come out with a few more "creative" options. He gave me the art directions. I did accordingly to his direction even don't I think his ideas don't work. True enough, he didn't like his own idea and stick back to my original art work.

When I ask him a deeper question,"Why do you keep changing your mind?" He mentioned that during his course of study at NAFA, his teacher constantly tell him that his artwork is not good enough. He adopt this mindset of his work is not good enough. Years after years, after 20+ years later, even though he is 40+ years old now. He has brought over his past negative experience till now. Whenever a designer does his work, he will think it is not good enough. He didn't dare to pursue his dream of being a videographer. He didn't realise how big impact his teacher has given to him.

How I helped him is to have this awareness that whatever his teacher has mentioned, is already over. Let it go... He is good enough and people around him is good enough. I also just realised that how strong and how deep the impact was given from the teacher. Whatever the teacher has said to his students, be it good or bad, it will impact his students. Choose our words wisely.

100 grateful things, Day 7

Today is seventh day I will share about gratefulness about random things in my life:

1. I am grateful to make an effort to create meanings in my life.
2. I am grateful people appreciate and value in what I do.
3. I am grateful to have a fulfilling life by being appreciative of how I responded to life.
4. I am grateful that I have changed my mindset tremendously. From someone who complains about life to someone who appreciate and be thankful for who I am.
5. I am grateful I allow myself to change my mindset. Since nothing is permanent, I choose to let go unnecessary unhappiness.
6. I am grateful happiness is here and now.
7. I am grateful there are countless of people I need to thank. I will tell them personally. It is the right thing to do.
8. I am grateful I need to forgive myself as due to my own ignorance and move on in my life.
9. I am grateful Ahjah Brahm share that even when we make mistakes, 30% of our life, it is still worth it as we have 70% of our life is blissful.
10. I am grateful mistakes are just learning lessons, ie if we didn't fall, how did we know the feeling of falling? Once we have fallen, the only way, is to get up.
11. I am grateful it is better to make mistakes when young then when we are old.
12. I am grateful I go through mistakes and make myself a better person.
13. I am grateful I am a positive person generally.
14. I am grateful I am able to see different perspectives to solve my own problem.
15. I am grateful I bring joy to my family and friends.
16. I am grateful I give them a shoulder to lie on.
17. I am grateful I am dependable.
18. I am grateful friends come to me to share their woes and I am able to advise them.
19. I am grateful there is nothing more important than family and friends.
20. I am grateful to my parents who put my sister and I before them.
21. I am grateful I think for my parents now. I put myself in their shoes.
22. I am grateful to realise joy comes within.
23. I am grateful to those who set challenges for me, they hope to see a better me.
24. I am grateful I am no longer feel upset to those who have hurt me. They must have hurt badly themselves.
25. I am grateful to realise that life is like a mirror, whatever I do, it reflects.
26. I am grateful sometimes I am touched by my own words and encouragements.
27. I am grateful my clients pay me promptly.
28. I am grateful I create business opportunities for myself.
29. I am grateful to realise skillful means need time to master.
30. I am grateful to realise not all fast speed will bring fruits, patience is the key to success.
31. I am grateful to realise that people who reject, just mean that they are not ready.
32. I am grateful to realise let nature takes its course.
33. I am grateful I start to cultivate patience.
34. I am grateful to move in my own comfortable speed.
35. I am grateful to appreciate balance.
36. I am grateful when I am too fast, learn to slow down.
37. I am grateful when I am too slow, learn to speed up.
38. I am grateful there is no right or wrong, just move with the flow.
39. I am grateful to listen more to myself and my body.
40. I am grateful that my right kind of teachers appear, when I am ready to listen and learn.
41. I am grateful that my quality of life is slowly appearing and I need to be patient for it to unfold.
42. I am grateful to realise that money is an energy. Learn to appreciate money.
43. I am grateful that my money is kind as my money are often use to help people.
44. I am grateful to put my money into good use.
45. I am grateful to start educate myself to use my money wisely.
46. I am grateful to find back my self worth.
47. I am grateful to have the opportunities to learn art histories. They are very rich in creating meaningful and timeless work.
48. I am grateful to paint "Abundance" and hope it will be timeless piece of work as well.
49. I am grateful to realise that too many desires will lead to nowhere.
50. I am grateful I am enough.
51. I am grateful Dr. Lee Leing, with her skillful means, she helped me to save my broken tooth. She is professional and caring towards her patients.
52. I am grateful to feel relax whenever I meditate, do yoga or balancing postures.
53. I am grateful I am answerable for my own actions.
54. I am grateful to realise that any skills can be learn when I put my heart in it.
55. I am grateful to have this strong belief, "there is a will, there is a way."
56. I am grateful to realise that avoid an issue, it will never solve the problem. Only to face it bravely, that is where wisdom comes in.
57. I am grateful when I go through my life photos, there are lots of happy moments which I am thankful about.
58. I am grateful to preserver things I truly care.
59. I am grateful to realise that life is never perfect. Accept things that I can't change and change things that are within my ability.
60. I am grateful to store memories that matters to me.
61. I am grateful I try my best to treat everyone equally.
62. I am grateful to attend Ven. Hui Feng Workshop, he lets us to share our thoughts and views. He correct us when we have our wrong views.
63. I am grateful I am constantly attending dharma classes to deepen my understanding about buddhism.
64. I am grateful although I am 2 days late to complete this gratefulness activity, I am able to be more mindful about people around me.
65. I am grateful to find purpose in this gratefulness activity, to realise how many things I have taken for granted, learned to cherish them now.
66. i am grateful to share useful, helpful or interesting information to friends in facebook.
67. I am grateful to improve my own quality of life.
68. i am grateful to let go of my old romance relationships, which no longer serve me.
69. i am grateful to welcome new relationship and friendship into my life.
70. I am grateful to realise the purpose of our life is not just to reach our destination but to appreciate every bit of our life.
71. I am grateful to count my blessings.
72. I am grateful to find my own happiness.
73. I am grateful happiness is within me.
74. I am grateful to realise that my business is more than just business but true lasting friendship which I want to build.
75. I am grateful support is given to me as long as I ask.
76. I am grateful to focus what is important to me and let go what isn't.
77. I am grateful every single breath is important.
78. I am grateful to be able to work in fun loving environment.
79. I am grateful I did all the best I can for my clients.
80. I am grateful I am able to share my things with people.
81. I am grateful I have warmth at heart.
82. I am grateful I see the value in myself once again.
83. I am grateful I did my best to make a difference.
84. I am grateful I made small changes to my life, improves the quality of my life.
85. I am grateful I able to connect with people much better.
86. I am grateful I am able to heal myself.
87. I am grateful I have sight, hearing, touch, smell and taste, these 5 senses allow me to appreciate life better.
88. I am grateful I can use my creativity to help people around me.
89. I am grateful to share my learning with people I care about.
90. I am grateful Angie, Raymond and Teresa always treat me food and I am appreciative.
91. I am grateful I able to see the truths in the Dharma.
92. I am grateful to learn the Dharma from the venerables. They are very mindful and sincere in the teachings.
93. I am grateful to follow the right teachers.
94. I am grateful things are changing for the better.
95. I am grateful Elaine help me in some of the graphics works.
96. I am grateful to know lots of kind hearted people.
97. I am grateful to learn from my mistakes and not to repeat them again.
98. I am grateful for my experiences in this earth. Be it good or bad. I learn to appreciate. Good experiences to be much more easily accepted than bad experiences. However, bad experiences make us grow wiser and more compassionate.
99. I am grateful to widen my perspectives and embrace the experiences and learning.
100. I am grateful to take up this gratefulness activity and it allows to give thanks to the people around me.

100 grateful things, Day 6

Today is 6th day I will share about gratefulness towards my things.

1. I am grateful to have a comfortable home.
2. I am grateful to have a cosy room of my own.
3. I am grateful to have my own space, where I can do my own thinking.
4. I am grateful to have countless of clothings in my wardrobe.
5. I am grateful to have at least 10 pairs of shoes on my shoe rack.
6. I am grateful to have shelves of books, which provides me insights.
7. I am grateful to have art resources which I can easily make art and crafts for people around me.
8. I am grateful to have designing tools to make my creation easier.
9. I am grateful to have a family car, which makes our family outing easier.
10. I am grateful to have a lovely park, where I can do my morning exercise.
11. I am grateful to have a lotus flower pond inside the lovely park.
12. I am grateful to have time to exercise and keep my body fit.
13. I am grateful to have good teachers around me.
14. I am grateful that every things that I come across, have something to teach me.
15. I am grateful to understand that all events are based on conditions.
16. I am grateful to realise that good things are easier to accept.
17. I am grateful to realise that bad things make us change to become a better person.
18. I am grateful to realise that there is no absolute good and bad things, it is how we perceive and accept things as it is.
19. I am grateful to realise nothing is forever, be it things or relationships. Hence, I learnt to cherish them when they are still around.
20. I am grateful to realise some things are thrown away when old but some things are kept for nostalgic reasons.
21. I am grateful to detach myself from things and relationships that no longer serve me.
22. I am grateful to make things to decorate my room.
23. I am grateful to learn how to make my room neater.
24. I am grateful to connect things that matters to me.
25. I am grateful to have teas that I enjoy.
26. I am grateful I am more mindful about the food that I take.
27. I am grateful I appreciate my food better.
28. I am grateful to see that food as medicine.
29. I am grateful I appreciate green leaves and fruits more.
30. I am grateful my body enjoys yoga classes.
31. I am grateful I start to cut down on meat.
32. I am grateful I no longer eating beef and mutton.
33. I am grateful I appreciate whole food more. Whole food are food that has been processed or refined as little as possible and is free from additives or other artificial substances.
34. I am grateful fresh vegetables provide more nutrients for my body.
35. I am grateful for the original taste from the food.
36. I am grateful to recycle some of my things for better use.
37. I am grateful to reduce wastage of my resources.
38. I am grateful to make full use of my resources.
39. I am grateful to have court shoes that are lasting for the last 10 years. I use my first pay to buy such an expensive shoes, but it is worth its value.
40. I am grateful to handmade a lovely clay mug for my stationery.
41. I am grateful to have electricity in my home and office, without having to worry about shortage of light.
42. I am grateful to have a chocomania body lotion to wet my dry fingers and smell really nice.
43. I am grateful to realise quality is more important than price wars.
44. I am grateful to realise that material things are not lasting, they come and go.
45. I am grateful to realise that appreciate the things around me and detact them when they are gone.
46. I am grateful to realise that I am not affected by things that I don't have.
47. I am grateful to realise that many things are good to have but they are not a necessity.
48. I am grateful to realise that superficial things aren't lasting, only do things from the heart that matters.
49. I am grateful to realise that I have all the basic things that I need.
50. I am grateful to realise that I don't need a lot of things to make me happy.
Random things about my life 51. I am grateful that ever since I started my own design business. My projects are continuously coming.
52. I am grateful that through right effort and concentration, I can achieve what I wanted.
53. I am grateful that time is favorable for me.
54. I am grateful somehow things just appear on the right places.
55. I am grateful to have opportunities to work with like-minded people. It makes me easier to work with.
56. I am grateful to make friends with LTW4 friends and heart foundation friends.
57. I am grateful to Amutha and Jeya, they are great exercise coach and they teach from their heart.
58. I am grateful Amutha shares that it is okay to let go when conditions are not right and come back when I am ready.
59. I am grateful my procrastination has reduced greatly, keep going!
60. I am grateful I have reduced my comparison with others, as I find no joy doing it.
61. I am grateful money comes to me easily through own effort.
62. I am grateful I am grateful to have courage to live my life. 63. I am grateful to have family who truly love and care for me from their hearts.
64. I am grateful to have friends who support me whenever I need.
65. I am grateful to start to take care of my own health.
66. I am grateful to take charge of my own life.
67. I am grateful Theresa helped me to find visitors for visitors day.
68. I am grateful for the hot chocolate which I have missed for many years.
69. I am grateful for my lovely smile which gives people warmth.
70. I am grateful I have understanding friends around me.
71. I am grateful these wonderful teachers who have guided me all these years.
72. I am grateful I am connected with inspiring people.
73. I am grateful my heart is still warmth.
74. I am grateful for the lessons given to me, they made me wiser and compassionate person.
75. I am grateful life is fair.
76. I am grateful whatever I do is to benefit the people around me.
77. I am grateful for what goes around comes around.
78. I am grateful I am contented.
79. I am grateful I am more grounded than before.
80. I am grateful by drinking my favourite green tea latte can make me happy for a whole day.
81. I am grateful there are so many things to be grateful about.
82. I am grateful for the fresh air that I breath.
83. I am grateful for the level of sound around me is pleasant.
84. I am grateful for the simple things in life.
85. I am grateful each day of my life.
86. I am grateful to give myself each day to reflect what are the things to be grateful about.
87. I am grateful to give myself quality sleep.
88. I am grateful to be able to capture beautiful moment through my intuitive eyes.
89. I am grateful to have an able body.
90. I am grateful to have the right kind of people into my life.
91. I am grateful to have quality friends.
92. I am grateful I have overcome my swimming phobia and truly enjoy swimming.
93. I am grateful I learned to drink sufficient water.
94. I am grateful I learned to understand more about myself.
95. I am grateful I learned to appreciate each moment.
96. I am grateful to realise that nothing in this world is permanent.
97. I am grateful life changes so that I have new experiences each day.
98. I am grateful to study multimedia, followed by visual communication and design communication.
99. I am grateful to be in this designing field. There is so much fun and exploration.
100. I am grateful since I start to drink alkaline water, my body immune system improves.

100 grateful things, Day 5

Today is fifth day I will share about gratefulness towards my livelihood:

1. I am grateful to be a creative designer.
2. I am grateful to use my talent for the right place.
3. I am grateful to give myself opportunities to learn and grow.
4. I am grateful to share my career story with my friends.
5. I am grateful to able to find joy in drawing.
6. I am grateful to see my profession valuable.
7. I am grateful to setup my company RW Design Creations in 3 March 2013.
8. I am grateful to be able to value-add my clients.
9. I am grateful to wake up each day feeling great about my business.
10. I am grateful to build networks with like-minded business owners.
11. I am grateful to find inspiration when I work.
12. I am grateful to continue to work towards my dreams and vision.
13. I am grateful to be happier after working for myself.
14. I am grateful to find joy when I designed for my clients.
15. I am grateful to be appreciated by my clients.
16. I am grateful to be able to earn my living through my business.
17. I am grateful to learn about business management.
18. I am grateful to learn about pitching sales.
19. I am grateful to market my creative work through inside out.
20. I am grateful to be able to see through all my work completion.
21. I am grateful to understand the needs of my clients and give workable solution for them.
22. I am grateful to spend time to hone my design skills to mastery.
23. I am grateful to create meaningful works for other businesses.
24. I am grateful to remind myself constantly benefit people through my designs.
25. I am grateful to have the resources around me
26. I am grateful to hone my presentation skills every friday.
27. I am grateful my business gives a meaningful reason to be motivated.
28. I am grateful my business model is easy to operate and manage.
29. I am grateful my business is operated from my heart. 30. I am grateful I having fun when working.
31. I am grateful I love the moment of exploration.
32. I am grateful to find time to read to update myself with the latest technology.
33. I am grateful I constantly keep up with times.
For people who have helped me
34. I am grateful to Hwee Ling for hired me as a web designer. That was my first job.
35. I am grateful to Hwee Ling that he gave me a pay raise of $700 after working for a year.
36. I am grateful to have the opportunity to work in a printing firm, AXXA and Print, as web and graphics designer. This helps me to build my foundation about print production.
37. I am grateful to Mary Huang, who still continues to give me ad hoc digital project.
38. I am grateful to be hired in Informatics Singapore mulitmedia designer. That's where I learned about people skills.
39. I am grateful to Lynette, who nominates me as excellent service award staff in 2005.
40. I am grateful to Yinna Too, who interviewed me and hired as graphics designer in Singapore Electronics. She saw my ability to see the needs of my clients.
41. I am grateful to Geraldin Chay, she is my nicest boss I ever work with.
42. I am grateful to my teachers at RMIT-SIM, they gave me tools and insight to create meaningful works.
43. I am grateful to have the opportunities to visit Melbourne, I saw how the design agency functions, it is really cool. It gives me hope to build my business and become a successful creative agency.
44. I am grateful to work at Saatchi & Saatchi, the talented group of creatives people.
45. I am grateful to Angie, she interviewed me and hired me less than a week.
46. I am grateful to Mosses, he gave me the opportunities and see the talent in me.
47. I am grateful to learn the good habits from the agency and see the importance of each function of the company. Account, Marketing, Sales, Creative, Production. Each function is important for the company to run smoothly.
48. I am grateful to be able to keep in touch SP teachers, Wendy and Elynn. They are humbled, inspiring teachers.
49. I am grateful to attract talented people around me.
Since I started my business 50. I am grateful to Alvin, who is my developer for government projects. He as my first freelance client.
51. I am grateful to Clara Yeo, she gives me the first graphics project.
52. I am grateful to Angie Lai, who provide a conducive working environment.
53. I am grateful to Stephen, who is my web developer for small projects.
54. I am grateful to Stephen who introduce me to BNI.
55. I am grateful to Samuel, who referred businesses to me.
56. I am grateful to Edward, who introduce me to Brian and Meng Choo, they are very kind couple.
57. I am grateful to Andrew, who gives me some of the graphics projects.
58. I am grateful to Benjamin, who gives me graphics and web projects.
59. I am grateful to Sally, she gives me continuous design projects once she builds trust with me.
60. I am grateful to Dennis, he gives me edm projects for his events.
61. I am grateful to Jaffar, he gives me countless of design projects.
62. I am grateful to my clients give me honest feedback so that I can build manage my business better.
63. I am grateful to Winnie, Leroy, Darren, Sally, Sisi, Ziq and Tommy for giving me opportunities to design logos for their companies.
64. I am grateful to design BB Logo, Business Buddy is a business group where we support and build business together. I saw endless of growth and business opportunities come from this group.
65. I am grateful to align my belief into my business model. It is to create a difference in people lives.
66. i am grateful to realise that I need to operate from inside out.
67. I am grateful to align the purpose of RW Design Creations, with how to build this business and artworks that I design.
68. i am grateful to wake up each day to feel blessed that I have this business.
69. i am grateful this business helps me to clear my debts twice and creates wealth for me.
70. I am grateful for the revenue that comes into my business.
71. I am grateful value each dollar.
72. I am grateful I have endless of projects coming in.
73. I am grateful friends are willing to help me.
74. I am grateful I am able to support my business friends in return.
75. I am grateful to realise that my inner world creates my outer world.
76. I am grateful that I am working on my inner world.
77. I am grateful RW Design Creations is more that just a design agency, it is lively, caring and creative agency.
78. I am grateful to people around me, they matter to me.
79. I am grateful people are connected with me better.
80. I am grateful my interpersonal skills improve.
81. I am grateful to learn to express myself better.
82. I am grateful I am able to take up more challenges.
83. I am grateful to value each person who are willing to connect with me.
84. I am grateful to value each person time and effort.
85. I am grateful to value genuine and sincerity from each person.
86. I am grateful to Joewin and Herliana helps me to sell my services to her business friends.
87. I am grateful to Sisi is understanding and sell my services to her business partner.
88. I am grateful to Jeffrey and Angie coached me, Cindy Leong guides me to make better presentation.
89. I am grateful to bb friends like my designs esp. logo designs.
90. I am grateful to be able to create designs in graphics, digital, mobile apps and logo branding for companies.
91. I am grateful to my resources that are given to me.
92. I am grateful to be able to see business opportunities everywhere.
93. I am grateful to network and be connected with like-minded people.
94. I am grateful to get faith and trust from people easily.
95. I am grateful to see my self worth through my business.
96. I am grateful to give people convenience.
97. I am grateful to give people respect.
98. I am grateful to give people warmth and concern.
99. I am grateful to give people joy.
100. I am grateful to continue to grow and expand my business.

100 grateful things, Day 4

Today is fourth day I will share about gratefulness towards Fo Guang Shan and Bright Hill Temple:
From Fo Guang Shan
1. I am grateful to get to know Fo Guan Shan in 2012.
2. I am grateful to be touched by FGS children who expressed gratitude to their parents during Mothers' Day.
3. I am grateful that I attended Fo Guan Shan's short term monastic 7 days retreat at Taiwan, Kaohsiung in July 2012.
4. I am grateful during the monastic retreat, I look within myself.
5. I am grateful I reflected on my own deeds and actions.
6. I am grateful I realised that I didn't treat my parents well and decided to do something about it.
7. I am grateful I come back with a peaceful heart.
8. I am grateful I made new friends during the retreat. One of them is Maria Kathrina Diaz from Philippines. She is an English teacher who currently teaches in Taiwan. She is passionate lady who loves her own life and lives independently.
9. I am grateful I took my 5 precepts after 1 year later.
10. I am grateful I felt joyful and bliss when I took the precepts.
11. I am grateful Master Hsing Yun is my teacher. I read his books and get lots of wisdom. I felt his energy he is very grounded, peaceful and real person.
12. I am grateful Venerable You Deng is my guided teacher. She is very organised and wise person. I feel her kindness, despite she is a strict teacher. I am thankful to learn from her.
13. I am grateful Venerable You Deng has the qualities such as discipline, organise and groundedness, which I need to work on.
14. I am grateful to be given the chance to teach the children.
15. I am grateful to know Jing Jing and Nelson through Fo Guang Shan.
16. I am grateful I am connected to them. It seem like I have known them for many years.
17. I am grateful to picking up life skills from Fo Guang Shan.
18. I am grateful my inter-personnel skills have improved.
19. I am grateful whenever I light up an candle. It represents light of wisdom. May I light myself and other people around me.
20. I am grateful I learn to connect with the children better.
21. I am grateful I learn not to judge people but understand them.
22. I am grateful my heart is slowly opening up.
23. I am grateful things changes for the better.
24. I am grateful I can manage my challenges better.
25. I am grateful I am more receptive towards changes.
26. I am grateful every venerables at Fo Guang Shan, each and everyone of them have something to teach me.
27. I am grateful I can value-add my design services to them.
28. I am grateful Venerable You Deng asked me if I have take care of my own heart and mind.
29. I am grateful Venerable You Deng makes me realised that it is important to use my heart to do things.
30. I am grateful for the food that is provided at Fo Guang Shan.
31. I am grateful each meal at Fo Guang Shan, basement 1 is cooked from the heart of the volunteers.
32. I am grateful the volunteer teachers put in their effort to teach the children.
33. I am grateful I get to know myself better.
34. I am grateful there are many things that I need to learn and I look forward in the lessons.
35. I am grateful the learning environment is conducive.
36. I am grateful I am back on the path.
37. I am grateful I took up volunteer teacher roles from assistant teacher previous year, as a main teacher this year and to be assistant main coordinator next year. 38. I am grateful to progress in my leadership journey. 39. I am grateful to know Karen, she is the main coordinator, she has wealth of knowledge in FGS operation, she gives advice when I needed her and I helped her when she needs me.
40. I am grateful to know May Hua, she is great in teaching the children. She connects with the children very well.
41. I am grateful to know Shena, she is a very kind lady. I hope her health recovers soon.
42. I am grateful to know Meqin, she is very generous, she gives children' presents every lessons.
43. I am grateful to know Meizhen, she is very grounded and kind. She treats the students like her own children.
44. I am grateful to know Zhiyong, despite he is inconsistent with his promises. He is still has his qualities. He is flexible in his teaching.
45. I am grateful to know Lei Ya, she has strong dharma knowledge and integrates the teaching in lessons very well.
46. I am grateful to know Wen Fang, she is the most HIP grandma in teachers group. Thanks for her regular desserts.
47. I am grateful to know LeLeng, she is also a very kind lady.
48. I am grateful to know Kendy, she assists me during the Dharma class.
49. I am grateful to know Carol and Alex, thanks for their commitment at Mee Toh School for the past one year.
50. I am grateful to attend Chade Meng's mediation class with Jing Jing. I practise mediation with the help of the mediation chimes.
51. I am grateful to be part of gardener's of life project with Teacher Xiuyu.
52. I am grateful to learn from Teacher Xiuyu, she is very knowledgeable and resourceful, in terms of handling the children.
53. I am grateful she taught me to see the needs of the children and asked me to look within myself, what can I provide for the children.
54. I am grateful to learn about 5 harmony from Master Venerable Hsing Yun, he shares 1st harmony is within self, 2nd harmony is within family, 3rd harmony is within people around you, 4th harmony is within community and finally 5th harmony is world peace. Harmony is inside out.
55. I am grateful to learn about 5 observation about food. Be grateful towards the food source as it is not easy to obtain, how fortunate we are to receive food, how food is being cooked and served, be grateful towards food as medicine, to consume the food with right mindfulness.
56. I am grateful I feel at home at Fo Guang Shan.
57. I am grateful whenever I write heart sutra calligraphy, my heart feels peaceful.
58. I am grateful to understand impermanence, everything will change, good or bad. There is nothing we can hold on to or grab.
59. I am grateful for this present moment to find time to reflect and cherish things that are worth remembering for.
60. I am grateful to understand non-self. There is no true self as one view is arising and passing away, based on impermanent conditions.
61. I am grateful I am evolving everyday.
62. I am grateful to understand about dissatisfaction. Life is never perfect as too much of wants will lead to greed, aversions and delusions.
63. I am grateful I suffered less as I am learning to let go of undesirable wants and focus on my needs.
64. I am grateful I go with the flow and non-clinging to things that are beyond my control.
65. I am grateful I appreciate people better.
66. i am grateful I could see people good intentions easily.
67. I am grateful Nelson sometimes shares inspiration quotes to Jing Jing and me.
68. i am grateful Nelson and Xiao Juan helped me financially for a short period of time.
69. i am grateful Venerable You Deng gives me the Dharma when I needed. I recovered my emotions and get back on my feet faster than I thought.
70. I am grateful to find this quote meaningful and helps me a lot esp. during adversity. "When you are successful, be humbled. When you are down, be positive."
71. I am grateful towards life because it can never repeat itself. Life just goes on.
72. I am grateful to build my confidence through daily effort.
73. I am grateful to realised that people around me support and provide the right conditions and opportunities.
74. I am grateful to let go habits that do not serve me and cultivate new effective habits.
75. I am grateful to let go of my worries and start taking actions which serve me well.
76. I am grateful to get myself prepare for the next challenges.
77. I am grateful to recognize myself that I am good enough.
78. I am grateful to make peace with myself.
79. I am grateful to develop compassionate towards animals. Thanks to Fo Guang Shan's Cat, Ji Xiang.
80. I am grateful I pray almost everyday for the well being of all sentient beings.
81. I am grateful I repent when I made a mistake and be more mindful not to do it again.
82. I am grateful I am more sensitive towards my body.
83. I am grateful my heart is lighter each time I pray sincerely.
84. I am grateful that I am able to apply the Dharma into my life.
85. I am grateful I gain clarity through the Dharma.
86. I am grateful to learn the Dharma and transform myself for a better person.
87. I am grateful understand the pains of life so that I can manage my life better.
88. I am grateful my life is a blissful one.
89. I am grateful learns to cherish my things better and not to be taken for granted.
90. I am grateful to appreciate people who have helped me, people who make me grow and people who gives me encouragements.

From Bright Hill Teachers
91. I am grateful to learn and have basic understanding about Buddhism at the age of 33.
92. I am grateful to learn Heart Sutra from Venerable Chuan Guan. He let me understand that if we can change ourselves 1% better each time, we are moving forward towards enlightenment.
93. I am grateful I learn to be more organise from Venerable Chuan Guan's encouragement as this is one of my goals.
94. I am grateful after understanding and apply the teaching of Dharma, I am more at ease.
95. I am grateful Bright Hill temple has a big spiritual library where I can learn from.
96. I am grateful I learnt more about mediation after having an full day of mediation retreat.
97. I am grateful I am able to calm myself easily.
98. I am grateful I learn to be more mindful when I do things.
99. I am grateful to be inspired by wholesome people around me.
100. I am grateful to learn from these spiritual teachers.

100 grateful things, Day 3

Today is third day, I will share about gratefulness towards my close friends:
For Siew
1. I am grateful to know Siew since primary 2.
2. I am grateful we chat long hours on the phone whenever during school holidays.
3. I am grateful we have different personality and we complement each other.
4. I am grateful she is my play mate since young.
5. I am grateful we know each other for the past 28 years and many more years to come.
6. I am grateful I feel comfortable with her.
7. I am grateful she gives me her insights so that I can see the options better.
8. I am grateful she shares with me her learning and we learn from each other.
9. I am grateful we did many things together.
10. I am grateful we travel to many countries together.
11. I am grateful she told me some of silly jokes, which never fails to make me laugh.
12. I am grateful because once I start laughing at some of her still jokes, I can't stop laughing.
13. I am grateful she is cheerful friend.
14. I am grateful she clears my doubts and uncertainty, shows me light.
15. I am grateful she is dependable.
16. I am grateful we share many great moments together.
17. I am grateful we never missed any of our great life events.
18. I am grateful she is always looking for something new and always keep me entertained hehe :)
19. I am grateful she invites me to her house to spend some quiet moment together. 20. I am grateful we somehow have endless of topics to talk about.
21. I am grateful she cooks well and she taught me how to cook a simple meal at her house.
22. I am grateful she is creative in cooking.
23. I am grateful we did jogging or other exercises whenever we are free.
24. I am grateful we used to do photography sessions together.
25. I am grateful she pulls me through ups and downs.
26. I am grateful her joy affect me to be joyful as well.
27. I am grateful sometimes she is peaceful and grounded.
28. I am grateful most of the time, she is fun loving.
29. I am grateful she encourages me a lot.
30. I am grateful we did shape run 5km for 2 years consecutively.
31. I am grateful we had our birthdays, xmas party all together.
32. I am grateful she is thoughtful, caring in her own ways.
33. I am grateful she is a sister to me.

For Shiyan
34. I am grateful we know each other since Primary 2.
35. I am grateful we support one another.
36. I am grateful she is loyal.
37. I am grateful she is kind.
38. I am grateful she helped me when I had depression.
39. I am grateful she gave me words of encouragement. She said,"If you did nothing wrong, there is no fear." This encouragement gives me strength to carry on.
40. I am grateful she cares, even though she pretends she didn't.
41. I am grateful I feel comfortable and safe whenever I am with her.
42. I am grateful she shares with me her life skills.
43. I am grateful she is wise in her own ways.
44. I am grateful we are bonded although we hardly meet.
45. I am grateful she protects me when I was young.
46. I am grateful I am able to help her when she needs me.
47. I am grateful we still managed keep in contact after so many years.
48. I am grateful we get to meet once a while despite her heavy workload.
49. I am grateful I can be her listening ear when she needs.
50. I am grateful I saw her character transformation when she learns to be wiser.
51. I am grateful she is a good person.
52. I am grateful she is a calmer person.
53. I am grateful she forgives easily.
54. I am grateful she is doing her best for her family needs.
55. I am grateful she manages her money better.
56. I am grateful she trusts her friends unconditionally.
57. I am grateful she immediately finds the best dentist for me when I told her I broke my tooth.
58. I am grateful she let me knows when I do it wrongly, and correct me immediately.
59. I am grateful we poke fun of each other once awhile as we know we will just laugh it off.
60. I am grateful as we grow, we know each other better.
61. I am grateful I feel strength of righteous in her.
62. I am grateful I see goodness in her, despite she can't see it herself.
63. I am grateful she is happier compared in the past.
64. I am grateful she is the kind of friends who remains true no matter what happens.
65. I am grateful she may appear indifferent but she is warm at heart.
66. i am grateful I share with her dharma when she faces challenges in her life.
67. I am grateful to have her as my friend as well as a sister.

For Felicia
68. i am grateful Siew introduce me to her.
69. i am grateful she is kind and warm person.
70. I am grateful we celebrate festive and birthday events together.
71. I am grateful she is lovable when she is with us.
72. I am grateful Siew, Evon and I are her sisters for her wedding.
73. I am grateful we had many laughing moments.
74. I am grateful she can be young at heart when she wants to.
75. I am grateful she and WH invite us to their warm and cosy home.
76. I am grateful we played board games together.
77. I am grateful to know her as a friend.

For Evon
78. I am grateful to know her through Siew as well.
79. I am grateful we celebrate festive and birthday events together.
80. I am grateful we had laughing moments.
81. I am grateful we played board games together.
82. I am grateful to know her better every time we meet.

For Pey Yng
83. I am grateful to know her in this lifetime.
84. I am grateful we are born in the same year, same month, same day.
85. I am grateful our personality is quite similar.
86. I am grateful I am able to share Dharma with her so that she can overcome her adversity in life.
87. I am grateful we are easily connected.
88. I am grateful we meet once awhile to catch up on our daily lives.
89. I am grateful she is also another dependable friend.
90. I am grateful to share my learning on heart sutra with her.
91. I am grateful to introduce Fo Guang Shan to her and she brings her son to waterdrop teahouse whenever school holidays.
92. I am grateful she started to do volunteer work at bright hill temple during her free time. This brings her higher sense of self worth and she is happier.
93. I am grateful to share my joy with her.
94. I am grateful to be open with her.
95. I am grateful she reconnected back to Buddhism.
96. I am grateful she is diligent in her practise and she motivates me to be better.
97. I am grateful she finds joy in baking.
98. I am grateful she is willingly to adapt changes and doing her best for her family.
99. I am grateful we share our learning with each other.
100. I am grateful everything happens for a reason.

100 grateful things, Day 2

Today is second day I will share about gratefulness towards my family:
For Dad
1. I am grateful for my dad efforts in raising me up.
2. I am grateful my dad is a responsible man.
3. I am grateful to my dad for his kind words.
4. I am grateful to my dad for waking me up in the middle of the night, just to pee to prevent me from wetting the bed.
5. I am grateful that my dad carried me when I was very young age.
6. I am grateful that my dad helps me with my homework during primary and secondary days.
7. I am grateful my dad fork out expensive tuition school fees just to ensure I passed my English exams.
8. I am grateful my dad loves our family whole-heartedly.
9. I am grateful my dad helped me with my school work when I didn't know how to do it.
10. I am grateful my dad gives me words of encouragement when I was feeling down.
11. I am grateful my dad cares for me even though he doesn't say it.
12. I am grateful my dad cracks silly jokes to make us laugh.
13. I am grateful my dad is loving.
14. I am grateful my dad provides all my needs.
15. I am grateful we are able to do things together. e.g. Dad and I painted a lamp cover together.
16. I am grateful my dad respect my decisions.
17. I am grateful my dad listens to how I feel.
18. I am grateful my dad did little things for me in his own ways.
19. I am grateful my dad is like a superhero in my heart.
20. I am grateful my dad plays board games with me once.
21. I am grateful my dad is not busy and spend quality time with me.
22. I am grateful my dad concerns about my life.
23. I am grateful my dad helps me whenever I need him.
24. I am grateful my dad is able to live with me till his ripe full age.
25. I am grateful my dad is wise in analysing things.
26. I am grateful my dad gives me his feedback for me to consider.
27. I am grateful my dad is courageous.
28. I am grateful my dad helps people whenever he can.
29. I am grateful my dad console me and gives me light of wisdom.
30. I am grateful I am more open in sharing my thoughts and feelings with him.
31. I am grateful put himself in my shoes to understand me better.
32. I am grateful despite of my mistakes, he still forgives and loves me unconditionally.
33. I am grateful he is my dad.

For Mum
34. I am grateful to my mum for her to take care of me since 9 months of birth.
35. I am grateful I didn't give her much pain when she delivers me.
36. I am grateful she took care of my needs.
37. I am grateful she is a loving mother.
38. I am grateful I learned to appreciate her better now.
39. I am grateful she nags at me as it is for my own good.
40. I am grateful I learned to listen to her advices and decide if it's useful for me.
41. I am grateful for her home cook meals as she cooks from her heart.
42. I am grateful she cares a lot for me.
43. I am grateful she loves me through her actions.
44. I am grateful she prepares breakfast for me almost every single day.
45. I am grateful she hugs me more often than in the past.
46. I am grateful she loves me unconditionally.
47. I am grateful she cooked my favourite food often: fried rice.
48. I am grateful I am able to have meals with her.
49. I am grateful she chats with me when I am home.
50. I am grateful she is more willing to impart her cooking skills to me.
51. I am grateful when I hold her hands crossing the road, just like she holds my hands when I was young.
52. I am grateful she consoled me when I am down.
53. I am grateful she loves me for who I am.
54. I am grateful she accepts my flaws.
55. I am grateful I am able to cheer her up when she's down or she needs attention.
56. I am grateful I learned to be more sensitive towards her needs.
57. I am grateful to receive her light of wisdom.
58. I am grateful I looked after her during the trip at Guangzhou in 2014.
59. I am grateful she looks after me when I had my chicken pox and cooked steam pork platter, sour vegetables and rice as these are the only food I can eat.
60. I am grateful I am able to share my ups and downs with her.
61. I am grateful I have more patience with her nowadays.
62. I am grateful to see more of her virtue than her shortcomings.
63. I am grateful she chose to quit her job just to look after me when I was a baby.
64. I am grateful she prays daily for the wellbeing of our family.
65. I am grateful she is a warm and friendly person, even my friends like to chat with her.
66. I am grateful I am more open to her.
67. I am grateful she is my Mum.

For My Sis
68. I am grateful for my sister is a loving person.
69. I am grateful she sometimes nags at me because she cares for me.
70. I am grateful I am her right hand "chef" when she cooks meal for our family.
71. I am grateful she loves our family a lot.
72. I am grateful she taught me a lot of things.
73. I am grateful she spends quality time with me.
74. I am grateful she hugs me every now and then.
75. I am grateful I can share all my thoughts and feelings with her.
76. I am grateful she is open.
77. I am grateful she taught me how to love myself more.
78. I am grateful she held my hand when I was young.
79. I am grateful we did many things together.
80. I am grateful we did wall climbing, she's as agile as a monkey.
81. I am grateful she shares her learning with me.
82. I am grateful she is a fun person to be with.
83. I am grateful she accepts me for who I am.
84. I am grateful she encourages me a lot.
85. I am grateful she helps me to go through my life challenges.
86. I am grateful she supports me whenever I need her.
87. I am grateful she gives me useful advices.
88. I am grateful we share our things with each other.
89. I am grateful she is creative, enhance our living.
90. I am grateful she treats me good food.
91. I am grateful she is generous.
92. I am grateful she is kind.
93. I am grateful she is wise.
94. I am grateful she enjoys being with nature and we spend outdoor trekking often.
95. I am grateful she is organised and impart some tips with me.
96. I am grateful she lives her life simple and I feel she is grounded.
97. I am grateful she is calm and peaceful most of the time.
98. I am grateful she keeps all handmade things I made for her.
99. I am grateful she is with me for my important milestones.
100. I am grateful she is my sister.