66 Days Transformation Day 2

Daily Task 20 mins exercise - vacuum and mopping floor 1 hour and 15 minutes 5 mins mediation (Day and Night) Achieved 20 mins reading - not yet? must find time 2x of Fruits daily - no fruits today

Events I am grateful about 1) Cindy helps me to craft my business presentation flow. Feeling appreciated. 2) Celebrate Evon's birthday. feeling happy and joyful with my dear friends. especially after a long day of work 3) Had a sumptuous seafood dinner Worth the time with friends I care about.

66 Days Transformation

I watched automatic fearless by Robin Sharma http://www.robinsharma.com/academy/rsss/webinar/automatic-fearlessness-recording/

It is pretty cool. I want to take up this challenge.

Set Objectives: Do one thing that you want to improve. I want to be organised and healthy.

Daily Task
20 mins exercise
5 mins mediation (Day and Night)
20 mins reading
2x of Fruits daily

What really good things happen to me?
I took up Train to Trim after 2 weeks of exercise, 1 lost 0.5kg. Changes: What I did was I take stairs instead of lift. It is a small achievement for me. I will continue to find joy in exercise.

Day 1 Reflection
20 mins exercise - I had a 60 mins workout.
5 mins mediation daily (Day and Night) - Yes, achieved
20 mins reading - None
2x of Fruits daily - Eat dragronfruit, it was very sweet. Share with my whole family and glad that I chose a sweet dragonfruit :)

I felt really glad that I have a wonderful sister. I went up to her and told her how appreciative I am. Surprisingly, she wanted to give me some gift. I turn her down as I don't need her gift, I just want to share with her how I feel.

Spirituality Means Taking Care of Myself

I thanked my sister for sharing this video with me. I love the way the interviewee has shared. I connected with her words. Being spirituality means to take care of myself, to make sure my well-being is healthy. Haven't been really taking good care of myself, to an extent of ignoring myself. Hence, I will start taking care of myself, love myself and even hugging myself haha:D

I enjoyed mediating, being in the park, be with the nature, more importantly going with the flow. I feel more comfortable under my own skin.

Perhaps when I had gone through the worst part of my life, I realized that I appreciate my life even better. I feel much more contented and peaceful. Maybe it is what life wants to teach me, not to take things for granted, to be appreciative and be thankful for what I have.

伤痛与疗伤

上个礼拜天，我和美华，小娟上了创意与疗心。过程好玩也是挺享受的，人也变的轻松。

星期二因为地有个洞一不小心，就跌倒。当我起来的时候是很痛，裤子破了，膝盖还流血呢！很奇怪的是我一点都不生气，没怪任何人包括我自己。平时的我一定怪自己怎么没看路。这次却没有，反而看自己伤的严不严重。我开始懂得怎么关心自己了。

还记得Asiaworks吗？今天有一位人曾经和我上同样的课程。他不小心发我短讯，我就和他小聊了一会儿。虽然我已经不记得他了，但他仍然记得我。我今天才发现原来我已经不会让Asiaworks的伤痛绑住我了。我已经原谅他们所对我做的事情。原来原谅别人也是等于自己也愿意走出那一段不愉快的时光。过去的就让它过去。

3年了，我不愿再浪费我宝贵的时间来留住这无畏的伤痛。就好像膝盖流血，现在伤已经愈合了，也不痛了。还需要生什么气呢？当下的我已经放下了，这才是重点！

能不能放下没有人比自己更清楚。也为自己高兴，因为我终于让自己可以活得轻松自在了。开心:) 我想这个艺术疗程或多或少对我有些疗效。感恩！

Art Therapy

Today I attended art therapy given by Awareness Place who invited 1 professor and his wife to guide us using Art Therapy. It is fun and engaging. I came to learn a lot of myself.

Such as I can observe how my emotion change from an anxiety emotion to a joyful one. Not only that I can literally see myself and how am I feeling right now. I also understand what is more important to me - my well-being, follow by relations and environment. It is important to me because now know that I have to prioritize my life at this point.

Another thing I learnt is that the gift to complete someone's success is a joyful experience. I never thought of this in the past, until today I tried to complete someone's weakness, hence, I realized that we always see the goodness in everyone and too critical about ourselves.

The 3rd thing I learnt is to breakdown the issues in small chunks. It is better to manage and resolve.

There is always hope. To be a candle and bring brightness to other people. Time to sleep and thank you Universe for this wonderful experience. It has been a long time, since I being so open about myself with other people. I guess, when I am ready, an appropriate teacher will appear. It doesn't matter whether it is Katherine or Professor Yun, as long as, they guide me to find the answers that I needed to know, I believe it is for a good cause.

The best teacher is still ourselves because no one is able to understand as clearly as ourselves.

Ups and Downs

Life is a miracle. It provides hope and opportunities everyday. Today is special day for me as it is not only my mum's birthday, the birth of bodhisattvas and it is a Good Friday.

I went to the bank to update my bank book. The amount go back to 2 years ago where I had my last salaried pay during that time, Aug 2012. Without any much finance literacy, on 17 Nov 2012, I was shocked to realize that in my bank account I was left with $13.40. How pathetic I was!

I didn't realize money is important until I saw $13.40! Perhaps $13.40 can only provide me the most 4 meals. How can I survive? How to clear my debts? How can I move on from here? Thinking to myself, I need a job! However, I do not want to work for people. (Still determine about it! Even I had only $13.40 in my bank account)

I needed a workable solution immediately.

I started to tell people I am doing designing in graphics and website designing. Thankfully through word of mouth, my first project came in that I managed to close at a couple of hundreds. At least, that could cover my daily expenses for the time being. I started to think that I would want to expand my workload, I started to be more aggressive, telling my friends that I am looking for projects, if there are any design "lobang", just let me know! I can't be selective, I just take one project after another.

A friend of mine, introduce me to BNI, Business Networking International. A morning networking place where all business owners come together to help each other, through word of mouth to get qualified referrals. I am very thankful to get some qualified leads there and make some money. Moreover, Alvin who is my old business contact, he has been helping me a lot to clinch bigger and well established government agencies, which makes my income much more stable and increase my profit.

Now, my mindset has shifted. Money is an energy. When I feel I deserve the money, it will come to me naturally. Last time, I don't think money is important. Hence, my money was limited. Now, I realise that with money, I can do even more good deeds and contribute even more to the society. It feels wonderful to have money as I can see the benefits of having money for the right purpose and right intention. I genuinely hope that I am able to put my money into good use and benefit more people. This is my ultimate goal.

In order to keep my business going and stable, I have registered my company. I could see the vision in 10 years time to have a company at one of the shophouses, with loving colleagues who can work hand in hand with me to build the business together.

Looking where I am at, seeing the reality clearly and still being hopeful at that time, I am able to grow so much as make myself a stronger and more reliable person. It is like a transformation for me. Now, my focus currently would be to see my business at a greater heights and bring in more businesses to my design agency. I am really excited and I feel charged up because I finally I see that I can grow to be wiser and more capable when I believe in myself and do my best in everything that I do. I have no regrets and I felt appreciative towards myself, my family and my friends who genuinely wish to see me succeed and be who I am.

The Downs make me understand that there are learnings I need to know so that I can be back on track again. The Ups make me understand that the things which I have done right and done well. Thank you the Universe, thank you Buddha, thank you lots of bodhisattvas and thank you people!

《天冷就回来》If There're Seasons...

Watched If There're Seasons... last night. Siew and I enjoyed musical thoroughly.

The performance is great. I like the part where the cast mentioned, "Everybody wants to be somebody but one day when he becomes somebody, he realized that nobody is a blessing as well." I think contentment what it is all about. To be who we are and accept ourselves completely.

Though I do feel that there are room for performance such as putting the "Gay" contents, which I felt a bit too off for a childhood and dreams settings. Moreover, there is no education value in such segments.

Overall, it is still worth the tickets, sitting at the 1st row and time to sat there for almost 3 hours! and we get to meet Liang Wen Fu in person! It is indeed a Pleasant Surprise!

Re-affirmation

I like today's quote of mine: I will never know the answer until I do it.

常问自己我可以吗? 现在不问了, 做了就有答案。

I always ask myself,"Can I do it?" I never have any answers until I start to take actions and work towards my goals. Surprisingly, most of the outcome are better than what I expected. Hence, if we never try anything new, we never learn anything new.

Compare to my previous self, I am more determine and more preserver. It is a good sign, at least I give myself more opportunities to learn. I will find my way to success :)

Hindu Wedding

Recently, I met Chenlee at "How to make Ideas into Profits" workshop. We built rapport very soon and as we chat, she told me that she will be having her wedding soon. I was happy for her. I was very curious about her wedding as she and her hubby will be going through a Hindu Wedding. I asked if I can attend her wedding. With a big heart, she said yes and sent me a well designed Indian wedding invitation card.

It is quite an interesting experience. Having a Hindu wedding at the temple is similar as having a Christian wedding in the Church. They had rituals for the bridegroom, followed by, bride, bride and bridegroom parents and finally back to the bride and bridegroom. The whole procedure is traditional and formal. However, there are still interesting parts which I quite enjoy myself.

What I like best is the throwing of Indian Rice at the wedding couple as they tied the knots. According to Indians, they believe that throwing the Indian Rice at the couple is symbolize showers of blessings. It will be better if the rice can land on the couple heads. Even myself feel happy and blessed after throwing the rice at the couple.

The interesting game that they play is the bride and bridegroom will try to put the flower ring around each other. The first person who did it first, will have the say in future in their marriage. This is pretty interesting segment of the wedding.

After the wedding ritual, the couple sat at the sofa to wait for family and friends to come forward to take photos with them. As I don't know the procedures, I quickly went up to the stage to have the first photo-taking.

Oh yar, forgot to mention about the great Indian vegetarian meal I had at the temple and I get to know an American lady, also known as Rachel :D

Really to thanks Chenlee and Vinresh for giving me this opportunity to attend my first Hindu wedding :D May they be filled with joy and blessing for their marriage.

Dining in the Dark

Katie and I together with 18 new friends attended Dining in the Dark at SAVH. Really an interesting experience of having a meal in the dark. Thanks Maggie for organizing the Dining in the Dark the second time.

I felt humbled to be served by a blind, Ziruth. He lost his retina when he was at the young age. He shared with us what are the do and don't to help the blind. Tina who is a event guide, was sharing that some of the people who wanted to help the blind but they didn't know how. Ended up, brings more confusion to the blind. Hence, we need to give clear instructions to the blind so that they know what to look out for.

In the dark, he is no different from any people. In fact, we are amazed on how he uses his skillful means to serve 20 of us. Some of us felt panic and even stressed when we can't see anything. To make the dining more fun, many of the guys crack jokes to break the awkward silence. We had lots of laughter that even the cook in the kitchen can hear our laughters. They are happy that we enjoyed the meal very much.

After the meal, I felt the handicap are much tougher that I thought them to be and of course, I appreciate my eyes better. It gives me a better understanding about myself, I don't afraid to be in the dark, in fact, I feel calm and peaceful. Perhaps I know that I will be in a total darkness situation before entering the room. Hence, I can manage my emotions better. My other senses become sharper when my sight is not in use and I know how to help the blind better in future.

Tidy up my blog

Haven't been really housekeeping my blog for some time, clears away broken links and update things that I like to do currently. 

It makes me realize I could be the only person reading my blog, probably with Siew who may comes in to read once awhile. I do like most of things that I wrote because it serves me as a guide and in a way I make this blog as a self reflection learning spot. Although some thoughts in the past, I may not agreed now. Due to my mindset has shifted and being more open to my learnings.

I do have a friend, Geraldin, whose blog is still active. however I find that her blog is still full of complaints. She makes me ponder, is it right to use blog as an anger outlet?

From what I have learnt about law of attraction, the more you believe and say, the more incidents you will receive.  Hence, her outlet could be more destructive than any people could have done or say to her. It is self believing thoughts.

I am not here to judge her neither I have the right to comment about what she wrote. What I feel is if a person is unable to breakthrough her own negative thoughts or self destructive belief, the person may feel suffering and gives unwelcoming attitude to other people. This may sabotaged his/her life because everything he sees or says are against his wish and leads to more and more unhappiness to his life.

I am not saying I have a perfect life. But I am able to make do with what I have and make the best out of it. Hence, the chances of me feeling suffered is lower. Life, itself is indeed unsatisfactory, however looking at brighter side of life makes us stronger and positive to make a difference in our own life and other people life. 

Junkie Food Day

Yes, I know it doesn't sound right: Having a day as Junkie Food Day. Sometimes over controlling can be backfired. I haven't been eating mee rebus, fried chicken wing and white chocolate for the longest time. Perhaps mee rebus is once a month while fried chicken wing and white chocolate can be counted as years.

Looks like I am trying hard to justify, perhaps I should pamper myself like once every 3 months to have a Junkie Food Day, partly to reduce craving and also post gratification so that I don't feel guilty of eating junkie food as and when I want to eat. 

Having a healthy lifestyle is my life mission. Hence, the selection of food is important. 

Honestly, my body actually don't fancy fried chicken wing and white chocolate anymore. Perhaps partly due to I didn't feed my body with fried food for quite some time. That's why even my body rejects oily food. This is a good sign because my body knows and able to detect unhealthy food and gives me warning that I no longer able to eat food that is harmful to my body.

Since every 3 month is Junkie Food Day, the 4 Aug will be next Junkie Food Day. 

I read somewhere that vegetables and fruits take 1 day to digest whereas meat take 3 days to be fully digest. Think, I should really cut down on meat and take in more fruits and vegetables which my body likes them better.

New Insights about Journaling

Today I met Sian, who asked me to teach her wordpress. I gladly taught her and she is happy to learn from me. As I chat with her, I find that both of us have a lot of things in common. Both of us like nature and both of us have interest in personal self development.

After chatting with her, we wanted to have a journaling workshop together. She can share the joy and tips of journaling, while I can teach the students to make journaling book. I think it is a good partnership to make such workshop.

It is worth considering to collaborate with her. Afterall, learning to share and give is an act of goodness. Hoping to explore more with her.

I just shared with her that "Once a person can master himself, he can master anything." Hope that I am able to be more discipline and tidy, so that I will have more clarity. Simplicity is Wisdom.

If time is perceived as money...

If time is perceived as money, will we still look at things in the same way?

Recently, Chenlee showed me a video of a famous designer who perceive every sec as money. If everyday you are given $86,400 in your bank account and the money will wipe out every single day, how would you spend the money purposefully without wasting every single cent?

It sets me thinking that I would want to use my time purposefully. Time is indeed precious. I would rather spend time doing things that I enjoy, things that I love to do, things that I am good at. I am blessed to be able to do things that I enjoy: Designing work, things that I love to do: Arts and things that I am good at: Craft work

I will continue to hone my skills and build a name for myself. This is what I hope to achieve. I value the projects that are given to me. I will focus and do it well. This is the promise I give to myself.

I just calculate if I live up to 80 years old, with my current age, I have only left 44 years, minus Sleeping time (14 years) & Ad hoc things, Travel (14 years). I only left with 16 years or even lesser time to do things that I want to achieve. Hence, this 16 years are crucial and precious to me. I need to use the time wisely and effectively.

The Joy of Journalising

It has been a long while since I last post. Today, I met a color therapist. She shares about colors give us different emotions and feelings. I spoke to her how much I have grown through journalising by day to day life and have grown from strength to strength. Little did I know that I have stop writing since Nov 2013. Not that I don't have anything to write. It just that my habit of writing has stopped somehow. Perhaps I spent more time writing in Facebook, sharing the happenings with my friends.

I feel that I should continue journalising, mainly because it shapes my thoughts and feelings. It allows me to assemble my thoughts and feelings through writing. A good platform to write again, even though, it maybe just two person reading. But it is okay. Writing has become part of my journey. I still enjoy writing and just my ideas flow. Sometimes when I recall the past incidents happened to me and I reflect. Big things become small things and small things are actually big things. It is all about my own thoughts and perceptions on how to look at the way it is.

Alarm clock used to be my biggest enemy. I dislike the sound of the ringing. When it rang, it just force me to get up and I dislike the forcing feeling. But today, I see the alarm clock in a different light. It seems to tell me that the time is clicking away seconds by seconds and to cherish all my time that I have in this world. Who knows what will happens to me when I pass on? I have no answer right now but i will know when my time is up. More importantly, is to cherish my time at this very present moment.

My biggest hope is to make a difference in people lives. In order to do that, I need to have self love for myself. In order to love others, I need to love myself, experience the love radiates from myself before I have the ability to love others. A good statement is, when you can give because you have it. I thank myself for allowing myself to learn and grow. I understand growing is not easy, but I am embracing and I really hope that I can make a difference, not only to myself but to other people.

On Wed, I listened to the radio DJ asked, "Do you think being alone is loneliness?" I disagree to this question. As we all can be alone but still feel the sense of joy. Now I have come to a point that when I am with family and friends, I am at ease and even when I am with myself I am at ease and happy. I don't need another person to make myself happy because I can generate happiness within myself.

The truth is spending quiet moment with myself at this moment. To me, this is a blessing. Thank the universe for the quiet moment.

Dharma Camp 2013 Reflection

It was fun and joyous to attend the Dharma Camp which focus on team building. Teacher Xiao Wei is really experienced and amazing. Grateful to learn from him and thank you!

I learned about leadership and teamwork. No one gets to leave behind and everyone learns as we progress together :)

Outlook of life
1. Positive Thinking ie I can do it! 正面思考:我能做到!
2. Strengthen our qualities 加强素质
3. Happy to serve 乐意服务
4. Be responsible for our own outlook of life. 为自己的人生观负责

SOSD Flag Day 2013

A friend asked me if I want to volunteer in Save Our Street Dogs (SOSD) Flag Day. This flag day is to help these stray dogs to be treated and finding suitable homes for them. Without a second thought and I said Yes! During the event, the business owners (husband and wife), who started this flag raising funds, he shared with us there are about 6,000 street dogs left uncare. If anyone reports it, they will be put to sleep. I felt that these couple did a great thing to save these stray dogs. :)

After a week, received the SOSD Flag Day survey on how was the experience. I share mine with them. Many memorable experience. Many dog lovers come forward to give their contributions and they support this campaign. 3 special incidents I would like to share:

1) A cleaner auntie just come forward to give a few coins.

2) A mum who doesn't want to donate but yet her teenager daughter and finally managed to convince her mum to give a dollar to support this campaign.

3) An art gallery business owner asked her daughter to donate and telling her that it is part of human duty to give and support the world. I felt it was a wonderful teaching that she impart to her. young daughter.

What I learnt was greatness comes within whether we are rich or poor, healthy or unhealthy, as long as we have a heart to give unconditionally. It is a meritorious act.

Inspiration from an elderly

As I was reading in the train, a lady knocked on to me with her haversack. When I looked up, a 72 years old elderly smiling at me. She looked really healthy and strong. She starts chatting with me and shares that she has been trekking since young and some of her trekking experiences.

When she wanted to carry her 15kg haversack, I asked her, "Can you manage?" "Young lady, this is nothing compared to my usual trekking haversack."

It is my first time meeting such a lively, energetic elderly, who is so passionate about her life. She's really an inspiration to all.

Money or No Money

Yesterday I was given a topic to speak for a minute.

Money or No Money.

I said,"In life, whether we have money or no money is not important. Most importantly, is our outlook of life. It is our own wisdom, who can accumulate our own wealth.

When people have money if he doesn't have wisdom, he will just squander his money away. When a person has no money, he will find his own means to accumulate his money.

In our society, it is impossible to live without money, However, when we have money, always remember to continue back to the society to help the less unfortunate people. So with that, our outlook of life is important and use our each and every dollar wisely."

Add-on thoughts on 23 Sep
Money, itself is neutral. How we earn it, use it and benefit others for a good cause and it's important to know why we need the money for.

Human Nature

2500+ of Spam messages in my blog! Although Blogger has done a good job in detecting the Spams but still have 100+ Spams got published in my blog. Thanks for telling me, my dear friend.

I started to reflect about why is it when we started something to enthusiastic and as days go by we no longer so enthusiastic and worse, we forgotten about it! My dear friend told me that it is our human nature. Is it true that it is because of human nature? Ever since I started learning about the Dharma, I realised that we have 5 aggregates: Thoughts, Feelings, Perceptions, Volition and Conscious. Each aggregates are dependent on one another. We are conditioned according to our surrounding.

Perhaps that is why things do not last. Remembered, our favorite toy or doll that we used to hold on dearly during our childhood days, we no longer touched it. That is because one of our aggregates have changed that caused us to detached ourselves from the past. Happiness is in the present moment. We need to use our heart to feel it.

Remembered, I was utterly upset over my own romance relationships. And now, look at me? I have healed myself from these pains and agony. Only when we allow ourselves to learn and grow. Be wise and free from these sufferings. We are after all humans, but nevertheless, use these situations as lessons to be learned and cultivate our own happiness and wisdom.

"When the mind is free from suffering, happiness is attained." - The Buddha

May we all free from sufferings.

P/S: I will still continue to write as writing a post in my blog is still a joy to me. Sometimes, I don't really have the mood or time to write. I will still be writing but depends on conditions haha :D