Day 151: Jason and Tessa Wedding

It was Jason and Tessa solemnisation in London.

In the morning, they went for outdoor wedding shoot and a DIY pinic lunch.
Tessa is very awesome, Tessa and Jason prepared everything on their own. The flowers, cakes, pastries and other food.

I felt happy for both of them. Felicia, Evon and I send our well wishes to them. May both of them 恩恩爱爱, 白头偕老.

Day 150: NUS Sparks Newsletter + NUS Historical Report, Carefree Day 3

I have completed my first issue of NUS Sparks Newsletter in 2021.
It is a new collaboration with Katherine. Fortunately, I worked well with her.
Hopefully, more lovely experiences continue to spark between us.
3 more to go... yah!

Although today is my off day. Being the responsible me, I choose to work today. I worked because I want to help Verity to clear the historical report. Unfortunately, there were some hipcups in one of the pages. I was quite surprised too. Hopefully, the file can be replaced. Hipcups does happens at times. I apologised to Verity already.

Look forward for the better outcomes. All is Well！

Day 149: Learning Journey Planning

I realised that planning is not as simple as I thought it to be.
There are so many things to consider.
1. The participants
2. The program
3. The Venue
4. The Food
5. The Timing
6. The Activities
7. The resources to order
8. The use of space
9. The route

The entire experiences for the students, parents and teachers.

The learning experience for me is to learn how to place the meditation mat. Learn how big is the main shrine and the mat size. Thanks Zhen Zhen for going down to the temple to help me to do the measurement. That saves me a lot of time and effort. If not, if I do on my own, it will be so challenging and I will feel frustrated and upset. I don't have to feel this way anymore.

I am grateful that Manice and Zhen Zhen are helping me, if not I won't be able to complete it by my own.

Day 148: Best Possible Life

What can I imagine my best possible life?
For Health
I want to experience life. I am healthy and I am free from physical and mental suffering.

For Work
I work with love and trust. I work with trustworthy clients who pay me well and they recognise and appreciate my work.

For Personal Development
I attract good, experienced coaches who believes in me and trust that I can achieve whatever I want in my life.
I am able to guide people, who wants to grow and commited in their own life.
I am able to be of service to other people, that they can transform their own life and businesses.

For Relationships
I have a very close relationship with myself. I trust and love myself wholeheartedly, unconditionally. I build healthy commmunication and relationships with my family, friends, spouse-to-be. We have healthy boundary with love, respect and support. I build healthy commmunication and relationships with my working partners, with love, respect and support.

For Wealth
I feel rich, well and happy.
I attract wealth abundantly.
My good efforts to serve others will be rewarded.
I can retire comfortably. I own a landed property, where I have my own space by myself. I can travel easily.
I am open to receiving the blessings of this abundant universe.
Everything good is coming to me easily and effortlessly.

Day 147: Abundance Now

I just finished reading "Man's Search for Meaning" by Viktor E. Frankl in a month time.
Here comes the "Abundance Now" by Lisa Nichols, it comes in so timely.
I can see more abundance now.
I am thankful for the lessons.

5 Key Performance
The state of being is more important than the state of doing.

1. Breathing - Life
2. Water - 70% of our body is water
3. Exercise - Our body is designed to move around
4. Nutrition - Reduce oil, sugar and carbs
5. Sleep / Rest - Body repairs itself

Performance - Means to me, is giving my best each day. Live with no regrets.
State - Emotions, Mental
Physiology - Physical
Respiration - Breath

Autophagy
Better to eat less than to eat more, so that the new cells can reproduce.

Association and Dissociation

How our mind forms the images of our memories, we can edit the memory so that it doesn’t affect us emotionally anymore.

Homework: Associate myself with more good things
Abundance Now (Reading now)
Lisa Nichols

Day 146: IOPT Study Group - Relationship with Couple

3 Couple Blindspots
1. Communication
Blunt communication (too straightforward)
Evasive communication (tend to avoid commitment or self-revelation)

2. Unappreciative
Self sacrifice
High need for appreciation

3. Critical
Self critical (Everything I do also not good enough)
Pessimistic

Discussions
1. Which blindspots are similar to parents?
My mum is blunt and my dad is evasive.
Sometimes I speak with bluntness without me realising it.
When someone is forceful or aggressive, I become evasive.

My mum always says she and dad contribute a lot in the family.
There is a high need for appreciation. I want people to appreciate me.
I also start to learn how to appreciate others. Even people don't appreciate me, it is fine. I appreciate myself.

2. How well do you really really know yourself?
I am rediscovering myself through different methods of healing.

3. Share one consequences from any of the blindspots?
I used to be self critical, it is much lesser, I have more patience with myself.
I generally is more positive. There is more positive in life than negative experiences.

Day 145: How to break bad habits

How to break bad habits
Jay Shetty

Mind (Monkey Mind)
Guard (Monk Mind) Our Senses, don't give in to temptations

1. Reason - Why am I making changes into my life. I need a deep, strong reason for myself.
2. Research - Find someone who has mastered that area. Convincing that it works. Creating reasoning to support it.
3. Repetition - Make it a piority consistently. Small steps and make it top piority. Create the conditions around it.
4. Responsibility - Accountability with someone or group of people, motivate me and support me.
5. Rewards - Recognise that how far I have come and the difference I have made.

Day 144: Venture Building

I plucked my courage to ask Katherine Chinn about Venture Building. It looks exciting and there is a program structure. It is a full time 3 months programme. I hope my work, volunteer work and my study can work hand in hand again.

Week 1 - 6:
Entprepreneurship Process
Innovation and Value Proposition
Ideation and Team Formation

Week 7-10:
Market Analysis and Validation
Finance, Business Modeling and Pans
IP and Competitive Strategy

Week 11-12:
Investments and Fund raising
Pitching

Preview: 30 Mar 2021 (1 week later)
Duration: 3rd Run, May to Aug 2021.
Hope I get in and learn how to improve my business.

Day 143: Heart Review, Carefree Day 2

On 29 Jan, I had a chest pain, I see my family doctor, he suggested that I go to TTSH for heart checkup.

I followed his advice and I went to A and E. The nurse took my blood 2 times and 2 ECG. Nothing was found.

Just to play safe, the A and E doctor refer me to Heart Specialist, Irene Cheong.

On 9 Mar, I went for Cardiology, Exercise Stress Echocardiography (ESE). The therapists made me ran on the trackmill and wants my heart beat, beat until 190. I couldn't do it. My heart only can beat 160. Fortunately, I don't feel breathless. I saw my physcial heart pumping slowly and gently. I realised my body is a miracle. Thank you for supporting me all these years. I am sorry that I didn't take good care of you. Make you in tremendous stress. I will take care of you now. You deserved a good rest at night.

On 22 Mar, I followed up with Irene. She told me nothing major happened to the heart. Evenlyn says by the time the machine can detect the issues, will be too late to heal. At least now my heart has no major symptoms, all the more I need to take care of my health. There is no excuse.

I really cherish myself more. I am more sensitive to my own needs and wants.

Interesting fun fact: Do you know the brain still can survive when the heart is around? When the heart is gone, the brain is dead.

Day 142: Child's Hurts

I teared. I feel sad when I saw this photo. It's not just a homeless child, without mother. It applies to mothers / fathers who shut off their hearts when they scold their children.

Scolding is not love. You can't scold and love at a same time. Not possible. Anger and Love do not exist in the same space.

Sending lots of love to parents. May we live in a more compassionate world.

Day 141: 4 Hours Mindfulness Meditation

Today I had 4 hours of Mindfulness Meditation with Cindy Luar. We did sitting and walking meditation. I tried to eat mindfully, I felt good. A golden silent retreat with myself.

Sharing an excerpt from from Jon Kabat-Zinn’s Mountain Meditation.

"The mountain just sits, experiencing change in each moment, constantly changing, yet always just being itself. It remains still as the seasons flow into one another and as the weather changes moment by moment and day by day, calmness abiding all change…"

A good reminder for me that conditions change all the time. Do not be too upset what has happened, acknowledge it, aware of my own emotions. I can always choose to respond calmly.

I noticed there is pain in my ankle area, the results of walking too much and pain at my lower back, the results of sitting too much. These are signs of aging. I release the tension at these areas and I really feel a lot better.

In our lives and in our meditation practice, we experience constantly the changing nature of mind and body and of the outer world, we have our own periods of light and darkness, activity and inactivity, our moments of vibrancy and our moments of quietness.

To remind ourselves what it means to live mindfully with resolve and with wakefulness, in true stillness…

#WorkInProgress #MindfulMeditation #SelfCareRetreat

Day 140: Dating with Evelyn and Bingz

Lovely Lunch with Evelyn and Bingz. I am going to sign up Bingz's medium writing. It is lovely to attend friends workshops because I know they will take care of me hahaha 😃 Check out Bingz link. Share your expertise and build authentic engagement with the right readers in 4 weeks. Starting 5 April. Only left 2 slots! Join me if you are interested. Don't say I didn't jio! More details: https://bingzhuang.medium.com/medium-starter-guide-for-solopreneurs-22b6349ca177

Day 139: IOPT Study Group - Relationship with Children

3 Children Blindspots
1. Stress
Stuck in overcoming obstacles, self-sacrifice

2. Critical
Self-critical, blunt

3. Use the same methods
Don’t enjoy challenges, don’t enjoy experimenting

How do you relate with the 3 Children Blindspots?
I feel I have 1, 2 and 3.
I used to feel I was somewhat stuck in overcoming obstacles. It was too much for me. I felt so challenged. I tend to stress a lot.
Now I feel that I can move forward and I have ideas and resources to help and support me. Things can move easily.

My parents were critical with their words. In fact, some of my relatives were like that too. I used to be very self-critical. Everything I do are not good enough. I learnt that blaming has no value and it just make me feel exhausted and depressed. I was quite blunt with my words too.
Now I am more patient with myself and trying to see how can I help myself to reduce the stuckness. I learnt to explain myself to let the other person understand my meaning.

I used to dislike challenges and experimentation. Being an entrepreneur, in order to grow, there will definitely be challenges.
Now I learn to accept challenges as I see challenges to help me to evolve to a better person.

Which blindspots of yours same as your parents?
Self-critical and blunt from mum. She is very blunt with her words.
Use the same methods from dad. He doesn’t like new challenges.

Share one consequence from any of the blindspots.
Use the same methods
I used to dislike challenges and experimentation. Being a designer, in order to grow, there will definitely be changes and experimenting ideas. As the result of wasn’t able change much, it affected my work.
Now I learn to accept feedback as I see these feedbacks are just allows me to learn new things and expand my mind.

"There are 1000 solutions to each problem. There is no need to keep applying the same methods all the time.” - Christine Wong

”There is no right or wrong. It is about effectiveness.” - Hyder Taufik

Day 138: 3 Idiots

Rewatched 3 Idiots (2009) the movie was one of the highest-grossing Indian films to have come out of Bollywood. Starring Aamir Khan, Kareena Kapoor, R Madhavan and Sharman Joshi, it was based on the life of students at an Indian engineering college and is a satire about the social pressures under an Indian education system. Boman Irani played a quirky professor.

It was a very funny and interesting movie about the education system.

There are many insightful learnings.
1. If you can't apply the right knowledge into your life. It is of no use.

2. Even if you don't make it in school, it is perfectly alright. There are many opportunities out there. Keep an open mind and growing.

3. Learning from books is only a start. Do not follow blindly what people have shared. You need to think and reflect how it can apply in real life.

4. Don't marry someone who sees you an object, not a subject.

5. Real answers come from within because we are born unique, how we perceive the world, receiving information is different. Have passion to your learning and you will get amazing results.

6. Parents and the education system may have giving us unmatching expectations, we need to learn how to breakthrough the percieved conditions. Not everything they say is true.

7. Creativity: Always be creative in your answers, work out the things that you do, which helps you become more capable of your own.

8. Don't run behind the success, achieve excellence first, the success will automatically come looking for you. This is what I truly believe in.

9. If it is not okay, it is not the end. Have hope and faith in your life. Enjoy the journey of life. All is well.

Day 137: How to not always be working

After 1 day of carefree day, I felt lighter. I felt good about myself.

I felt a little bit guilty that I had to work a little yesterday. Thinking that my clients, my working partners will be looking for me. In fact, they never did. They are supportive that I took off on Mondays. Probably they knew how hard I worked.

Well, the earth still evolving with or without me, right? Lol 😃

I sang, wrote my journal, reading this book "How to not always be working". This book gives me an insight it's perfectly alright to give myself breaks in between.

I had 8 years never give myself rest day. I worked every single day. Improving myself, find and working with my business partners, finding new clients, doing promotions, networking etc. The beauty of running business is building quality relationship with people. How to build trust and how to get support from various communities. Once they know you are genuine and sincere, people just come back to you over and over again.

It's not about how not to work.

It's about finding the deep balance within ourselves.

It's about the choices we make each day.

It's about living, not just doing things blindly.

It's about building quality relationships with ourselves and other people.

It's about loving your work so much that you feel it's OK to take a break for awhile, without having to feel guilty because you know you have given your best each day.

I re-imagine what can I do now is to make myself be more at ease, peaceful and fulfilled.

#WorkInProgress #BeingPresent #BeingHereAndNow

Day 136: Step out of lifelessness, Step into Greatness, Carefree Day 1

Today is the day, I say Yes to myself. Starting today, every Monday is my Carefree (Rest) day. A day I connect and give time to myself. I am feeling empowered. I am able to live the life I always wanted, to have the space and resources that I need.

I appreciate myself from the bottom of my heart and I love myself. May I continue to bless with the lovely and meaningful moments that I imagined by having more joy and fun in my life. I am grateful to be in the state of Being, instead of Doing. I choose to be myself, be the way I truly am.

There is a super good reason why a rest day is necessary. A time to recharge your mind, body and spirit. You will feel fuller and complete. When you are burnout, you can perform what you can in a long run. When you had a good rest, you can easily move forward, to contribute, to serve whatever you want. I would encourage people who are workaholic like me, to start finding a rest day for yourself.

#LifeDeclaration #HealthyWants #Recharged #WorkInProgress

Day 135: Elite Speakers Incubator

Feeling grateful to attend 5 sessions of speakers training. They are charismatic in their own delivery.

How to set winner's mindset

How to craft our speech, choices of words

How to improve vocal variety, body language, own self expression

How to engage the audience

Addressing the speakers' challenges and how to overcome them
I took part in area contest, although I was not placed but I gained experience and I managed to get my voice heard!

I participated all 5 trainings, I gained lots of insights and ideas how to craft meaningful and impactful speeches and I need work on my delivery. This is just the beginning. Never be afraid to ask!

Thanks Kin, Terence, Wekie, James and Eric for your time and valuable content. Thanks Ching Kang joined me in this workshop. I made a new friend Jen Chen, it is good to know I am not alone. 🙂

#WorkInProgress #EliteSpeakers #SmallWins Today Eric mentioned the power of visualisation. I believe it works what we visualise can manifest in our real life.

Day 134: Uniqueness in Us

Everyone of us is unique in our ways.

My friends saw my pose and decided to do their own wonder woman pose themselves.

Today we explore old bukit timah railway and bukit timah hill's catchment path. Every month is a new adventure for us.

#FunExercise #EmpoweringOurselves

Day 133: Power is within me

My first Wonder Woman pose! I feel great after doing it.

I am feeling confident and joyful. Thank you Evelyn for asking me try out this posture.

Do not let others to put you down, label you, be little you. They don't run your life. Take back your power today.

All the women out there, You are beautiful in your own ways.

#WorkInProgress #EmpoweringMyself

Whenever I see this image, I remembered how I started my wellness journey, exactly 9 years ago. Lots of amazing experiences. Self love, self awareness and self discovery. Interestingly, I attract people who also like me, who want to regain back their wellness.

Day 132: Conflicts internally and IOPT Study Group - Debts

There are conflicts in my parts. It is possible to work together by understanding both sides of the story.

Standard get to complete what she wants to fulfil.
Carefree get to choose what she wants to do.
It is a lovely arrangement.

The science behind it is ID, Ego and Superego

3 Debts Blindspots
1. Feeling Stuck
Unable to move forward
Unresourceful

2. Taking high risks
Impulse
Want to feel "Good"

3. Self-Sacrifice
Cannot say No
Want to save others

Debts Discussion
How do you relate withe the 3 Blindspots?
I feel I have 1, 2 and 3.
I used to feel I am unable to move forward and not resourceful. I don't feel supported. Feeling struggling in the past.
Now I feel that I can move forward and I have ideas and resources to help and support me.

What do you over spend on?
Overspend on clothes (to make me look good and feel good) and facial (Need me time, rest time and contact "feels love", pampering myself). Always signup packages one after another. Now I watch my finance, I don't need so much clothes and I have me time and carefree time.

Is what you overspent on what you really want?
Yes, but I found better ways to self love and self care myself through having for intimate conversation with myself, IOPT and tapping.
Money is already here. There is abundance.

Day 131: Do not Label

Met up with May and Melisa for lunch today.
It is liberating to have conversation with both of them.
Trauma is real.

Melisa shared how a baby can be traumatised since womb time.
The baby is healing herself through chiropratic.
Gentle shifting her body, playing with her to get connection.

"Melisa, you look strong!"
"Well, I wasn't strong in the past, I trained myself up and many years of practice, I became stronger."

I wasn't creative in the past because I was traumatised at the age of 3.
Creativity seems to be so challenging for me.
After I did lots of healing work, things start to shift.
My clients start to recognise that I am a creative person.
My hard work of healing did pay off.
I am able to work faster. I thought I wasn't able to complete my work.
It turns out to be I finished 1 day faster because I learnt a more effective way to put the content of tables into indesign.
As I become more and more open, I learn something new easily.
I go and find out what other possibility I can work more effectively and productively.

Of course, when inborn child is creative, he can pick up things faster，
I took a lot more time, but it is okay. More importantly, It is something I am willing to do.
I trust that I am in the right place, right time and right space.
Do not let others to label you. Not even your parents.
They don't live your life.
Everyone is unique and special.
We are beautiful in our own ways.

Day 130: Money Mindset Learnings

Money Mindset Learnings
1. Last time I associates money = pain, now I can see the benefits of money.

2. 1st March, I consodilate my "small" money together. Wow, I got $1025. Money is already here. Never underestimate the power of small. I appreciate my money now.

3. I like the sound of my money bank. "Ka-ching, Ka-ching" I feel great when I dropped my $1 into it. It symbolises that I am accumulating my wealth. Even happy money I accumulated $200 over 4 months.

4. I truly appreciate small money habits now. They helped me to see what is available and I know money is coming in continuously.

5. My business is formed 3 March 2013. 333 Means Mastery.

6. I realised the more I talk about money issues and relationship with money, the lesser fear I feel about money.

7. Money avoidance: I used to advoid talking abot money or even look at money. It is like there is "nothing" to talk about. So little money, money is in debts etc. Now I reflected, there is a lot of wisdom in managing money. I am no longer feeling helplessness.

8. I gained strength as I can see the clarity about money.

9. I am able to see the money patterns, what sad money story that I have been telling myself that I can't have the money. All these are not the real truth.

10. New money affirmation:
I have money.
I deserve money.
Money flows to me easily.
I can take care of my money.

11. I am open for new money opportunities and celebrate small wins.

12. Emotionally, I feel I have enough. I am enough.

13. Since I can't "Divorce" with money, I start to establish a healthy and committed relationship with money.

14. I learned about Ennagram with Type 1, wing 2. I am perfectionist and I like to improve things, I like to build systems, frameworks that help me grow my business. Integrity is important to me. As I have a helper in nature, I like to help people to become better. This piece of information is important to me because it helps me to understand who I really am.

15. I really can see my internal state has changed. Last time I keep attending courses but no actions, hence no results. After clearing the mental blocks, I understand what exactly is stopping me from taking actions. Things shift very fast. If not I won't be able to complete the exercise so fast if my internal shifts didn't happen. Now I can do things pretty fast when I am focused. It is matter I want to do it or not. Last time I want to do also can't deliver. That is a huge difference.

Recording
1. Introduce yourself in 1 - 2 sentences.
2. What was it like before?
3. What were the exact breakthroughs in terms of financial?
4. What have I learn?
5. What was it like after? What changed for you?
6. Do you recommend taking this course on mastering your relationship with Money with Evelyn?

Day 129: I am grateful every single day!

Hui Ming FGS Admin: 时时记得六祖慧能说：迷时师度，悟时自度。让我们一起加油吧！

It's true, when we are lost, we need spiritual teachers to guide us. When we are spiritually awaken, we can help ourselves.

Now I wrote journal almost every day. I am more focus and aware what I am experiencing and I am able to cope my life better.

The realisation makes me wiser and my mind became more alert and clear.

On my vision board, I wrote Clarity, Joy and Growth. That makes sense to me. 

Clarity is I am aware of what is going on in my life. Journaling helps me to gain the clarity. Real improvement begin with acceptance. 

Joy is I am doing more of what I want. Like volunteering at fgs, connect with clients who want to work with me. Building strong connections with myself and others. Celebrate when I make improvements. 

Growth is I make changes in my life. Things that no longer work, I will let go. Things that I need to learn, I will spend time understand the subject. 

I am grateful every single day!

Day 128: The Power of Consistency

The biggest takeaway in my learning is Consistency.
The ability to replicate a process or activity with the same level of quality over and over again.
In order to better, I need to trial and error to hone my skills that requires time, effort, commitment.

I am glad that Hyder asked me to start the habit apps.
Because I want to see how committed I am.
I was very consistent in the beginning but as days go by, I do not fill up that app every day currently. That is inconsistent.
I am out of touch. Out of sight is out of mind.

It is just like brushing teeth, you don't brush your teeth every day, your teeth will go bad.
If you brush one day, there is no impact. If you brush your teeth consistently every day, the teeth is healthy.
- Simon Sinek

Overall well being - Healhy Food, Exercise, Rest
When I eat healthy food 1 day there is no impact. When I eat healthy food consistently for 3 months to few years, my health will definately becomes better. From 10k antioxidant to 45k antioxidant. I need to invest nutritious food into my body. At least once a day.

Manage my finances - Money Dates weekly
When I look at my finance 1 year, there is no impact.
When I look at my finance, my relationship with money, my finance will definately becomes better.

When I save my money for happy days, I don't have to worry about money anymore. I have abundance. I feel good when my $1 drops into my savings bottle. I can see it grows. Visually and audible that makes an impact.

The question is what is bothering me right now, address the issue before it gets snowballed. Small issues are easier to handle than the big ones.

It is like Scrum framework that encourages me to learn through experiences, self-organize while working on a problem, and reflect on my wins and learnings to continuously improve.
What is it?
how it works?
Why is it awesome?

Day 127: Knowing myself better

This is what I learnt today...
Meditation
Today is my 5th Meditation Class, before Cindy ends her lesson, she shared about if a pinch of salt was put into a bowl of water. it will be salty but if this pinch of salt is put into sea. It doesn't have much impact.

She is telling us instead of putting focus on the salt (problem/suffering), focus on ourselves, expanding our capability and finding solutions for ourselves.

Thanks Meiyan for encouraging me and tell me what are the ways I can improve on my meditation session.

Tapping
Happened to discuss project with Verity. She told me that Phoebe was on materity leave that is why she asked me to help her. I am grateful that Verity gave me the opportunity to help her in this design project.

Before that I was negative, I thought I was going to lose this project.
The client didn't trust me and she prefers other designer etc... all running in my head.
Actually these words are not true. I realised that I anyhow put words into my mind.
I need to trust myself more and trust that all is well.

As I shared with Evelyn that I almost thought I lost this project. Thanks for Evelyn helped me to tap and redirect the energy to a more positive outcome. It makes me realise tapping does work, when I believe and address my own issues clearly. Another ah-ha moment is that she asked me as I am Type 1, how can I tap on my own energy to help myself. I could plan and organised things, I can convey the message that I can declutter and organised websites in meaningful and purposeful way.

I shouldn't struggle to be who I am not. I need to tap on my own strength so that I can be more productive and efficient. Now I know I am type 1, it is a lot clearer. I really like to do more planning work haha :D I like structure. I like to breakdown things. That is why my maths is very good hahaha:D That is why my graphic work is very clean and neat :D Those messy design I can't do. There are clients who love my work. Verity is one of them.

4 weeks of Money Mindset Challenge
For me is the money dates, Enneagram Type 1 relates to money and my money story and money pattern.

I put in more trust in myself, when I do my money dates, I trust what I receive from the universe (eg. Consolidate the loose notes, looking at my finances figures) they provide me the proofs that money is here already.

When I believe it, externally also supports me, like clients and partners want to work with me, pay me timely, grants get approved etc...

I suddenly feel I am being supported more now. This 4 weeks program definitely helps me, I feel encouraged when I start to understand my finance numbers. It's not so frightening now.

It is very nice surprise to find $1k in my room.

I get to know my personality after 43 of staying with myself haha is like omg.. Never been so clear and connected with myself.

I constantly seeking for my own identity and clarity. I feel so loved every time I uncover who I am.

I am happy that I am getting closer to myself emotional, mentally, I like such feelings. Be comfortable with myself.

Day 126: Antioxidant Check

My friend asked me to check my antioxidant rating.
It's 45k, healthy range lol :D

10 years ago, I didn't eat so much fruits and vegetables.
It was in the red zone, around 10k.

I try to drink smoothies and eat vegetables and fruits every day.
I trust my body. It is possible to gain back my health.

Quite ironic that when I have no illness, my antioxidant was low.
Now I have diabetes, my antioxidant is at the healthy range.

Universe has no logic, it is magic!

Day 125: IOPT Study Group - Money

3 Blindspots about Money

Feeling Uncertain
Unhealthy: My want and will were affected.
Parent money patterns are not healthy affecting the child's money pattern.
Money beliefs could be gulity of receiving money, encounter money pain.
It could be generation money pattern and cycles.

Healthy: I want myself and my want get fulfilled.

Tendancy to Give Up
Unhealthy: Having too many ideas and unable to execute, easily giving up.
Huge fear of not completing.

Healthy: I am able to complete the work given.

Burnout
Unhealthy: Making too much commitments.
Feeling gulity to be free.
Must fill up every time slots.
Constantly feeling tired, stressed, anxious!

Healthy: I need a break, I can slow down my pace whenever I need.

Reflect what is my money story.

How can you relate with the 3 Blindspots?
Feeling Uncertain
I used to feeling uncertain, doubts myself a lot.
I can't make wise decisions, but I can.
I trust myself a lot more.
I love and care for myself.

Tendency to give up
As I doubt myself a lot, I always having huge fear and anxiety to complete the work.
The results are not fantastic, due to fear, anxiety.
Now I am able to trust myself, I don't give up so easily.
I will find ways to get the solutions that I need.

Burnout
I used to put all my schedule full, fear that I am too free.
Now I don't put everything into my schedule.
I give myself space, self care and me time.
I feel less anxious and feel more calm.
When I am tired, I just rest.

What do you want in the areas of money?
The money are for 6 keys areas:
My healthy lifestyle: Food, exercise
Education
Business
Travel
Communication / Internet
Insurance

Are these wants your wants? Yes, I need at least $4000 a month to pay my bills, my business expenses, my courses, my clothes, my facial, my travel.

Day 124: A Moment to Celebrate

RWDC is 8 today.

I hardly celebrate my small successes as I thought they were too small to be acknowledged. But after looking at my finance numbers, I have done 180+ design projects over past 7 years.

Today, I choose to celebrate these small successes as they are signs of my growth.

I would like to
Thank my coaches, Hyder, Evelyn, Jeffrey, who constantly shed light into my life.

Thank Justin, who helped me to understand my business figures.
"If you do not count your money, you have nothing to count in the end." - Chellie Campbell

Thank my clients, business partners and friends who supported my business over the years.

Thank SG Govt, who gave me payouts in some months, so that I don't have to close down my business during challenging times.

I get to realise teamwork is strength. I started my small team last year and it has been helpful and we can do a lot more to contribute back to the society.

Another special milestone for my design company. May my team and I continue to grow and expand. RWDC keeps me curious and alive constantly. I am grateful.
#RWDC #GrowthMindset #CelebrateSmallWins #AllowAbundance #JoyfulVictory

To add on: Ee Dzu celebrated with me at Balanced Living.
I totally forgotten about this special day.
Healthy food, good company, nice ambience.
What else can I ask for?

Califlower Rice with Organic Chicken

Lemon Cake

Day 123: Money Tapping

This week is the 3rd week of Evelyn Money Mindset Challenge.

Somehow my collarbone was in pain, Evelyn helped me to release the stress and pain in the collarbone.

I wasn't able to release the past totally on that day itself. But my collarbone pain has subsided now.

I realised as I talk more and more about my money issues and relationship with money.

I am no longer feeling helplessness. I gain strength as I can see the clarity part.

I used to avoid talking and looking at money. It's like "nothing" to talk about. So little money, money in debts etc. But now I reflected, it has a lot of wisdom.

I am am able to see my money patterns, what sad money story that I have been telling myself that I can't have money. All these are not real truth.

New money affirmation:
I have money.
I deserve money.
Money flows to me easily.
I can take care of money.

Just these few months, you keep working with me on the money, asking me to look for money and celebrating small wins. It really helps me to shift my mindset.

Emotionally, I feel I have. I feel enough.

Evelyn keeps saying her methods work. 😄 It's sometimes hard to believe such affirmation works. I must align with my actions and self awareness. Taking one step at a time. I no longer feeling so stressful now. I just touched my collarbone, no longer in pain. 💓💓💓🎊 Yeah must celebrate 🎉

It was very painful on Tuesday. I didn't lie... 🤣 The pain was intense. Now the pain is cleared. So amazing... 😄👍🏻 I really addressed the issue. The stress that I worried, I might be in debts again...

Now I understand the pain. So cool, I found the cause to the collarbone pain. I wasn't able to let go of the past. I understood why. I wasn't feeling safe to let go.

Now I am able to let go.
It is safe for me to let go of the past.
Money is already here.

Day 122: I found $1000 in my room!

This morning I asked myself what do I need to learn from money date.
An idea came in and said, "Collate all the loose money."
I took out all my ang pow and start counting, took out the $5 dollars and my black wallet.

I found $1000 in my room!

I was so amazed. I always thought I don't have money. But turns out to be I have money and money is already here!
This is so amazing and I am thankful for this learning.

I find that money dates do helps me to understand what are my money goals, how do I expand and grow my wealth.

Last week, I couldn't have the courage to go through my financial figures.
This week, I am able to.
You know what, I am very grateful that my helplessness about money is gone.
I can really live my life the way I want it.